dude omg dnt hurt ur self i no lif sux now bt it will pik up its an epic journey nd fate wil hve a reason 4 her doing this 2 u now nd u might not no that reason til ur older bt jst try 4get bowt her ive neva been heart broken bt i cn kinda imagine wat it feels lyk i thort i luvd sum one turns owt i didnt bt trust me things will pik up nd if u end ur lyf u wnt geta c the most great things in the world. i no im onli 13 bt i do no sum stuff jst listen 2 me k!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks Kid - love the texting language - I can even comprehend everything you said - 'from the mouth of babes' aye! You had a deep soul for such a young person and thank you from the bottom of my heart for reply to my ranting. Yes I believe you are right - things will get better. People can vary so much from person to person on how they form relationships, unfortunately it seems I attach myself to few people in this way but when I do it seems my heart decides it is forever...

Dumb aye!

Take care kid - I really believe you deserve a very good life and hope that you find it or it finds you. May the true God bless you for being such a caring human being.

hey i no its silly but when read what you just said about me i cried that is the nicest thing some one has said to me in a long time and it made me smile. il always carry that with because i know im not always the nicest person. have things picked up since? i hope they have!

No kidding the previous commenter is only 13? couldn't tell by his illegible English.. (god help us if lyk enters our written language...)

Anyway, besides the point, the kid has a point - things will get better, there is a whole world of wonder and amazement out there. sucks this woman you loved has disregarded you - I know how that feels, and how that hurts.

But you can decide that you're more that that girl's perception of you. You don't have to disregard yourself, your talents, your big heart.

i know it's tough to see through the fog. Hang in there, give yourself the opportunitiy to shine someday, for someone else's world. Someone who'll appreciate you, as much as you do.

Thanks Madai. The last week since I have posted this has been a little better. I have focused more on helping a couple of close friends which has the added benefit of putting my own problems aside.

When I start to look inwards I realize that I do have a couple of good qualities to share with others, just not with someone I loved very deeply. Perhaps its not so much that I am jilted at being dumped as much as being angry with myself for being played. I'm not a player and don't fit too well into a world that is more ME than WE oriented but you and the others who have left comments have shown me there are very caring individuals left in the world.

The fog is starting to lift and there are other corners to turn and rooms to investigate which offers some hope. I have tried and failed to commit suicide - but I had really fallen into deep despair over the many things I have lost through the thoughtlessness and sometimes just outright evilness of others.

You have given me hope. Thanks you...

Hello,
I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. You are in my prayers. Please check out my site --- www.peacewithinreach.com --- for some encouragement and peace. God has such peace and purpose for your life. I encourage you to not let others determine your identity as a person. That's you and your Creator's business.
By His grace,
Pasta Fred

Thanks Fred, your comments are very welcome and very true. I once, not so long ago, had a very good relationship with the Father but when my wife of 16 years turned her back on me, the depression, grief and shame of it would not allow me to return to my place of worship. I turned my back on the Farther, but he has often tapped me on the shoulders since then to remind me of the need to return through friends and even starngers.

Weird how the heart works, it is very treacherous, indeed 'who can know it'.

ANyway thanks again for your words of kindness and your prayer. Perhaps it has helped me over the last week.

P.S Part of helping one of my friends is a weekly plan to build his and my spirituality up, as well as some personal life changes for both of us. Maybe I can once again have the faith and relationship I once had with him again. I know He is willing, put the question will his enemies leave me alone long enough...

Helloo

I do not want to sound racist, but that is the typical scenario in Germany. Every Chinese girl uses a boy, says sorry and goes away. Therefore I am sorry to here the same is happening over there too (But not surprised)

I had me heart broken lately too, with an Indonesian, but my story is not not as bad as yours ... It's much simpler

Peace