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Since I last wrote I've been proposed to, asked out, split up, and rumoured to be having an affair with a married man.

The first one, being proposed to, is a situation that got right out of control. A guy from Haiti has told me that he has chosen me to be his wife. This is all because I replied to his emails. We were only talking about general things and Christian stuff and then he told me that he has chosen to save himself for me until I am his wife. I emailed him to say that I did not feel the same way about him as he seemed to feel about me. It's the most blatent way I've ever been chatted up and it's kind of scary; That someone can be that intent and so definate in wanting to spend the rest of their life with somebody that they don't know. And to say it's what he prays for, even cries over... scary.

The second and third, being asked out and splitting up is about my new man. After I got stuck in the middle of two friends who were having a secret relationship and breaking rules by going out with each other I told myself I'd never put anyone in the middle of one of my relationships. My new man (stuff it, I'm guna call him 'Rich') is good friends with someone I worked with last year ('Si'). Si has decided that me and Rich shouldn't go out with each other because Rich isn't ready to go into a new relationship. Rich says he is 27 and can make his own mind up. Si thinks he knows best and doesn't want us seeing each other. So having asked me out on the Friday I told Rich the following Wednesday that we had all the time in the world and that getting to know each other slowly would just make what we eventually do more likely to be the right thing. I really like him but I'm scared that when we get together we will rush things. Then we will not see him for a couple of weeks (cos he lives a plane ride away). Then we'll meet up again and rush again. I don't want this. I want to learn to control myself and to be strong.

The fourth, a crazy rumour I was the last to hear about. I was having a really good night. I was with friends that I hadn't seen for about a month and their families and friends. I thought everything was fine and then the wife of one friend pulled me aside to tell me that there was a rumour that me and her husband were too close. I was so supprised. She told me that she knew it wasn't true as I had stayed at their house the previous month and got on with them both so well. She didn't think it was fair that many people at the event were aware of this rumour when I wasn't and so she wanted me to know. I couldn't believe it. I don't know who started the rumour but that was such a nasty thing to do to me and to the couple. It really hurt and it made me examine everything I'd done when I'd been around the guy.

I don't get what's happening. I've had little proper interest over the past four years and then all this happens. I could actually move to Haiti and get married!!! That's mad. I think I've got to put my focus on 'Rich'. not in any obsessive way but of all the men in my life at the moment this guy is actually interested in me for me. He's working at getting to know me better and investing his time in me. We've spoken on the phone for over 5 hours this week.

He's got his court case coming up and I still worry about that. I was talking to my mum about him today. She was saying that having met him she felt that he was a very depressed guy and had issues with rejection. My mum's good at that kind of thing so it's good to talk to her about it. She cares for people who suffer from depression and I know she's praying for him. I am too.