Its like this. After Tuesday we have stayed texting each other each day spoken a couple times on the phone. Hopefully we're sorting out another hook up for the not too distant future. Maybe because we're in the same town or maybe I'm just a little paranoid with my oh so analytical brain but from what I've experienced in the past with females there has usually been a lot of telephone conversation in the initial stages and then it quietens down but still regular contact. My mind seems to be doing somersaults because this...is not like that and its got me trying to read the situation. If she's as interested as she appears to be then all I need to do is relax and take it as it comes - don't force the issue as it may just be a slow cooking dish which willl taste better when its ready. It has brought me outside my comfort zone as I'm quite comfortable with hours of conversation. I have done 4 - 5 hours straight conversations on a regular before - some conversations have started before midnight and finished by sunsrise - they do tire you after a while but its all good.

I wouldn't say I'm the love at first sight person but she seems quite nice and I would be happy to let this flower grow if the soil stays good and the rain comes in season. I know Thursday was a fairly long day for her so I shouldn't be bothered that 3 times when I called she never picked up - could have been busy chilling out. My sister always says to me "assumption is the mother of all mess ups" and I don't want to assume anything. Neither should I feel the need to ask advice every step of the way I guess, because I'm blessed to have gained knowledge on a level to advise friends and family in their relationships but part of me is a perfectionist and though I am used to not getting things all my way I just don't wanna do anything to mess it up. I like my space and don't want to be seen as a clingy type - I'm just not like that but I am loyal, devoted and passionate. Over time I hope my qualities that I have been working on do come out for the best. I pray that I am able to tap into those areas of my abilitiy that shy away from the limelight when necessary so I can keep things on an even keel.
If wisdom is the practical application of knowledge in the appropriate time then give me even a 10th of what Solomon had and I'll be happy.

Deep down there's something inside of me that thinks things may not last very long but I hope this aint the case. I can't remember whether it was the American preacher Jamal Bryant or the New Zealand preach Brian Tamaki both of which I'd taken in sermons from in recent times who said that "God will only give you a glimpse of your future". If I'm being given a very practical glimpse right now then I pray it is a fruitful one that takes me into that next level as a person. All in all I am exceedingly grateful and hope that I can have some sort of future with this c person in my life - whoever "the one" may turn out to be I hope thy are as special as everybody has claimed they will be for the past 3 or 4 years of my life. Personally I've given up on the chase - how ever it happens if its destined to happen then cool. Learning to live in the here and now with an eye on the future is something that takes time to master but its something we all have to learn to do.