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Another day, more drama

If you have read any of my past post, you know that things haven't been the best for a while. Well lets just say yesterday, everything managed to get worse. I was standing in the kitchen early in the morning doing the dishes, when my b/fs ex-wife walked in. Ok I'm standing there shirtless and have on jama bottoms. Well she happen to notice the hickie on my shoulder. This isn't the first time something like this has happen. The last time this problem accured her and my b/f had a big arguement blah blah blah. Ok well she acted like everything was fine. The remark she made was "Raymond needs to grow up, he is 32 hickies are things teenagers do" and the way she said was kind of playful. Later on that day when Ray came home from work I told him she saw my hickie, and let him know that she saw his the other day. Well a while later he invited her over for dinner. I'm in the kitchen fixin Corn on the cob and Mashed tators, with my shirt on but showing my chest and stomach. (its kind of hard to explain, i had my arms in the sleeves of the shirt just pulled my head out of the hole and put the front of the shirt behind my neck.) The hickie on my shoulder was covered could not be seen, and Ray walks in the Kitchen with Dawn (ex wife) with no shirt on at all. And she's asking us both, "if you know I don't like hickies and you're putting them in places i shouldn't see then why walk around with out shirts to rub it in my face?" Ok for one, it was not my fault that she came over un-invited and saw me with out my shirt. Two its not my fault that Ray decided he was going to walk around with no shirt on. Alright then she had to ask Ray "Why" when he knew it was a problem before, and does he think of her. Well he straight up let her know, that he doesn't think of her when we're together and doing things like this with ont another. And we do these things because its something we decide to do when we're together. She didn't like it, so she left and now she doesn't want to come around at all. I can understand why she feels the way that she does. And by all means niether one of us were without shirts to rub it in her face. She kept asking the questions, and Ray finally stoped sugar coating it, and she got the answers she didn't want to hear. I feel bad for the whole thing, but I do not regret and never will regret any of the things Ray and I do in bed together. I'll keep you posted if anything changes or what other fucked up situations accure. Shane