Okay so I really need some advice and if there is anyone out there who thinks they can help me, I would really appreciate it.
The thing is, as I said in my last blog, there was a chance I might be pregnant, that David and I are going to have a baby. I didn't truly believe that though.
For the past couple of weeks I've been shrugging off the possibility even though everyone around me has said the same thing - they think I am. I have no vibes telling me I am, and the mere absence of my period is not a good enough indicator on its own. With the polycystic ovaries, I regularly have late periods and sometimes miss them out altogether. My last one ended on November 22nd.
However a trip to the doctors today has me wondering. I went because I've been off college with the killer bug thats been sweeping the UK the last couple of months. I've had everything except the snotty nose - sore throat, cough, fever, sickness, lack of appetite - I didn't even smoke for four days but that's as long as I managed to stop for. I went to the doctors because I'm sick of still coughing my guts up, and I believe it's because I smoke that I still have the cough.
So I got myself a prescription for Nicotene patches and I'm gonna quit from first thing tomorrow morning.
Anyway...a couple of things I've noticed have me wondering about the pregnant thing though.
First - I am peeing all the time. I mean literally every ten minutes I'm off to the toilet. I go out and I'm looking for the loos because I know I will need to go. If I am not peeing I have a constant feeling that I need to go. I was always quite predictable in that area. Every night before I go to bed I go to the toilet and thats usually it for me, I sleep through. The past week though, I've been getting up through the night. Last night was a classic example. I went to the loo, got into bed...ten minutes later I'm up and peeing again. I walked the dog last night and virtually had to run home, I was busting to go. And I almost made it. How embarrrassing is that?? 26 years old and I reached my toilet door and peed myself, I just had no control. It's like a constant pressure on my bladder. Until today I thought maybe it was linked to the cough, maybe that I had weakened the muscles down there by coughing so much. Now...I don't know.
Okay, the second thing. My boobs. The nipples aren't darker or anything like that, but they are sore. Actually no, that's an understatement. They're rock hard and they hurt. I mean I can't bear to touch them.
That's where things get even more embarrassing. Wind. I'm farting like, constantly, with no control over it.
Finally...sleep. Man, am I sleeping. I've always been a bit of an insomniac, a night owl and that's still true but nothing like I used to be. I used to be up until 2 or 3 am and still be able to get up at 8am. Now though, I'm in bed for midnight and having major trouble getting up in the morning. I'm sleeping every chance I get and if I could get away with staying in bed 24/7...I would.
I just looked on the net and to my horror all the things I just described are early symptoms of pregnancy. All the things I've been writing off as just part of me being ill. Worse, they are symptoms of weeks 4 to 5, which is what I would be if I am.
So what I want to know is whether people think I should take this seriously? What's put me off is how much it would mean to me if I were...it would make me feel so complete, I've wanted this for over seven years but I've had my heart broken by a string of miscarriages. I also know that my body has a habit of playing with my mind. If I allow myself to start believeing in this...chances are my period will turn up and I'll be disappointed yet again.
What I also want to know, is if there are any ladies out there willing to share...what were your early symptoms of pregnancy? Anything like what I am experiencing now? Should I be looking out for anything else? Should I take a test, or wait? Am I just being paranoid?
Any advice, any at all, would be GREATLY appreciated.
Thanks for taking the time to read this xxx
Posted by chebtastic1 on 2008-01-14 10:32:16 | Rating: n/a | Views: 96
Go get a test. Just because you don't "feel" pregnant doesn't mean you aren't. Better to be safe than sorry. It's important to get to the docor within the first 2 months. I will admit I was very tired the whole time I was pregnant, and yea, tif you are the peeing will only get worse. Good luck to you, I'll be praying for you.
go get a test. but the peeing could just be a infection, a home remedy that works is cranberry juice, the real stuff not cocktail etc, but at this early point being pregnant should not make you pee more often, the cause of that is when the baby is pushing on your bladder. defiently check to see if you are pregnant or not before you start the nicotine patch, it can have side effects for the baby.
i suffer from the same thing pco, i found when i was pregannt my moods were all over the place under my arms had lumos and were very sore and i was sick all day eveyr day the peeing didnt come till later on. Me and my fiance have been trying for another baby for a years now and i got all of your said mentioned symptoms alot of the time, if you have been trying for a baby or even hope to be pregnant be careful as it can build your hopes up and your mind can be playing games with you, i agree witht he rest tho you should buy a test and put yourself out of your misery of this guessing game. good luck and keep us posted
Yes, I'm very aware of what you mean about hopes being raised and then being disappointed. So many times I've had supposed signs of early pregnancy - signs that for most women mean they are pregnant, but I cannot assume the same. When you have this condition and you want it so badly, your mind does play tricks on you, and you find yourself picking out any small thing and convincing yourself your pregnant. That's why where most people would now be racing out for a test, I am simply hoping my period comes soon, to stop me kidding myself!
I've decided to hang fire and get on with my life for a few more weeks...if nothing by the time I go to see David in February, then I will take a test, with him by my side.
Thanks for your comment, I've actually never talked to anyone else with the condition, and not who has managed to concieve - was beginning to believe it just wasn't possible! xxx
