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I figured that since I write so much about my step father but dont really say anything about it that most people would understand I would do that now
My mom married him when I was 3 years old but they where together for a while before that so he is the only dad I ever had since the man who fathered me didnt want tanything to do with me.
By the time that I was 5 he started to get mean, always drinking and yelling and takeing his frustrations out on me, I still remember the first time I actually hated him. We where sitting and eating dinner, it was KFC, and being a little girl coleslaw was gross and I wanted more chicken, he said that i couldnt have anything until i ate the whole container of coleslaw and i started to cry. I remember mom trying to give me some chicken and he grabbed it and threw it really hard at her then took what was left of the food and threw it outside, when he came back in I was still crying and he got mad grabbed me by the hair and practically threw me down the hallway to my bedroom. All I can remember thinking is "what did I do that was so wrong". As time went by he got worse. things eventually got to the point that I was terrified to be around him and when ever he wasnt on the road working I would hide as much as i could in my bedroom with one of my sisters. There are a few things that stand out in my mind as the worst things that he did to me. They are 1. he got mad at me for not doing something perfect at ten years old and while i was cutting the grass along our driveway, he snuck up behind me with a tennis racket in hand and he hit me with it 7 times in the lower back ever since then I have sharp pains in my back. 2. My sister had reported him to social services and they came out to the house and talked to him, so he was really pissed, well when I got home from school he cornered me outside the house and started yelling at me, I kept telling him that i didnt say anything, but he decided that since i was the oldest it was my fault that my sister was only doing something because i had done it once before, so he grabbed me by the hair and took my head and slammed it into the outside of the house a couple times and then when he was done with that he threw me on the ground and kicked me in the ribs a couple of times. Then he told me to get up stop crying and never ever let it happen again.
There where many other things that happened but those where the two biggest to me, some others where just the hitting all the time, standing in one spot for over 8 hours listening to him repeat himself in his lectures, which when those happened it was almost worse for me than to have him hit me, but I think that it was just quicker to be hit, and the pain would go away sooner than the 8 hours being up. I was told that i was worhtless and a piece of crap for most of my life. These and other things I live with everyday, I am still scared to death of my step father even though i know that he has no power over me anymore, but it still hurts when he gets mad and says things to me, or tells me that because of who my family is I am going to be a slut just like them (he is talking about my mothers family).
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Posted by bug23 on 2007-10-31 13:26:54 | Rating: | Views: 115
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I also have an asshole of a stepfather, so My heart goes out to you completely
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Posted by deepthinker21
on 2007-10-31 13:30:46
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I don't know what to say. This is very sad.
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Posted by SubTomato
on 2007-10-31 13:33:06
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Wow. I'm speechless. I had a wicked step-mother for 18 years she was just evil. She put her hands on me once and I whooped her ass and she never touched me again after that. But my question to you is, where was your mother during all these times and what did she do? I pray that the things he did and continues to say to you will not damage you emotionally. He is the one who is a piece of crap. Keep your head up.
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Posted by missbittersweet
on 2007-10-31 13:38:02
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My mother never knew about any of this until after I was moved out at 16, she honestly had no clue that things where are bad as all that, I was too afraid to tell her I thought that i would get into more trouble with him. she did finally find out when my sister got the crap kicked outta her one night and shortly after that she left him, but by then i was already gone.
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Posted by bug23
on 2007-10-31 15:09:22
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