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Why do I do it, just had a binge,so stupid, was doing so well. I always wait until a night that my boyfriend is at work so he won't know as he would not 'let' me do it. (not that I let him control my life but he knows that i dont want to binge and is looking out for me, as he knows that it would make me un happy). God dammit, i'm tempted to go down to the gym a bit later on tonight, since it is open until 10pm, it might make me feel a bit better about what I did earlier. Feel fat, huge and disgusting.
Was meant to be going to that class tonight but i wimped out as i was nervous, if i'd of gone, I wouldn't have done what I did.
Why do I have such a bad relationship with food, why do I think it will make me feel better, cos I know that it won't, it makes me feel awful and makes me so angry with myself.
all I cant think about all day, everyday, is my weight, I don't think I will ever be thin enough for my standards.
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Posted by butterfrog on 2007-09-17 12:01:41 | Rating: | Views: 120
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You have to forgive yourself sometimes and in fact, include set backs in the whole scheme of success.
You have to expect to "screw up" sometimes...but see it in light of a larger project towards weight loss.
I think I dare say we all binge eat from time to time.
What helps me to put guilt aside is to go for a workout at the gym, and then I tell myself I'm okay and I'm gonna keep going with my plans.
I don't know if I make much sense, but there you go.
Also, don't become too fixated on your weight...Rather, focus on being healthy and exercising and enjoying the new found energy and benefits of working out...no matter what size you are.
This way, I believe that you're more likely to reach success and to minimize disappointment.
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Posted by Cecy24
on 2007-09-17 12:18:59
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You know,women worry too much about weight.You are,first and last and always,a HUMAN BEING.This world is full of stick-thin women who have about as much character appeal as Adolf Hitler.They think they are so pretty that they don't need to develop a personality at all.Their only job in life is to make a man's todger shake,rattle and roll,and they are sorted for life.Developing their own identity outside the covers of OK magazine doesn't bare think about.They have no humour,no sense of fun,no nothing outside of the mirror.They are wonderful,beautiful,perfect and the world owes them a living.CRAP.
You are far more interesting and I bet you are a lovely person with a great personality.THATS what matters.Not how thin you are.I bet you have a great sense of humour and are fun to be with.YOU just have to believe it hun.
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Posted by Wavey
on 2007-09-18 04:05:19
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Thank you both for your comments, that last one almost made me teary. I kno I worry too much, and i scare myself with how I act about food sometimes. but my boyfriend is aware and always keeps an eye on me, makes sure I am eating and helps me see myself for what I am.
Going to the gym makes me feel much better, I go a fair few times a week and just do what I can manage. But I enjoy it so it makes me feel good from al angles really.
Thank you
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Posted by butterfrog
on 2007-09-21 06:24:53
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