Hey everyone one it is 6:17 in the morning and its my day off, I just couldn't sleep have alot on my mind. Okay well lets cut to the chase. I am currently working as an associate in Wal-mart (what a joke) and have resently come to realize I DISPISE this job. Okay well I live in a town with the population of maybe 1500 or so, so its not all that big. (much bigger than the indian villiage I was raised in) Little town leaves you with little opportunities as far as jobs go, you either work Fast food, Factory, or Wal-mart, and lets face it this gay man is not doing the first two I mentioned. Well that past couple weeks I have had a few people come up to me telling me about job openings, the first one being a dispatcher for the police station. This would have been the ideal job for me, work 4 days during the week and off for 3. It would be perfect for me trying to go back to school and everything. Well had an interview but no cookies and milk. Another job opprotunity came along for a receptionist at a well known clinic in town. Okay to shorten it up, I filled out an app. drove an hour to take a 5 MIN TYPING TEST passed with flying colors and no interview. 

      Now someone has brought it to my attention that the reason I haven't gotten either job might be for the simple fact that I'm "GAY."  Another reason for not getting the receptionist job could be because I'm male and I'd be working with "GIRLS." The funny thing is, all my refrences were the girls who work at the clinic, so I don't know. It just really pisses me off to think that a small issue like this is keeping me from trying to better myself. Everyone keeps telling me, "Oh Shane it'll be alright don't worry." But its not alright, this is my life we're talking about here. Because I choose to love differntly than most people in this town, I can't move ahead in life. I'm sure most of you who read this are probably going to be sitting there thinking "This guy is a fucking baby, he needs to wake up and realize life is not no box of chocolates." Well I do know this, and don't expect it to be easy, I just want equal opprotunity thats what it boils down to. Grrr oh well life must go on, and somehow it always does manage to do that. Alright well I'm outie, write again soon.
Shane