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 Just Once
Just once
I'd like to wake up
And not be afraid to face the day.
To not get that uneasy feeling
Of being alone and aimless.
Of not knowing how to fill my day
Without relying merely on "tinkering",
Shopping, walking and hobbies
That all take money
And time away from making money
Which this world demands of me.
Which makes me shake.
I can't be creative
Or think too much, too long,
When work is in demand
And service I must supply.
My life is on the line.
And, the clock keeps ticking.
I hate that feeling.

Just once
I'd like to wake up smiling,
Eager and grateful for each new day.
Ready with a plan.
Never wasting a moment
On fidgetting, second-guessing and worry.
I'd know just how to make the most
Of time and season.
I'd approach others warmly
Without concern and hesitation.
Without preoccupation.
A clear head
Whether or not the sky is cloudy.
No regrets.
Accepting and learning
From accidents and mistakes.
Helping to make this world
A better place.
Making an honorable name for myself.

Just once
I'd like to know
And believe
I'm alright.
I'm safe.
I can relax.
I'm happy with my life.
My family.

I await...
No.
I seek that day
Like a lighthouse at sea.
I want to believe it's there.
That I will find it.
Reach it.
Achieve it.
Have and hold it.
Be grateful for it.
Just once.

--brainstormer 3-4-09, written in roughly 7 minutes
    Posted by brainstormer on 2009-03-04 14:52:21 | Rating: | Views: 163
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I can barely think in 7 minutes.
You're are pretty good.
Posted by  virtualife  on 2009-03-04 15:10:58 
  
Like swimming in the sea, fight it and it will drown you, relax and it will keep you afloat.Its a question of faith.
You’re a good wordsmith,looking forward to see what you can do when you have more time.

puck
Posted by  puck  on 2009-03-04 15:16:45 
  
That is beautiful... That is great timing too. It touches home for me. I can relate to those feelings.
Posted by  gkc1968  on 2009-03-04 15:18:46 
  
Nice in 7 minutes! I like that you changed await to search and I'd change the lighthouse (which is stationary) to ship, boat searching for the lighthouse. Just saying! Well-written, though.
Posted by  Ellie2008  on 2009-03-04 22:16:26 
  
What are you trying to say, 'Skys??:P Boy, yer not winning any friend points so far if you can't even come close to following Brainstormer rule #5:) Just ask heatherslife:P

Not up to my standard?? Which is?? Yet, you learned more here than you did from my letter...hmm. [Leers at her from afaaaaar.]

Why must everything tragic be beautiful, gkc??:P And, how can you relate when you are doing so well? I know one or two lines I wrote matches your comments in the About Me section. Your business and family flourish. Good looking and talented kids with no worries. You're doing fine. I am considering hopping on your ship:P

Interesting thoughts, puck...not sure what to make of them at the moment:) But, it reminds me of Harry Potter and that black weed they get stuck in in the second movie. They had to relax to avoid being strangled.

Posted by  brainstormer  on 2009-03-04 22:49:21 
  
It's not the time it takes..... it's when the time is right that such words come truly from the heart.

Sad but great write Stormey xo :)
Posted by  Kaybee  on 2009-03-05 00:24:54 
  
Thank you, Kaybee:) Soft and sweet as always:) HUGS
Posted by  brainstormer  on 2009-03-05 00:50:40 
  
This is very well written. I like the poem... I do not like what has caused you to write it. And I flippin HATE that stupid rule #5! :)
Posted by  heatherslife  on 2009-03-05 08:43:06 
  
One day you will. But I think you need to look at things differently. Instead of seeing what you don't have, see what you do have. You have more then a lot of people. If you just focus on what you don't have...and what other people do...you'll never be happy. Because you'll constantly be wanting and seeing your life as lacking. Grass is always greener somewhere else. But maybe you're ok just the way you are now. Maybe you're judging yourself way to hard-when it's really ok to relax and just look at things a little differently.

Wish I could write something in 7 minutes-which is something you far excel in over me and probably most other people. And something I'm sure other people wish they could do, wish they had that ability.
Posted by  Heatherlyn  on 2009-03-05 10:34:23 
  
Riverskys, stop repeating yourself, (slap) stop repeating yourself...:P

Yes, Heatherlyn, my super power of occasionally writing something in 7 minutes. Yes, that will be most beneficial to mankind:P...once in a blue moon.

Do not like what has caused me to write it?...??
Posted by  brainstormer  on 2009-03-05 21:15:34 
  
You underestimate yourself. I know what you're saying. You wake up every day feeling the pressures of work and having to make money, of having no one and going nowhere. Of being fearful and having worry-and you want to wake up feeling none of that, to be happy. What I was saying is you have many things you tend to overlook, or dismiss, like your writting. Once in a blue moon? Do you really believe that? You can write, and write something in 7 minutes then many, many, many people. That in itself is impressive. But it's more the fact you CAN write. I used that example because I've always wanted to be able to write. It takes me...well lets just say way too long. I envy you. Mankind, as you put it, had always needed and wanted writers, storytellers. Not once in a blue moon, but every second of every day-all over the world. This is why I say you are selling yourself short. My point was, you say you feel aimless and fill your days with hobbies-but I don't see that as a bad thing. It's ok to wish for and work towards bigger and better things. But when you ignor what you do have...when you dismiss your talents and strengths...well how would you ever be happy then? Think you're fine the way you are-and wish you could see that as well
Posted by  Heatherlyn  on 2009-03-05 22:56:17 
  
I guess yer missing things...

I wrote this in a handful of minutes. A flash of lightning. A brainstorm. But, I can't make a living off a random flash, can I? When will I get that next flash?--the boss of me asks...I dont have an answer for him. Just like a chicken making eggs. Can I draw a picture in 7 minutes? Can I handle a deadline? Not likely. I need to go with my flow...and the rest of the world doesn't see or follow that. They are more likely to leave me be and hope I catch up or fall extinct.

Yes, it is amazing I can write as well as I do without a college degree. And, I didn't ace English class either...and if I did, it wasn't a logical grading system.

It IS a bad thing to fill a day with hobbies when--as I said--it takes resources and money away from what I earn/save/collect and thus lessens what I need/have to pay for my existence among so many trying harder and doing more than I am.

I know my talents. I also am reasonable about them now and NOT going to let people pump me up with compliments just to have me fall on my face again when competition arises. Im not the best of anything. Im a jack of all trades...master of none.
Posted by  brainstormer  on 2009-03-05 23:48:03 
  
No one knows when they'll get the next flash of creativity. That's why there are things such as writer's block and missed deadlines. You could possibly live off those flashes, hard as it is. Rest of world doesn't want you to catch up or fall extint. Most of the world might, but not all. Just seems like you're fighting that but at the same time trying to go with it and it's tearing you apart. I know hobbies and whatnot take money. Believe me I do. But I don't see it as a bad thing. Blame the companies that charge an arm and a leg for supplies, but not the hobbies. Art, writting, are beautiful things, and the world always needs beautiful things.

Don't take my compliments if you don't want to. I never said you were the best-but you are far above most people. I don't lie about things like this. If I didn't think you were good, I'd not comment. I'd not say you were good. And I'd not compliment you at all. Competition is everywhere-but if you never enter that competition...you'll never win.

You seem...dunno...feel almost like I'm poking at you with a stick and you're going to seriously lash out at me soon. But I wouldn't say what I've said unless I knew it was true.
Posted by  Heatherlyn  on 2009-03-06 00:13:40 
  
Well, when I DO lash out, I hope we have some fun:P hehe....les Wrassle!
Posted by  brainstormer  on 2009-03-06 00:30:42 
  
You know...I know you changed the subject. Which is fine. But one of these days I'm going to continue to poke you with that stick until you really let it all out. I've got tough skin, believe it or not, and I don't know how, but somehow, someway, I'll get you to see what lots of other people see-that you're got amazing talent and you should stop discounting that or writting it off because you won't try because you might fail.

Or I'll just might lash out at you! I think I have a whip around here...(j/k on the lash out. And the whip. Or am I... :-P)
Posted by  Heatherlyn  on 2009-03-06 01:04:29 
  
Oh man... do I love this. I have ring side seats for this battle. :) Uh.. tho I dont know who I am bettin on just yet. hehe
Posted by  heatherslife  on 2009-03-06 09:40:20 
  
could you be anymore talented!? i love this. . it speaks to my soul. . . .
Posted by  tutuMuch  on 2009-03-12 20:32:06 
  
Glad you liked it, tutu:P Maybe you are tutuKind?:P
Posted by  brainstormer  on 2009-03-12 21:26:45 
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