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...was the part I must have missed.
She sent me a text message last night asking me how I was doing. How am I supposed to respond to that? "Sarah, darling! Oh you know, I'm fine, just can't get you out of my head. Don't worry about me, I just can't eat or sleep. I'm coping fantastically." I didn't know what to say so I didn't respond. I might call her again today, maybe, although hearing her voicemail message makes my stomach lurch because I miss her voice.
I broke up with Ryan today. Woo, go me. Right. He couldn't figure out why there was no emotion in my voice, why I didn't cry as he did, why I got up and left immediately after saying that I thought we should see other people. He chased me down the street screaming. What happened to him? We were never healthy, I never got attached -- so how did he?
And now I realize, he must feel the way I do.
Fuck. I'm so worthless. I'm breaking other people's hearts exactly as she's broken mine. Poor Ryan. Maybe I should at least pretend I cared, do you think that would ease the pain?
First I'm going to text Sarah, and it will say nothing but "I really miss you, Sarah." Then I'll call Ryan, let him cry, let him talk. If I don't care, how can I expect her to?
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Posted by burning_example on 2008-03-22 12:55:16 | Rating: | Views: 63
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Don't pretend to care. It's easier to get over someone if you can find a way to hate them a little. That's just my opinion. Sorry a/b Sarah.
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Posted by icanttellyou
on 2008-03-23 18:26:28
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