I just wanted to write a blog, but I really didn't have anything to write about.  So this is me writting about nothing.

Sometimes I get these moments were I can write and write and write and have so many good things to point out, and other times like this I'm lost for words.  Not really knowing what to say.  I think that's because at my good times of knowing what to say and when to say it God is with me telling me what to say.  He's amazing.

I'm totally random so bare with me.

I've been pondering DEEP thoughts today....like if I can't even keep a fish alive how do I keep myself alive day to day.  I eat when I need to, I sleep when I should, and some how I just KNOW what I should do in order to keep myself alive yet another day.  Isn't that amazing????  Crazy I tell you.

My thoughts wonder in weird places sometimes.  Most of the time I don't even understand why.

Sometimes I wish we were all the same.  We had everything exactly the same, we all looked the same, everything was exactly the same.....you know why?  Cuz then no one could compare themselves to other people, no one could complain they don't have as much as the next person, no one can have an ego and think they are the hottest one out there, no one would have to TRY and fit in cuz they just would.  In a society that strives for similarity its hard to find your place and be comfortable standing out.  It's hard not to compare yourself to the next person.....I would know....I'm guilty of it (majorly).

I think differently than most people and I think that's going to be a good thing going into psychology.

It's hard sometimes when you can't make up your mind.  I am so random and my interests change all the time.  I went to college for massage thereapy and enjoyed it for the most part.  I graduated and now I hate it, that's why I'm going back to college for psychology.  I just don't want to graduate and end up hating it again.  (that would be ok though, the states paying for college :D ).  But its weird though....some days I'm craving pop and the next day I can't drink anything but water.  Interesting....I know!

What about the life I don't have?  I always think about that.

So last but def. not even near the least.  I have to talk about this friend I have (well I consider her my sister, even though we aren't by blood, I bet we're closer than any sister could be).  She is one of the most amazing people I have ever met.  Gosh I put her through a lot of crap with me being a stubborn, prideful, resentful, bitter, unforgiving individual that I am.  She is the complete opposite of that....maybe that's why its so easy for her to hold on.  She's so free-spirited, loving, forgiving, accepting....and I'm none of that.  I believe we all have people that come into our lives to help us become a better person.  I know that through the few years we've been good friends I've become A LOT better person because of her...and everyday I continue to learn.  You know I could point out all of the bad things about her and I would ask he to find something wrong with me and she couldn't do it.  WHY?  Its not because I'm perfect, its because she loves me for who I am and accepts me for everything I was made up to be.......and all I  wish for is that someday I could be like her and I would be able to love her the way she deserves......unconditionally, freely, fully, and completely.