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Ok. So. I am going to start a blog because I need a place to vent. I mean, I could do that with my friends, but I would rather be able to talk without inhibitions to people I do not know, so that there are no presets about who I am, because I would rather be the one do decide that. And now this is sounding way too preachy, so now on to why I need to vent in the first place.
          My boyfriend broke up with me about two weeks ago, and I am just dying. Thirty minutes after he broke up with me, he started dating his ex girlfriend. Couldn't he have been a bit more discreet? I guess not. And he still wants to be friends, and I've gone along with it because I would rather have at least that contact with him than none at all. And he really is a good friend, and he is also like a brother to me, in the sense that I can tell him anything. But he isn't like a brother to me in the sense that he is the coolest, greatest, funniest, sweetest and most generous person I've ever met. He truly is my better half. We have the same sense of humor, and he just GETS me. Anyways, I thought I was over him, until a few days ago I saw on face book that his new girlfriend (who I am friends with as well, since like 7th grade. Oh god.) set her status to Sarah Mil***(Names not disclosed for the safety of all involved. Even though I pretty much hate her guts, I don't want her to get raped.) is in love. It was kind of like a drug relapse. With tissues.
          And so, we still talk a lot, with me sitting there thinking about the phrase 'tis better to have loved and lost than never loved at all, and him thinking about Sarah. And loving Sarah, apparently. And my best friend, Stevie(who is a girl) is not very into talking about emotions, and shit such as that. Plus, all her relationships have been with people online. Which I think is just ridiculous, and I think ost would agree. And if she had met them, it would be totally different, but these are just random people she met on WoW. Which is a bit to addicting for it's own good, if you ask me, which nobody did. Not that I play it, since I'm the kind of nerd who commits to school, not the kind who plays ridiculous amounts of video games. I maintained about a 3.7 this school year, which is OK. And next year I'm planning on taking more rigorous classes, with plenty of AP calsses, which will also raise my GPA if I can maintain Bs in those classes. Plus, I'm on student council next year, and that will look great on all of my college apps in two years. This summer for AP english I have to read and annotate two books, write an essay on one, and then write an in class essay on the other on the first day of school. Plus have two tests on them both. Those classes should be fun. I'm also taking AP spanish, which is probably going to be my most difficult class next year, since I'm skipping a year of spanish, and going straight into AP. But my spanish teacher said that I would be one of the only ones of her students who she would actually suggest doing that for. And a bunch of my teachers wanted me to ITA for them next year, but I couldn't fit it into my schedule.
       ITAing is an intructional teacher's aid, so I would actually help to teach the class and plan lessons. In the future, I'm considering english teacher or marine biologist for my career paths, but I can't decide. I have a feeling that I'll settle for the happy medium of biology teacher. YAY! That's a really good idea, I think I'll do that.
        Speaking of student council next year, there's kind of this guy I kind of liked before Ian asked me out, and I kind of feel like I kind of like him again, and kind of a LOT more than I used to, because he is really sweet and sensitve, and in my opinion, the exact kind of guy I would like to spend pretty much the rest of my life with. His name is Tyler. And he is also a babe. And we actually talk a lot, it's not the kind of thing where I admire from afar.  He's one of my friends, and I'm going to have pretty much all of my classes with him next year. We both went to get schedule changes because we needed to put student council in our schedule, and then he made the councillor move our schedules around so that we had a bunch of classes together. And now I don't really know what to think of that, even though it really does sounds like he likes me, and I wouldn't mind at all if that was the case, actually, that would pretty much make the rest of my life. And yeah. But I really don't know what to do, and he wrote his nuber in my yearbook, even though he knows I already have his number, and wrote call me and we'll hang out, so maybe I will, because I really like him, and I'm pretty sure I'm the only one who does, because he's kind of distant exept with the people in school who actually have a brain, and apparently I'm one of them.
          He was in my english class this year, and we read Taming of the Shrew out loud in class, in which I was Kate and he was Petruchio, so for those of you who don't know,  those are the two people in the play who end up married and happy, and our english teacher commented on how well we played the parts, and chemistry between us, and it wasn't awkward at all. And I also have this really weird feeling that he's going to ask me to prom next year, so I think that I should start on finding a dress right now, because I have to look aazin beause that's my chance. I'm pretty much a fly on the wall most of the time, and a lot of this whole relationship stuff never happens to me.  I got asked out once in eighth grade by this loser who still really likes me and kind of follows me around sometimes, but it's cool, since I'm just the nicest person in the world, I tolerate it. and then there was Ian. Who I scared off in some way or another back into the arms of his old girlfriend, and now they are in love, and want the whole world to know. So she announces it on facebook.
           That says something about our generation, doesn't it? I am so sick of all the shallow people in my generation, and in the world. Everyone is so material, and it's so pathetic in my mind. It's so ridiculous to have your life revolve around things taht cost money. I know this sounds corny, but I really do believe that the best things in life are free. Ok, so if you read this far, I'm assuming that you care about my opinion, although I can't imagine why. That's why now, I'm puting you out of your misery and ending ths blog.  I will probably write again tomorrow, or friday, or next saturday, or after that not for another week. Just be aware that in the next two weeks, I will be in contact. Bye, talk to you soon.