So Scott finally found another job. We're so lucky that we got tax returnes this year, and that my family is willing to help us.. If it weren't for that, we'd be in deep $#!% right now. They always back us when things turn bad. With our savings depleated and money short we're extremly blessed to be as well off as we are.

Of course we're fighting again too.

Scott and I agreed long ago that I would take care of the finances because I have a better mind for math... and I'm more responsible. O_o  Well, after he saw our checking balance last week he started attacking me, saying that I was being irresponsible with our money. He claimed that I had been hiding our finances from him and lieing to him when he'd ask about it.

All of his accusations were false. I never lied to him. He tends to make up things and then forget whats real. I kept him informed...when he would listen to me. I know that this is part of FAS. I know I should be prepared for all of this...

I dont think I'm strong enough to deal with him. Not for the rest of my life.

It hurt soo bad to have him throw our finances in my face. I've held a steady job the entire time I've known him. He's been fired four times in six months!!!    

But now that I'm going to school and working part time, he can blame us being poor on me. Its not fair. I'm up late every night trying to find solutions to our problems. I don't sleep because I worry about our money all the time.  He workes...sometimes.

He contributes most now that I'm part time, but I carried him every time he lost a job or quit for a stupid reason. MY savings account that I had before I ever met him, is what we lived on and completly drained!

And yet it's my fault we're poor.