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crazy.

This is kind of a free-for-all blog.
I'll 1/2way catch you all up on Bailey and Katie
but I dont really feel like sticking entirely with that subject.
PS sorry I took those pictures down.
I'm a pansy and don't want a creepy old man to show up at my door.

I haven't gotten any action in... almost two years. It'll be two years on September... 14 I think?
That's a REALLY long time, in case you guys were interested.
Especially since it all stopped when I was sixteen, and I swear--- I grew a sex-drive at the age of sixteen. Convenient, isnt it?
For a long time, i convinced myself that's why I was bi.
I assumed that I just wanted action with anything that moved.

Let me say this.
I'm not ugly.
I'm really not.
I'm short and athletic and my face is sort of cute.
I dont try hard to look pretty, so I'm not gorgeous or anything.
But I'm not ugly.
I'm also extroverted.
And pretty funny.
I have tons of friends.
And yet, here I am, two years later.
The world doesn't make sense.
(that was incredibly cocky of me. I dont care. Im not cocky very often. But right now, that's that.)

I am obsessed with tegan and sara.
In an unhealthy way.
I really like rainbows (the shoes, not the phenomenon.)
I like iced, blakc coffee.

I have this navy blue zip up hoodie.
I cut the sleeves off and made it a vest.
I probably look ridiculous in it.
But it makes me feel gay.
So i wear it a lot.

Im not in love with Katie!
i had an epiphany.
Love her to death, but not in love with her.

Bailey is using me.
But I don't care.
I still like her.
I like the feeling of being whipped.
Im sure it annoys her.
But I cant help it.

Jonathan (church-boy) is a fabulous human being.
I think we might be destined for each other.
I would, no exxageration, marry him.
Even though Im not attracted to him.
He's cute and deep and insightful and fabulous.

Being pregnant sounds terrifying.
Lifeguarding is a crazy job.
I dont like sitting in the sun, so naturally
I opted to be a life-guard.

Snap peas taste delicious.
I used to eat them ALL the time with Katie.
Who will be home in ELEVEN days.
Praise God.
I miss that girl like crazy.

Im going to lunch with my ex-boyfriend in a/b an hour.
It should be an interesting event.
He's still dating his new girl, which is fine.
I just miss talking to the kid.
So Im fixing that.

i went to a party(ish. too small to actuall be considered a party.) with my runner friends last night.
One of my really close friends said that lesbians arent born that way--- they change because theyre too ugly and insecure to find boyfriends.
I wanted to laugh, cry, and punch her in the jugular all at the same time.
She also assumes that all gay girls have short haircuts.
She's ridiculous.
It was sort of funny though.
She went off about how she'd switch rooms if she found out her roommate was bi.
I tried so hard not to laugh.
I was sitting right next to her.
And I didnt make it.
I had to stand up and walk aroudn to stop laughing.
Then it was awkward because I couldnt tell her what was so funny.

This post was terrible.
Im hyper and my fingers are cold so its hard to type.
Im gonna go get ready now.