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| Round two of one of those days.
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Dear whom ever,
I thought that things would get better after I wrote my entry yesterday, but in truth the anger progressed. I tried talking with my b/f about the way that I feel, and he sat a listened. I know he wants the ex and I to get along, and I want that too, not because it will make him happy but because in all truth she is a very likeable person. Well I ended up telling him that if I can't get over the way I feel its going to keep our relationship from moving forward.
Believe me when I say, I don't want to lose him I'd die for this man. But all in the same time, I don't want him to lose his ex as a bestfriend. And I just feel that if things keep going the way that they are, she's going to cut him out of her life completely because she's sick and tired of the shit. So I told him I was going to leave, I packed all my things and was willing to leave because I don't want her to lose him and I don't want him to lose her. And I feel that it would be easier for Ray (my b/f) to deal with losing someone he's only know for a few months, then it would be someone he's known for 11 years.
In the end Ray talked me into talking with the ex, telling her how I feel. And she feels the same way, she doesn't want me to leave because I make Ray happy. And she understand my reasons for wanting to go. Her and I are to much alike, we are both willing to give up anything to make him happy even if it makes us miserable. I'm just used to running away from all the bad things in my life. Now I'm going to stay with a problem and see it through to the end. So I'm still with him, and we'll see how things progress in the future. Wish my luck.
Shane
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Posted by caughtureyes21 on 2007-07-09 09:21:02 | Rating: | Views: 95
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