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 What's Wrong With Me?



What is it that Lady Macbeth says in that play of the same name? Get out, spot? Get out? That is how I feel every time I find someone pointing out what's wrong with me.

Now, don't get your panties in a snit trying to tell me not to be so hard on myself. These are obviously genuine things wrong with me that I don't like to admit. If I get called on it more than a half-dozen times in my daily life, it has to be true.

I don't like to be in the wrong. I don't like to lie or break a rule/law. I don't like it when others do these things or make excuses for them. So, why do I let it continue?

I am tired of letting the years go by and not fixing myself. I don't accept imperfections. I suppose I do set higher standards for "shlubs" than most do. If I can do better or be better, why wouldn't I want to improve and be the best? If it is too much strain on myself and my body knows this, I won't do it willingly. But, I guess until I'm in charge of the world, I don't have a say:P

So, painful as it may be, I want to know what all is wrong with me. Get it out in the open. And, then deal with it. Cry buckets of tears and scream like a baby if i must. Cut me, whip me, beat me senseless. [No computer chips, tattoos/branding or drugs/brainwashing.] But, get it over with so I can be the best person that I am able.

Not that I am one to talk, but we all should try. Shouldn't we? Or, do we continue to lax about with our vices and excuse them because life is so hard on us? Just when you think it's okay to be a "bum", someone comes along and puts you in your place. And, deny it if you will. Make excuses if you think you must. But, the boss is the boss. And, more than likely, you are not the boss.

Some days I feel like as good a guy as I can be...I still come out a monster, "shlub" or bad guy.

    Posted by brainstormer on 2009-05-29 23:49:34 | Rating: | Views: 70
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Awww. . I enjoyed the song at the end! ;)
Posted by  my_psyche_is_whack  on 2009-05-30 00:20:27 
  
I think if we lock hands together, Steph and get about 40 lashes...we might come to our senses:P Or, it will make for one hot lil scene later:P haha yea its getting late and im getting nutty:p I know you are...hence your recent post about perfection and fears. I thought you might relate:)
Posted by  brainstormer  on 2009-05-30 00:47:38 
  
What's wrong with me?
I am too hard on myself sometimes. Great blog
Posted by  virtualife  on 2009-05-30 02:06:26 
  
Virtual', I look at your picture too often and think there can't be anything wrong with you:)...but that's just the romantic fool in me talking:P I know you probably are hard on yourself as others say I am on myself. But, sometimes being "hard" is what keeps us sober.
Posted by  brainstormer  on 2009-05-30 02:17:08 
  
Oh believe me, there are lots of things wrong with me.
Thanks anyway. xxxx
Posted by  virtualife  on 2009-05-30 18:23:12 
  
Now that I think of it, who deems them wrong? By what rule system do you I or anyone determine what is wrong? For me, it's a mixture of how I was raised to think...what I have learned about religion along with text from the Bible...and my own gut instinct. I don't exactly give much consideration to law. And, only a small nagging part of me lets what others say is wrong get to me. Again, if so many say it...can it not be true?

I'd like to think you must be as beautiful inside as you appear outside, Virtual'.:) And, I hope you can help make the good outshine the bad/wrong.
Posted by  brainstormer  on 2009-05-30 18:31:52 
  
Wow, thank you brainstormer. Your words are really powerful.
Posted by  virtualife  on 2009-05-30 18:37:24 
  
As is that smile, mlady:) You know the old saying about turning a frown upside-down...well, you have your smile turned upside-down:P

When you say my words are powerful, I feel like a TV Salesman:P heh. What else can I pitch...

"From the guy who brought you the tales of Anonymis the white rabbit...it's Blog-wow!"
Posted by  brainstormer  on 2009-05-30 21:15:45 
  
Ahhhhhh Inner struggle. I have this too ..Why me?. What cant I be?. Whats the he*l is wrong with me?. Why don't I fit in the crowd?. Why am I so different from the rest?. I feel so alone in a crowd!....

That's just how I feel on a daily basis I think we all question ourselves and its completely normal....but then maybe I don't want to be "Normal"..and to be fair I think you are an unusual character too, and Amen to that or I would not be as interested in your blogs!.

Chill brainy.

Sara.x.

Posted by  sarafeline  on 2009-05-31 14:34:36 
  
Thanks for sort of silencing the H, Sara:P

We are not crowd people by nature. We do better in small sects. Knowing those we surround ourselves with well.

So you enjoy being a freak?:P I am not so comfy with that name/title. And, as much as I like to feel special and unique, I like to know I am not alone in a good way(not the "I need psychological help" way).

Tender hugs, sister rabbit.
Posted by  brainstormer  on 2009-06-01 01:17:35 
  
You want honestly? Well, you messed up the Macbeth quote. It's "Out, damned spot! Out, I say!" (can thank my high school English teacher for that-she was big on making everyone memorize Shakespeare quotes). Other than that? Who says there is anything *wrong* with you? Not me, I think everyone is how they should be. Be yourself and no one else. Are there things I dislike about you? Dislike is a harsher word...but if you ask if there are things that I'm not fond of, yes there are. I think you're to hard on yourself, I think you sell yourself short too often. Think you look at the negative things too often at times, and I think you don't take enough chances for fear they won't turn out positive. But these things just make me want to give you a good shake, or kick your butt. I don't see them as anything wrong or anything that needs to be changed. It's who you are. If you chose to change yourself, that's fine. But changing yourself because other people tell you that you should or because you want to be better for anyone else is..well wrong! If someone doesn't like you the way you are-well usually I'd cuss here, that's how strong I feel about that. I won't, but you probably know what I was gonna say. Think you should make a companion to this blog-but this time make it be what other people feel is 'right' about you. Focus on that! (and I'm serious about the 'right' blog. You really should if only to have written proof of the good things people see in you).

I'm gonna have to come kick your butt, aren't I? Oh, that song rocked btw. Never heard that before, but been awhile since I've listen to them.
Posted by  Heatherlyn  on 2009-06-15 04:09:54 
  
Best comment so far, Heatherlyn:P

Yea, the song is rather awesome:P Wish I coulda gotten a better video imbedded, though.

And, thanks for correcting the quote...although, Im sure Angie vV could do the same:P She too is a Shakespeare nut. I knew something was amiss. I just remembered seeing someone perform that scene on PBS one night long ago:P

I agree on most of what you said and gladly welcome the shake and butt-kicking as I've said before:P

I don't think I can write that RIGHT post. Every time someone tells me what's right with me, someone else tells me it's not right. So, the fact remains opinion. Unless I cling to the one/s who say/s I am right, there is no such truth.
Posted by  brainstormer  on 2009-06-16 02:52:11 
  
OK! Then I'll be sure to give you a butt-kicking and a good shake. So remember you said I could!

You really should write the 'right' post. Think of it this way-you know who knows you more than others. So when you see the comments, take the ones from the people that comment/read you often over the ones who have never commented before/rarely read or comment. And I would be surprised if someone tried to tell another person who comments they are wrong. Think you'll find only good comments, and it might actually surprise you! C'mon, I know you can write a blog like that. What are you afraid of? Why are you afraid of people putting what is 'right' with you but not with what is 'wrong' with you. So think about it. Could be a really good thing
Posted by  Heatherlyn  on 2009-06-20 01:19:08 
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