Ok. Today I realized that some guys are assholes. Im not gonna say that every guy in this entire world are all assholes. Hell I wouldn't even say that every guy in this city are assholes. But a good chunk of them are. And it's very hard to find a good guy out there. And it gets harder every single day.
Today I was chillin with my best friend, Megan, my ex {her cousin, John}, his brother Kris and her dad Clifton. And me and John were outside smoking cigarettes and he decided to tell me that he was still "in love" with me. And of course I still have feelings for the jackass. After every thing that has happened between the two of us I still care about him so very much! But I dont wanna date him again because I just don't wanna have to go thru all that again. Well he left his phone inside and being the nosy person I am I decided to go thru his texts to see if he had been saying anything about me to anyone. Well I read msgs from him to his GIRLFRIEND and his EX with them telling him that they love him TOO and miss him TOO which means that he had to of said it to them first. and they were all dated for that day..as a matter of fact they were dated for a few minutes before. While he was telling me that he loved me.
Now what I dont get is why guys think they are just so incredibly awesome that they can just play us like that. Well I am sorry. No matter what my feelings are towards that boy {that's right. Boy. Not man. Because he's no where near a man!} I am NOT going to be played. I just want ONE guy who won't be an asshole. Won't lie, cheat, or do drugs. Will treat me right. Love me for who I am. Not try to change ANYTHING about me. And will have eyes for me and only me.
To state the truth. I dont think there's a such guy out there. And if that's true. Then I would rather be alone than be with someone who's an asshole just because I don't wanna be alone.
I am really beginning to hate guys.
I understand that supposedly all guys aren't the same. But since that hasn't been proven to me yet then I dont believe it.
--Brooke
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