being alone is something everyone has to deal with at one point in their life.
its just worse when your in highschool. and REALLY have no one to talk to.

think about how many people you talk to ina day. really. on the phone especially.

i talk to people don't get me wrong. i just can't keep them talking......

i did talk today with ian which was really nice. and he really is a nice guy. but someone who likes kaila pavan and azra are not my type of guys. hahah, i'm sorry when i told marissa that i didn't like her she was like taken A BACK.i think i should keep my life , out of hers? i'm bad with that. i just spill it to people who don't want to hear because i have no one else to tell it too,

which is why i find myself here typing what i would rnormally be telling somebodyy. poop ppoooop.i just hate that i feel like no one can GET me. i feel like a freak.

1- eric and matt
2-cris and other random GUYS
3-alex,connor,foley,joe, GUYS
4-nobody
5-SHEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, jon, azra, joe, cool class
6- study hall and nobody
7-cris and phil

i just DO NOT converse with girls normally. and i get along better with guys. thats why my best friend is dexter. i want to see him tonight.

alright MARISSA FUCKING HUTH. i've never witnessed what just happened like 30 minutes ago. after tennis pictures i was like 'hey wanna go to wendys?" because she was talking about it during tennis, and so we meet each other there after practice and the ENTIRE time we didn't talk. like we really didn't. she texted the entire time.

literally. the entire time. she was having a "serious" conversation on aim while we were eating our awkard 5 piece chicken nuggets and water.

it was jsut one of thsoe things where it was a downer.

i paid money for my spirit wear that i DID NOT GET because the money i sent her did not go through.
i dont get a tax return
i dont get money from my parents.

what the hell do my friends think i am?

they always ask me to drive. i hate allison. like i like her normally, but she doesn't treat me like a friend. she treats me like i need to love her. like i need to get to her level.

i really don't like her way of life.

she's a coke head, pot head, and doesn't have her head on straight.