This is the realisation I came to last night when I was talking to him.
I don't know if Bagpuss ever left the UK and went Stateside so I guess I'll start by explaining just who he is, just in case.
Basically Bagpuss was a big fluffy cat, star of one of many many TV programmes from my beloved childhood. He lived in a shop, with Professor Waffle (the name David retaliated with for me, given I talk so much and my new nickname), and all he ever did was yawn.
There are lots of things about David that he worries do or will cause problems for us when we live together, things that I simply find endearing.
I usually ring him at 10.00pm every night, 10.30pm if it's an Eastenders night and he's watching the repeat on BBC 3 because he was watching the racing earlier on BBC 1 and missed it.
If I ring any later he will yawn through our entire conversation, constantly apologising, insisting he isn't bored listening to me, he's just an old shite who needs his sleep (very diplomatic of him).
By contrast I go to bed much later, very rarely before midnight, because I just have trouble sleeping before then.
Last night he said he's worried that when we live together he will look like (to quote him in his own words) 'a boring old bastard' if he trundles off to bed at ten thirty.
I told him not to be silly. It's a trivial thing to me, he can go to bed whenever he likes...it's me with the weird sleeping habits, not him. I told him if he's tired to go to bed. My mum believes he'll be good for me in that way...I might actually get to bed at a decent hour for once - she can't see me sitting in front of the computer for hours knowing the love of my life is tucked up in bed just upstairs. She makes a valid point....hehe
He had me in hysterics last night as ever...he just kept shouting
KKEEEEEEEEEAAAAGGGGGAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!
of course referring to the fact that Newcastle United finally have a new manager, Tyneside's very own hero, Kevin Keagan is back. David was like a kid! And they won 4-1 which is a vast improvement on recent form, so he was bound to be happy.
It was nice to hear, because recently he's been a bit low, through lack of money and I reckon seriously that he has Seasonal Affective Disorder. He's definitely a summer person.
As for me...I'm down too a bit, for various reasons.
1, I am so glad that David and I are a proper couple now, but short term it has changed very little. It's been 5 weeks since I saw him. Doesn't sound like long, but when you're head over heels in love with someone, you ache for them when they nip out for a pint of milk. I miss him, pure and simple.
2, College is still a little on top of me. I can't pinpoint where the problem is, I just feel like I have lost control a litttle bit, the sheer volume of work done or to be done can be a little overwhelming sometimes.
3, I think a major part of this is down to the fact that I have quit smoking, after four years of smoking at least 20 a day. I have the Nicotene patches and though they are semi working, I am still getting some cravings and I am a weak willed person at the best of time, so I don't know if i can keep it up. Maybe it's a bad time to quit, maybe there is no real good time...I don't know.
What I need to do is learn how to be better organised, how to have a little patience and just...take a deep breath and enjoy the ride that is my life....because putting everything into perspective...things are pretty damn good right now!
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