The release:
Current mood: selective


I am changing. I have engaged in some things that do not benefit me. I have decided to let those friendships go. Those folks are not real. I won't make excuses for why I chose to keep those folks in my life, I will just say that at this time I am letting them go.

Now back to my topic....I am in need of change. I reached out. Expressed the revelation. Whether late, or not. I am due for a change and I released. Instead of getting a "good for you", somehow I got a "I knew" this and "I thought that" oh and don't forget "I heard that from you before", "time will tell" and some other smart comments, that I could went to a complete stranger and got more compassion.

Wow... do you know how many times certain topics we have discussed about your life? THE SAME TOPICS!

wow.... "friends". Sometimes they choose the PERFECT opportunity to make you feel... I am sure there are several words you could fill in the blanks here folks.

On top of the fact that they pissed on my wound, they then followed it up with a "I have gone through it too... we all have". hmmmmm but who pissed in your cut?

Not Lendel.

It all left a nasty taste in my mouth, that lasted all nite.


I dreamed about taking a dump last night. Don't laugh, because that means there needs to be a release... so here it is folks. The release:

I suppose it left such a nasty taste in my mouth, because both of the individuals whom slapped me in the face with negativity, I have helped. I have listened. I have cared, I have prayed, I have thought, why are you doing that... but never did I ever tell them the disrespectful things I heard this weekend.

There is a fine line between telling someone how a man thinks and being down right disrespectful.

Matthew 12 :34

The tongue utters only what is already in the heart.

but let's remember this:

>> "Honesty is the best policy," or "I'm only being honest."

» "The truth hurts."

» "Wrong is wrong, and it must be corrected."

» "I've been through a lot, so it comes out in how I express myself."

» "It's just my sense of humor. Don't take it seriously."

Does not justify your behavior.

Work on examining how you speak to others and what motivates it.

Every time someone says. "The truth hurts," it never feels positive or encouraging. Our Savior never says this, but in John 8:32, He says, "The truth shall make you free." Do we have the wisdom to "free" others by blasting them with truth, or worse yet, our versions of the truth? A burdened heart carrying hurt and anguish in the name of truth is not set free but imprisoned and immobilized. Only God has perfect insight, judgment and wisdom to use the truth for another's ultimate good, and we must grow toward His perfection in this.

Hurting one another with words of truth, neglects every aspect of what James describes as "wisdom from above." Truth must be expressed in love, forgiveness, mercy, and peace. We must at times call a spade a spade when it comes to sin or serious error. Sometimes we must stand aside when another departs from truth to pursue another course. But we should never use the banner of truth to attack one another as brothers and sisters. We must deliver the truth in peace and righteousness.

Furthermore, none of us are perfect. And every single one of us has a monster in the closet. Some of us wake up and realizes there is a need for change, some of us never wake up, and some... well they can slumber forever.

I have several negative people in my life, SEVERAL. I will not allow anyone else to make me feel like this, regardless of how I have missed a turn or not realized something.

This is not a new years resolution. This is my solution to the crap that I have gotten back from "friends". People I have taken into my heart. I am not going to say I am hurt... nope it's not that...

And I am sure you feel like you are being attacked, oh friend of mine who is reading this like whoa.... But you know what? It's all good. Better for me realize who has my back in a supportive way, rather than beat me down when I am down.

And yes this one is open to read and closed to comments. I don't wish to hear the excuses, because there aren't any.

Trust me, I know that I should have changed my way of thinking long ago. I should have cut a FEW folks out my life YEARS AGO. But I know that I give and love and I make connections with people who are not BENEATH ME...(yeah let's not talk about that comment)but not at the same place I am at yet.... because I believe we are all created equal... just don't all awaken at the same time. So you are above everyone... Anyone.... REALLY?

I make connections with REAL people. One thing about it, money, education, and status do not make the person. That has been made clearly evident to me this weekend.