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When do you know? on 2008-02-29 23:57:57 |
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Hey, I thought you vanished from life:P I am in the same boat--minus a few details (I am sure). But, what is new about that?:P You are just repeating words:P So, shall we get through it together?:P
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Soul Mate & Relationship on 2008-02-29 23:40:01 |
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Well as for the cultural thing...I am such a cultural NUT:P I would be devastated if say I hooked up with someone from the Philippines and found cultural differences in the way of happiness. I am passionate about women of all races and hate to find any conflict. It's a guilty/selfish fantasy of mine to have one wife from every continent:P Oh to dream:D But, I don't want culture to be a factor at all.
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virgin or not on 2008-02-29 23:30:17 |
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FINALLY! Someone agrees with me!:P heh.
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Soul Mate & Relationship on 2008-02-29 14:24:16 |
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Oh, and arranged marriages--and any of the sort from foreign cultures--make me SICK!:( I cannot tell you how many times I have run into beautiful women who could have been with me(heh:P) but were tied to some other guy. And, I have met a few--particularly from India--who are quite unhappy with the result. I also feel my own parents were a mismatch(and they were sort of put together too, though not of one of these ethnic backgrounds). It is frustrating beyond words. So, I will stop speaking here:P
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Soul Mate & Relationship on 2008-02-29 14:21:37 |
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Im gonna appear like the enemy here, but I feel what you have, Gwatlan, is too much work. Maybe I am unable to see/feel the whole picture. And, maybe in some rare cases, two people can find love in working at it...but it just feels too difficult. Two people should not be so different together. Marriage is a union of two working as one, correct? But, two puzzle pieces that do not fit together do not fit together. They may hold other parts of the puzzle together--and for some, maybe that is enough. Like they say of Aquarians who give their love to many--to the people--instead of a single committed, intimate relationship. It's a cool version instead of a heated, passionate one. I am not comfortable with that. I am torn between the desire for freedom and independent thinking time and the firey passions of two people working together(if it is possible). But, lately, my hopes seem dwindled by the facts in others I find. I have seen more loss than happiness...and though it makes me feel more at ease with less jealousy, I can't help but ALSO feel discouraged.
I just think what you said displays a hard union instead of a much smoother one. Perhaps astrology is a factor?
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virgin or not on 2008-02-29 14:14:17 |
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In your picture, you look a bit like Ellen Page who played Juno:P So, maybe this is the grim reality story instead of the overly sweet and sassy idealistic version. Save this bit for the bigger story later...maybe you will make a better movie based on YOUR life:)
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The perspective of a MAN! on 2008-02-29 02:06:04 |
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[I could just laugh about now:P]
Well, what if I am so in touch with my feelings and those of others that it prevents me from being grounded? Maybe there is a give and take here. Men who do not express what I do have a certain firmness and security to them. You know where they stand well enough for them to be strong...just not deeply in tune/connected. I seem to be intuitive and deep...but not well grounded/secure. Which is better?
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NAME on 2008-02-25 01:50:21 |
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That too. It's like standing in a road and watching cars and people pass you by. You are moving in slow motion while everyone else is getting somewhere.
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Third thoughts on 2008-02-25 01:45:19 |
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Though not much to go on--perhaps there is more to read in other blogs of yours?:P--I agree. Hate to waste time. Know there is more out there to find. Just not feeling energetic/motivated to take chances.
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Law & Order: SVU on 2008-02-25 01:30:38 |
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In a funk as well:( I thought something would "pop" today...take advantage of the sun...but it never did and I spent all day inside putzing on the computer...not much inspiration. Now I am just tired and frustrated.
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Reflections for Today--a moment of self-doubt on 2008-02-24 21:40:13 |
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Kind words from wishy-washy hypocrites and warnings of boredom with me have weakenned my spirits and renewed belief in my doubts.
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Make the first move on 2008-02-24 21:24:46 |
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Like, are you a teenager?:P Like let me know:)
Ok, pass it around:P Though, I am not the average guy. But, I would appreciate a woman to make the first move. To start a conversation--surprise me for once instead of me having to think of the ice breaker(like the girl at the theater who said something witty about my movie choice--no one ever does that!). To maybe set a date/location/meeting after having a great chat if it seems plausible. And, when it comes to what you are talking about, I wouldn't mind if a woman gently walked her fingers along the back and palm of my hand before slipping her fingers between my own. But, you cannot rush such things. You have to feel it...know it is the right time. Maybe start by nudging shoulders--bumping into him. Be playful and find out if he will play back without taking it too far.
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Now on 2008-02-24 17:11:18 |
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Hey, what happenned with you? I thought I'd hear more from you:P And your sense of humor.
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The perspective of a MAN! on 2008-02-24 01:36:33 |
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The more I find myself unlike other men and married men...the worse I feel about the future:( If all these married men cannot get intimate as I envision it...then everything feels so lost and empty... I am floating in deep space.
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"Did everyone on here run to Vegas?" on 2008-02-23 19:34:28 |
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Psh, wont envy him so fast:P He is in year one. Compared to most here, that is nothing. Give it time:P The more I think about how marriages seem to have worsenned in durability since the late 70s/80s...I start to think about astrology and how this is supposed to be the "age of Aquarius". Aquarius is not a strong marriage sign. People are more committed to their ideas and strange practices than they are to any one lover. Sounds rather sensible, no? ANd, if it be true, then we are in for 20,000 years of this despair:P
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Jasmine Flower on 2008-02-23 19:12:33 |
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I listenned to the song and tried to watch the video feed...my PC is rather slow and breaks it up. But, after replay, I was not as fond of the song as other asian pieces. It didn't have the same relaxing flow. I can't think of any titles because I know none:P But, I know the style I like. I recently found a few pieces in midi form that I liked. One is called Liu Xing?(and then it said "comet" for some reason and the name Faye Wong--is that Fann Wong the actress singer?) It sounds almost like an Old West cowboy song with asian flair. And, the other was called Sakura?(said to be played on oriental harp) It almost sounds like a typical Egyptian melody but has a certain appeal to it. I wouldn't mind finding others--safely(dont need any internet bugs:P)--as I gradually collect cultural music and am fond of asian culture elements. Someone else had done a post about chinese new year and foods which had a nice pan flute song I liked better than Jasmine Flower. I think the flower is prettier than the song:P even if I cannot smell it.
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Jasmine Flower on 2008-02-23 16:28:18 |
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You ladies are turning me on:P MM, I want my massage:P Too bad I cannot smell the jasmine:( Hey, now that you mention jasmine flowers--and I did not know you were asian--they make mention of jasmine in the movie I just saw called "Persepolis". The grandma uses them frequently with her skin/bra to make herself feel better/more alive and they dance across the screen(I didn't know what kind of flower it was til they said it).
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The perspective of a MAN! on 2008-02-23 03:26:09 |
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I missed the genius part in all that:P Hi, single male perspective here:P I would like to think I am very "emotion" oriented, yet I detest the excesses of "drama" women can lay out which cause my breathing to struggle. I would like to think I am not a man dominated by sexuality; but when I do think about being one with a woman, I DO think about physical intimacy as a launchpad to emotional intimacy. Maybe for a man, we need "sex" to jumpstart the emotional brain? Or, maybe--as I seem to feel it--sex/making love is a release/security measure for a man to release his emotional side. By embracing his woman, he is able to feel secure in expressing himself verbally? I am not sure. But, when I feel unable to be completely open about my deepest feelings...I feel the need to be intimate physically with a woman...to be able to hold her with all my heart. [And, likewise, after a very intimate verbal exchange, the desire for physical intimacy seems to explode from the brain.] But, I suppose all that can be affected by a mental connection too. If you are not on the same wavelength or "schedule", you don't click.
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psychoanalyze yourself..... on 2008-02-23 02:27:10 |
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Ok, here is the exclusive, Cups:P Check it out. [But, if I tell you to later, delete this.][I am not sure how accurate your test here is...and I dont know where you stole this one from:P]
1)A brunette woman
2)deer(so what does that say about my problems?)
3)feed it(again, how does that translate?)
4)(my initial thought was "small cottage" but you said MY dream house, so)big "warehouse"/studio
5)NO fence(but I am not so open and do not like people showing up unannounced)(I just preferred to picture open land free to ride horses)
6)full fruit bowls--some overflowing with grapes--ON the table; a few wooden chairs around the table(translates as what?)
7)metal goblet(full of red wine)(so what relationship is this speaking of? one I hope/dream to have?)
8)sip it(what does this have to do with my attitude?:P)
9)river(hmm, raging hormones?:P Or Hank Hill and his narrow urethra?:P)
10)small/short bridge(so I expect it to be easy though I feel it has been so difficult to conquer??)
Be sure to email me your response and your own answers--I am afraid to hear what kind of cup you had and what you did with it:P(put down the booze):)
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blog #2 on 2008-02-23 02:07:52 |
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So, if you still have 150+ pairs of shoes....you learned nothing.:(
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I AREN'T Worried, Not At All on 2008-02-23 01:38:33 |
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Ok, back in business. Now then, for those who make such comments with animosity or confusion from this post, let me make it clearer(if that is possible). First, try reading it again. I don't think you grasped all of it. Second, the key notes/points in all of it were that 1)yes, bad spelling and grammar irk me if it is so noticeable(it is not an offense) and 2)it is more annoying when someone claims to be educated and makes the mistakes. I don't care what is in your "beehive". I don't care how emotional you are or what is going on in life. If you claim to have had an extensive education and cannot write properly, you are out to embarrass yourself. And, now that I think of it...sure. You could be smart in something other than writing, but I think in all fields of life, the written word comes into play sooner or later. You write letters/resumes to friends/co-workers/bosses/employers you want to hire you. Eventually, you will show your mistakes...and don't you think that affects anything? Sure, this is just a "blog" site where people come to relax everything.
I thought I made it so plain and simple. Everything is written there, yet I am re-explaining myself. If you truly grasp what I wrote, it would not offend or upset anyone. It should just inspire you to sit upright and clear your throat a little better. And, it helped to express a little peeve of mine just as many of you express in your own way. So, no reason to get mad at me. My problem is people having a problem understanding me and accepting my words.
Keepdreaming, too bad things were not different between us...then I might not mind you hiding in my closet:P
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Single. Smart. And a little confused... on 2008-02-20 03:05:13 |
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Likewise...we seem similar in some ways...however, after you confirmed that what I thought was just a poem to be in fact a real experience...I am left rather speechless...dont know what else to say...but I don't feel good.
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What am I doing wrong? on 2008-02-20 02:53:13 |
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Wow...you...really have it all worked out:|(scratches head)
Well, I am in no rush for any marriage or kids. I don't think my life will be any less meaningful if I find the right woman but don't have kids.
I can't believe you are so bold. I AM a "what if" person sadly. And, if rejected--who do I turn to to talk about it?? I sure as heck am not gonna be happy spewing it here to no faces:P And, I can't just tell anybody. And, I sure as heck don't want to just choke it back and do nothing. So?
Generally dont date more than one guy at a time...geesh. I'd hate to be one of the two or more waiting to see if I "keep my job" or not. And, stop saying that life's short line! I hate that line. Makes ppl so hasty and foolish! Stop aging yourself!
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AM I BEING CENSERED OR BULLIED?? on 2008-02-20 02:32:37 |
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I hope I am not on the enemy list...though many seem to think I am. Then again, would it matter either way? We all want to be free to speak our minds...hence we come here to let it out. And, since it is a public site and people don't bother to restrict the viewings of their posts to those who only kiss their toes--should they choose such a list of "friends"--they get some negative, critical and perhaps even harsh comments. Comments are one thing. But, those people are just speaking their minds as well.
Attempting to ruin someone's reputation by posing as a clone is a whole other meatball.
So, I don't know who wants to censor who, but if this gets any worse, the whole system will collapse on itself or become mindless sappy drivel without any realism. I don't think coddling solves anything. We want answers. We want to tell the deep hardcore truth. We don't screen our words for all the parties that might object to the different terms we use. No one is barring children from reading some very adult material here, yet I keep finding little ones no older than 14 trying to get on my list to read some of mine? Such a headache I have. Hope I can live to write tomorrow. Sorry if I tred where I need not to.
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I AREN'T Worried, Not At All on 2008-02-20 01:01:35 |
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Let me make something quite clear before I am ejected from this site for something I consider so minor and insane to argue. Do I really need to make another post about how only--as DS puts it--"honey-laced" positives are accepted while constructive or even mildy objectionable comments are hissed and booed at? I am getting such a headache from people flipping out on me! FIRST I cannot speak my mind openly in others' posts. THEN I find someone trying to clone me to harrass me and those I associate with here. NOW I have what might as well be a lawsuit against me from one fragile soul having an episode. She responded to an email of mine while we were both online. I responded back. A volley began before she shortly switched from suggesting deep down I might be a good person to GET LOST! STOP EMAILING ME OR I WILL REPORT YOU! I even said here that I did not want to antagonize her anymore after that. I am sorry if she is going through a hard time. I did not know anything of that. That is no reason to eject me after all the good writing/work I have done here.
If you all want to rally around her, one person out of thousands here who just happenned to be extra fragile under one of my potentially critical statements and a simple exchange of emails(which really is not something to freak out from--I will even show you the emails if you don't believe me), you go right ahead. But, it won't solve anything and will only make me madder at the world. I have come to like and value this place. I have just as much right as her and have not gone out of my way to harrass anyone. You all say get a life? Psh, that is like calling the kettle black isn't it? We all make our choices of what we give our time and talents to. For all those who would rather pick a fight with me than take my words with a grain of salt, lay off ME--okay? Go back to your own meandering and indulgences...or thoughts, if you will.
If it is so necessary for your well-being, I will refrain from commenting on any of your posts(I will even make the effort to make a list of all those who reacted so strongly to this matter--including DS). I will try not to "harrass" any of you ever again. Oh perish the thought. I am not the enemy. And, this post was NOT all about "poor" necro. Simple as that.
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"Did everyone on here run to Vegas?" on 2008-02-19 22:22:42 |
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Oh, if you want to see exactly what you are talking about...the happy posts versus the complaint ones? Just look at Nerdnutt's or new member rose22. They seem quite content in discussing how happy they are with their situations in graphic detail(Nerdnutt):P Even with fears of failure/questions of what might yet happen, they seem quite content and voice the happy, sunny bits instead of the woe.
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Its better to say too much on 2008-02-19 22:16:57 |
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I am looking at the pink words and the first thing that came to mind was Legally Blonde!:D Too funny!!;P
I kinda sadly maybe gave up on academics a lil sooner than you. I agree that it had lil impact on what mattered more to me...relationships and life lessons(not book lessons). All my strengths and talents cannot be honed in a classroom. There is no class for what good I can do this world other than the world itself. I didn't become a good artist from something someone taught me in a classroom. I learned by example and from personal insights. And, I am still learning with a long way to go before I am anywhere near comic book quality.
But, now that I am not in school...I AM experiencing and learning things....socializing ALOT more than I ever did during those years. But, I still have no friends or relationships to speak of! I am less close to my family and even more complicated/edgy in the mind.
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you think you got me, then whoops, your out. on 2008-02-19 22:05:38 |
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Grabs her by the wrists and shakes her...then slaps her in tune with All American Rejects' song "Move Along" as they say "your hands have mine to hold...SPEAK TO ME!"
WHoa, girl! Who did this to you?! WHo got you all worked up? Calm down! Swimmer slouch? Interesting and possibly disturbing at the same time. No, not rap:( waaah:(:P
I like Hudgens...beautiful...but shes still a bit of a Teenie Bopper to me...very young(though she bared all for Zac). I'm not that familiar with Tisdale other than knowing she is a blonde...wait, don't tell me you're into High School Musical now!:P Eeep!(buttons lip)
Just don't turn into Hillary Duff or Miley Cyrus or Lindsay Lohan on me:p
I assume the focus of this was something said about Trevor.
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The Perfect Relationship on 2008-02-19 21:47:07 |
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Inspired! Got the fire burning again. Thanks, bubbles:P heh. I feel like I am talking to someone's monkey. .... Goodnight, everybody:P
No, seriously, I will have to write out my idea of a "perfect" relationship now:P I already started with my perfect snow day post/story.
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Innocence on 2008-02-19 21:42:48 |
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I am afraid again now:P I know about that glow...but I dont really look for it or notice it. I see other glows. Glows of passion or intrigue. Glows of spiritual connection--as if the one you could connect with just started lighting up before you. But, the glow of innocence...I am afraid to see it go away in anyone even at my age. I hear that song now...sigh. "This is the ee-e-e-end...of the innocence."
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Eye re-opening... on 2008-02-19 21:33:40 |
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I just wish I could look the other way:P Instead of daydreaming about the car next to me...can I focus on the road ahead of me? It's so hard to get focussed and active. So many days I would rather curl up in a daydream and ponder the world...and many times I wish I had someone to share that with...to become one mind and body with them...intimate intellectualism to the extreme...just floating in the thought of it all...
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torn again on 2008-02-19 21:29:14 |
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Now, see you went and did it. First true love? If I think about it enough, I could easily give up on love altogether. All the talk about true love, first love, love at first sight, soul mates....what is real anymore? It may be a first love/infatuation, but I always thought true love was the ONE. But, so many lose the one and find the two, etc. It's really hard to believe in love and find it before the someone you belong with has already failed with 1, 2 and 3. Love you more? Or love you differently?(provided you don't fall for the same type of person and repeat...til you realize you did it again. Oops...it's Brittany, b#&*(:P)
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Heroes - so worth another look, and a question... on 2008-02-19 21:23:13 |
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FINALLY! A Heroes fan!:P Between that and LOST, it's hard to find someone to talk to about it:P
I am not ecstatic about either show...by far. But, I DID commit myself to giving Heroes a try. At first, it was hard to grasp if you missed a few seconds. A few seconds held so much...even though later it meant very little. I initially hated Claire for being so daring/suicidal. I was intrigued by Nikki--though I am still a lil bewildered by her ability/curse(the super strength bit was kinda hot toward the end of the first Sylar confrontation:P). I fell in love with Eden...aaah, Nora Zehetner:)
Ok, before I run on...I put the answer to the power question in my profile actually:D But, I am not sure I would be all heroic for mankind with it. My heart can give so much, but--as Aunt May said in Spiderman--I'm not Superman, you know?:P I would hardly be selfish, but I can't save everyone. So, I guess I would be a mix of Peter's exuberant sense of justice and whimsy, Nathan's indifference(shhh, keep it down) and Hiro's boyish dreaming(esp. having a magic sword). His love interest in Chapter 2(as was the redhead he met) is rather appealing(but why does Hiro come off so gay??:P something not right about him).
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"Did everyone on here run to Vegas?" on 2008-02-19 20:30:33 |
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Luci, your comment was a bit harsh and misguided to knight. And, take your quarrel with cheb to cheb's place:P jk
Hey, I should get credit for this post:P I was the one who inspired him:P heh.
Yea, what is it when you tell someone who doesn't chat or post online they say the people here are not real?? Sure, it's kind of lifeless/faceless and cold, but real people using real fingers write everything on here.
I DO fear however that the internet allows for such extreme escapism that ppl can evade together time with their current mate and fool around on here...as many do frequently! It's a valuable tool, but ppl abuse it.
They had some marriage counselors on TV this morning saying simple stuff about accepting the fact you will not like everything about each other and will argue as a GOOD thing. They said to argue about things we don't like is healthy communication and shows we are working toward the long haul. I didn't need to pay someone to tell me THAT:P Seriously. These people get paid 125 an hour for that? Sign me up!:P Give me a license!:P I kept thinking...if there is something you REALLY dont like when you discover it and it doesn't go away and it pesters you repeatedly in daily relations...isn't that bound to rupture the relationship? Tolerance is great, but differences are often still differences. If a person doesn't want any part of smoking but is tolerating someone who does for long...not only is that hazardous...but it's...it's a bit of a bitter pill to swallow. And, I imagine it would make for bitter/shielded relations. I have to think more on this one I guess:P
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Boredom... on 2008-02-19 20:13:35 |
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Wow, that was totally worth reading:P AND writing, I imagine?:P heh.
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ugh. on 2008-02-19 20:12:20 |
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Ha!:P Talk about bookends:P...well, sort of. I mean, you are braving the frontlines far more than I ever will. But, anyway. I had a similar experience...or two. I was posing as James Bond(not literally:P) on my first(and only so far) trip out of the country. I found myself in a few situations where women were available/alone. I thought opportunity was knocking and had an unusually strong sense of daring. So, I shyly--and I mean SHY--walked up and mumbled something to take a seat with each of them. Let's run down the list:P Roll that beautiful bean footage!
First one, she looked a bit like Helen of Troy sitting alone at her dinner table across the way. In less than 10 minutes of convo, she revealed she had a BF back home. Oooh.
Ashore in France, I saw a few beauties and one said "Bon Jour" to me in a gentle, lovely voice as she sauntered past me to a lookout point, but I had no French cheat sheets with me and was completely paralyzed:P
Next, a young woman working on homework?! Turned out she wasn't as young as I thought and told me she was waiting for her husband(which then I noticed the ring--doh!).
One night, I saw a beautiful brown/raven haired woman on deck in a red dress(yes, it was a cruise:P). She looked at me and I at her. I just stood there shifting glances. Suddenly, she walked off around the backside. I hesitated a while before deciding to carpe diem. Never found her as I chased around the decks. I could write a story about that one though:P
Then, there was a girl from Spain with her parents who sat with ME one day. I was really trying to impress but failed with my Spanish. I think she had a BF with her--the guy who walked by and kissed her on the cheek? But, I never found out. I left her an email address(as I didn't think the phone idea would work overseas). I was rather nervous and mistook her name at first. Never heard from her when I got back home:(
Then there was a married older woman who seemed to have some chemistry with me--felt a vibe. But, I wasn't about to mess with that and she and I clashed a few times over negativity:P
Then there was a tour guide I found exceptionally appealing(there was another the first excursion who was attractive but clearly preggers and married:P)--and I thought it was cool how I figured out she was not a local--who I warmed up to slowly...thought I was doing okay...but then she hooked up with some other guides. And, suddenly I felt like discarded rice pudding. I almost asked her to meet me for dinner later...blew that. But, I did give her my email as well...no response.
Then there was an Aussie girl who was rather stunning and nicely taller than the others:P I didn't get much out of her, and she seemed fixated with the young buff guy working the Rock Wall. So, even though I waited around for her--not making any daring ploy--it seemed futile.
Lastly, I even became friendly with a cook who made me special pasta dishes during my stay. She seemed nice and okay with me. I even honored her by drawing her picture which she liked--but I wouldn't give it up to her right away. When I later tried to get her photo and give her my drawing, she turned up sick:( I left the picture and my email with some other cooks who were all excited to see the drawing. I cant be certain she got any of that from those guys...and I never got a response from her either:(
Wow, I didn't plan on sharing all that, but I did:P >bites lip<
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What am I doing wrong? on 2008-02-19 19:50:32 |
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Knows all about the sidelines:(
But, I am not much of a go-getter. I have so many questions/fears in my head...concerns for my own being(thinking what she will think of me if she found out about this or that) and hers(what skeletons does she have that I won't like?)...that I can't act on my impulses upon seeing someone attractive/interesting.
I'd LOOOVE to meet you in the bookstore:P Don't get me started on Belle from BATB:P
Gosh, you go from party girl to "I NEED A MAN BEFORE I GET OLD!!":P Gosh, you get around. Slow down...if you can? I can't move that fast(even if I walk or think fast). I dwell too much. I ponder too much. I probably have missed 1000s of opportunities. I don't feel comfortable thinking about jumping into multiple possibilities while debating the matter of lifestyle/schedule and sexual activity. I'm getting a bit of a headache just thinking about this:P I was going to make a post about relationships too. Now, I am not sure.
I know a few ppl who did the online thing. One, a co-worker's son, met his present wife at a site...total opposite visually of who I pictured him hooking up with. Another, my sister's friend's sister, keeps a regular dating system going with Match.com...mainly cuz she is taller than most guys and can't seem to click with them. Ends up going back to an ex which doesn't work either.
Shrugs.
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Don't knock it til you try it on 2008-02-19 19:35:57 |
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No Reply Guy:P Nyehehe:P
Well, I don't have expendable income for a gym. But, I like raquetball!!!:(:P It's such a stress release to go in there and bat the ball around 360. Don't even have to follow the rules; just have fun(did it once on senior retreat).
I WILL knock Hip Hop Abs, thank you very much:P heh. I just think of Richard Simmons...and though the guy's intentions are good...I still can't help laughing:P
Sorry, I don't bother with cable and don't care for family shows anymore:P Im past Growing Pains and Different Strokes:P
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Exercise ideas please? on 2008-02-19 19:30:11 |
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Now, I dont think you mentioned the drinking!!:( So, you partied your lil life away. I am always torn between envy and disappointment on the matter. I never got to party like that. I was not a risk taker and disliked drinking/losing control of my senses. It's like fearing the Hulk in me. I don't know what I am like drunk and don't want to know!
I don't mind curves either:P heh. meOW:)
As for you, Renee. You CAN eat fried food--in moderation. She doesn't have to walk every free minute she has. If you work it to the max one week but not so much the next, your body will not fall into routine and it won't work. Plus, if you over work one day/week and have to recover the next, you already are off schedule. Vitamins? bleh. You are supposed to get vitamins in the foods you CHOOSE to eat. And, did you just say to drink soda cuz of the caffeine?:P The sugars in soda are one of the biggest nonos for people suffering from weight gain/diabetes. And, Crystal Light is sick to me now. Way too sweet and acerbic.
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I AREN'T Worried, Not At All on 2008-02-19 18:55:14 |
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WOW, I DID ruffle a few feathers:P Or you all visited together? Must be a blog party or something:P
Ok, running down the list...
Necronomismoconundrum(gosh that's a mouthful to spell:P), she is bitter at me and made a few threats. I won't antagonize her more.
Thank you, nadira, and I will fix the color just for you:P
Zyp, I was totally aware of other perspectives and expected others to write in on that angle. Thanks for the input. That was a bit of my point as well. That was the foreigners taking over America bit. But, there are also Americans learning other languages and confusing themselves. I would think it wise to master one's own language before tackling another:P Unless you are becoming a citizen there and don't care about the native tongue anymore. I took a few years of Spanish in school...have yet to master it by far. Someday perhaps. I don't think I can learn too many languages. I am motivated by love. With all the people in the world, I would rather someone invent a translation gizmo.
Ghost, I am not familiar with you...nor did I seek out your post on the matter. I know many of us repeat the same thoughts/ideas. I have seen a dozen posts about Soul Mates and Depression/Boredom. Well done finding the errors in my post:P I was wondering if anyone would spot them:P Yea, that's the ticket:P And, like I said, I am not perfect myself:)
Difficult, darling, looking lovely as ever:) Thanks for the prose. If that was a genuine invitation, I might consider it:P heh. Eh...or not:)
Hi, Pitapie. Didn't mean to prick you with my quills. Just take it in stride and see what you can do to make your words clearer for others. All in the mission of eliminating misunderstanding.
Gwatlan, thanks again for your support:) You are right. There are different kinds of smarts. And, even Einstein was bad at Math. But, since only writing applies here at the site, I made that the issue:P And, yes, this was both to encourage self-improvement in others as well as to make people aware of the problem in this country.
Expectingtofly, you are right about how long it seems to have been worsenning. And, that issue about foreign learning has been discussed repeatedly in That 70s Show...which really pushes the matter back in time.
Thank you all so far for the commentary. Keep up the good thinking:)
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WHERE ARE THEY WHEN YOU NEED THEM? on 2008-02-19 04:21:48 |
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Ah, so then balance IS key:P
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IT ONLY TAKES A DROP OF KINDNESS FOR A LIFETIME OF on 2008-02-19 04:19:36 |
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Sounds almost "exhaustingly" heavenly:P
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While we're... on 2008-02-19 03:48:04 |
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Just my POV, the ending came too quickly. Making love and then BAM bye. Bad relations:P Work it out a bit more. Stretch the dough. Seems you are daydreaming of a mate again:P Join the club:) Reminds me of a song by--I think--Nickelback that goes something like "dance on into the night...singing A O A O A O A..."
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Selective Addictions on 2008-02-19 03:42:49 |
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I wish I was able to just switch gears like that. Change jobs. But, then again, it doesn't seem healthy to jump so frequently. It seems restless. It doesn't bode well to employers, I imagine as well. It is interesting that you spent so much time educating yourself, capricorn, that you now have all this knowledge and time to use it but no outlet. And, the outlets you must take on, jobs, leave you restless and jumpy. You cannot tackle a job like school? Give it time to teach you what it needs to? And, with your master degree, you cannot find a job that is as high calibur as your brain?
So the world is not good enough for you then?:P
As for this family dream/woe, I know the feeling. You mentioned marriage's expectations in another post. You need neither, but may find yourself dreaming of both just out of human nature and societal impact. I wonder if you might be just as happy if you had a man/companion you could experience all the events of a family without actually taking on the entire responsibility. In other words, work with someone at a daycare or ? where you can "share" kids...just a thought(run with it if you like:P). Or become a teacher(part of me thinks about this sometimes--but I am not sure I would be accepted/licensed or have much to teach:P).
I know another like you though 12 years older who has devoted her life to taking care of her parents, never had a man and is very much a lone hermit. She seems okay when I see her at work...but every time I feel humbled to brighten her day with a lil surprise--like for Valentine's--she gets such a twinkle in her eye. I know she hasn't lost the desire for companionship...I just don't know if I am the right companion. It's kind of a sad story, really. Looking at someone who just seems a bit old and wise for me who is still rather young yet maybe wise beyond my years(and yet burdenned so badly by fears and insecurities that I cannot fully access/utilize my intelligence--if it IS intelligence).
Oh, if you want to share a pizza or two--AND chocolate?--give me a call:P
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Single. Smart. And a little confused... on 2008-02-19 03:29:28 |
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Nice has it's place, though, and smooths the rough edges this coarse, hasty world has to offer. If I can look past a few words in those first few lines, I would like to respond to the rest with the first gesture that comes to mind...>HUG< I think you could use one:) I don't know how I would do on those tests, but I feel just as difficult and as much a brainiac as you. I, however have no interest in my gender the way you do. I can admit men are good looking...even be envious of them...but have no sexual interest whatsoever. I find it appealing to find women like you who can favor/discuss both men and women this way. But, profanity is not a lost art. It is a prevailing weed of a habit that does not sit well with me. And, though people call me a smartmouth, I am hardly as barbed or sarcastic biting as you may be...which would concern me in chatting. I don't want to feel the sting of anyone's words while trying to get comfortable with them. And, for me, that is most important...being comfortable(as well as being open and honest so there are no wrinkles of suspicion or half-truth to steam out later).
Not sure what else to say or where to go from here. Just felt I had to acknowledge you. Good luck in whatever you choose to do. See you around?
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My First attempt at being honest on 2008-02-19 03:06:45 |
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You are a young pisces rat, if your profile is accurate. You might be the hardest upon yourself of all. And, yes, you may put on a fake face one moment and snap off as soon as you turn away. It may get worse with age. You also--like another I know--seem lucky in making friends(even if they abandon you or are superficial)--maybe you just latch onto people(say "will you be my friend! let's be friends!")?
I think there are too many sad people in the world like you and me. What can we do about that?
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Exercise ideas please? on 2008-02-19 02:53:14 |
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Personally, may I speak? Ok:P
I don't like gyms, diets, diet foods, etc. I don't like running either:P(but my spirit wants me to run). [Hip Hop abs--that's hilarious!:P]
Work on working out in your own space at your own pace. And, if you are regularly a lil pudgy, accept that as your body type. Some people, I swear, try to change what nature intended. I know one person in particular who thinks she is always fat but goes through phases. One minute she can look bloated...but another she is looking slim and trim. As if it changed with the seasons? I don't know. But, some people are skinny, some are fat. Some are physically strong, some mentally strong.
I would recommend nothing more than maybe a 30-60 minute walk once a week--with a destination(walking in circles around a block does not motivate me at all). If that is not enough, try setting a morning/evening routine. And, make it short and simple. You wake up, do a few sit ups/push ups, jumping jacks...run in place to get the blood pumping...relax and have breakfast. HAVE A HEALTHY BREAKFAST to stimulate the innards. Or you do a similar routine after dinner/before bed. Just slow it down a bit so you don't go to bed with your heart racing. Also, drink water but not obsessively. You don't have to master the 8 glasses. Just drink what feels right, but try to make it more frequent if you normally don't drink it. I keep a bottle by my computer for occasional sips. My thirst varies with the weather, but I try to keep more hydrated now. Um, good luck?:)
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glasses, boys, and walgreens (oh my!) on 2008-02-19 02:44:22 |
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You had me at sweatpants:P ha! Oh, and glasses. You have no idea:) Seriously, no sarcasm inserted here. I like women who wear glasses...AND sweatpants:P...AND little or no makeup. Au Naturale. And, she makes the first move? Who could ask for anything more:P I wonder if there are any skeletons in the closet I should worry about?:D
Oh, I uh don't know what to say about the other guys you mentioned though:P
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Getting close to reaching my limit! on 2008-02-19 02:38:27 |
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HOCHIMAMA! Not only is the text supersized, but the post is ON FIRRRE!!! So much heat coming off that text, it's nuclear!
My gosh, jwcj!:P That's a spicy meat-a-ball! You are right on on most if not all points. And, I wish I knew what it would take or how to rally people the other way. To turn them from materialism and the economy to work together in better harmony than the still prevalent sexism and racism. As for your IQ and exercising your brain, I have not been in school for years and am using words I normally don't use--and I think I spelled them all correctly:P
You have a way with words there that is like stomping your feet and then putting a gun to your head. Don't do the latter:P That last line was unnecessary--even if it was emotionally satisfying to throw the rollercoaster of yin and yang into a downward spiral. You're not full of crap unless you ate some bad hamburgers or you still have those drugs in your system:P heh.
Some days, we just have to not look at the TV. It may inform us, but do we need all that information? I sometimes wonder. Think how people lived before TV. We wouldn't worry about another country at all. We would just know our backyards and neighbors...maybe do some bartering.
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THE HORRIBLE WORLD OF DATING on 2008-02-19 01:28:12 |
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Im amazed two ppl can get married and not open these chestnuts sooner. Did everyone here who is married just run to Vegas? There are just WAY too many couples who seem uncertain of the person sharing their beds. I thought it was a good idea to get to know all the ins and outs before you commit...so as to not find any big potholes later. Not that this is a HUGE pothole, but... She sounds like my mother. If you ask her about dating, she will get just as negative. I'd say you did okay, knight...at least you got a book out of it:P I wouldn't mind reading the tales for inspiration...maybe beat my old fears. I also had a bathroom escape experience:P
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Dating in today's society on 2008-02-18 01:44:18 |
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If yew trah to put peanut butt'R awn a dragonfly, you're gonna get more flies than honey, sweethawrt.:P How was that for crazy Dr. Phil?:P Aka John Madden.
You DO get why I called you a she-hulk, right? Of course I do not know the whole story. I suppose I shouldn't have commented at all either. Let the estrogen fest of other female readers begin. I totally get that the plan changing irked you, but do try to see the other side--his side. Not sure what else to say. I am tired:P
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messed up kinda funny... on 2008-02-18 01:20:54 |
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Feels Nerdnutt up--Oh, I am sorry, did I get things confused?:P heh. Styro, that's hillarious:P I would have wet myself seeing you sit like that.
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IT ONLY TAKES A DROP OF KINDNESS FOR A LIFETIME OF on 2008-02-18 00:18:35 |
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You did all that in two years??? Did I read it wrong? I am too worn out to read it again:P Two years? I am speechless...shaking my head in disbelief.
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WHERE ARE THEY WHEN YOU NEED THEM? on 2008-02-18 00:11:27 |
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Whoa, easy, girl, down...I feel like I am a horse whisperer:P
Don't you see the negative you are doing to yourself? You talk like a pisces...were you a pisces? I forget:P
You put yourself out there any time of day--which is a hefty schedule to set the attentive feelings machine in action. Alot of electricity being used there. ANd then, when you need help/attention, they are not there. It wouldn't be so bad, but you frazzled yourself taking on all their "stuff". So, your nerves are worse off than if you had more time to calm yourself or work out your own dilemmas.
Words of advice. Balance. Moderation.
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Confidence is sexy to men on 2008-02-17 00:56:00 |
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I am reading this as Kanye West is rapping on TV...you become a white rapper:P All you said turned into a rapping rant. I was all set to think there was gonna be some juicy, sexy opinion on confident women.
I was about to say, confidence in women IS sexy provided its mutual. A confident man and woman can achieve anything. But, if the woman is confident and the man is not? If she cannot instill confidence in him, he would(as I have before) feel inadequate and I am sure the woman would get tired of trying. Shy women are also quite sexy. It allows me to be confident:P heh.
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BLOG, BLOG, BLOG on 2008-02-17 00:47:16 |
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Head wounds bleed cuz the tubes are so close to the skin:P
Sure you dont have a clot or something in the brain? Be careful. Can't sleep? What is this? Speed 3?:P
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messed up kinda funny... on 2008-02-17 00:05:54 |
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Lazy, heh:P thats the freaken problem!!!:P Everyone is getting so lazy! Ugh:P I wish I could just curl up like a cat on some attractive woman's lap and forget this world:P
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help me on 2008-02-16 23:58:49 |
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I hate that last choice of words...havent met them yet. If I had a nickel for every time...I wouldn't be sitting here, that's for sure:P Don't ever let those words get in your head...that if things don't work out with some ppl, you can just go find another group and it will be better. I am not sure of that at all. My past HAS repeated itself, sadly. So, maybe there is something I have not learned yet?--as the old saying goes.
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Hello everyone! on 2008-02-16 23:04:09 |
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You work fast in making friends, miss aliestre. Nice pic, too. I am sure your english is/will be fine.
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True Medicine on 2008-02-16 23:02:14 |
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Maybe what, aliestre? Dude, you deleted my comment. I said I was sorry for snapping. If you get any comments/messages from me, be sure it's me, okay? You'll know the difference if you look closely. If not, sorry I couldn't make things work with ya.
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It's not funny! on 2008-02-16 19:59:44 |
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That has to be one of the most hateful families I have ever seen:P Mom calling you thunder thighs at 6?? Oh, id slap her so hard. No respect yet they expect us to respect them? No way. She went too far.
Yes, granted, a fire sign will say things a water sign take a lil hard and the fire sign chalks it up to "just teasing". But, there should be a limit and a right time. When someone is feeling down or looking like an easy mark, you dont kick them from behind or in the gut. Just rude. You tell those jokes about you being fat when you are in a silly mood and both of you are fooling around. Fair play.
Center of attention while you were the punchline?? No, don't defend her, she was a real BITCH! I cannot believe this! I would hate her so much! If my mom did that, she would feel such a wrath. I dont care if she is the parent. So SO rude!
It'd be different if she jabbed you a lil and then made up for it by sharing some fun with you...maybe. But, it seems she was very selfish and ridiculous.
And, if I met your brother, I'd give him a piece of my mind and fist too. My brother has some of the same drunken nerve yet comes back later sensitive as a wounded lamb. He is a confusing mess but has hurt me enough that I don't trust him much. I hate being on guard so much and not feeling the love/support I desire.
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Dating in today's society on 2008-02-16 19:51:23 |
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Miss Holly, though it is not my place to say, you don't seem so jolly:P And, from what you wrote there, it DOES seem like you toyed with him like a cat holding a mouse above her open mouth. Your initial discontent came from him deciding to NOT meet for the first time on V day...a logical response from him cuz blind dates on V day are a BAD idea. From there you just got ugly and bitter with him. So, anything he would say after about him being concerned or mad is fair. My two cents. Not dictating anything, ok, she-hulk?:P
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Letting the tears flow on 2008-02-16 19:36:43 |
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WHOA! Meltdown. I can see the zit getting bigger. If this continues to fester, it will only end badly. Find resolution ASAP. Carrying around these feelings and piling them up here is not likely to help. You go to him for comfort/consolation and then say "NOTHING"...kinda defeats the purpose and, well, is a bit childish...but then, that is in your astro nature. The crab houses the childhood things and acts a bit childish and wants children/has many children in a lifetime. It's just nature. But resolve this thing before it explodes later than sooner. What seems like simple overthinking now could easily blow up later. I dont like the look of it.
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Mara's Blog on 2008-02-16 19:00:45 |
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Ok, you are the second person to do this today....WHY ARE YOU RETYPING WHAT IS ALREADY ON PROFILE??? WASTE OF TIME.
Just add something new. We can all read profiles, can't we?
Anyways, I like your moxy and I laugh at your commercial references:P I almost forgot about those. I dont like mixing religion with politics at all. You sure have alot to say and its steaming out of your fingers/mouth. I dont know what to say. But, if you really are on the track to improve life for everyone, keep up the good fight. If you are throwing bibles in people's faces or preaching more than you practice, then...not so good. Hoping for the better option.
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myself, and looking for a person on 2008-02-16 18:51:26 |
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Why did you basically reprint whats on your profile?? Waste of time. And, as for curing your cold, sounds like you overworked it and I dunno what the heck zinc suckers are:P But sounds nasty. Try gargle-spitting warm salt water(at least 3 teaspoons of salt in a coffee cup of warm/hot water)...and/or orange juice works for me and my sore throat/coughs. The rest you usually have to work/sweat out. What do you know of your astrology?
Oh, and Golden Compass didn't work for me. It wasn't bad, but it wasn't refreshingly new either. Shrek is great--most of the time. Eddie Murphy is getting annoying. Schwartzenhegger(Schwartzenager?) is not funny(I do a good impression of him in Kindergarten Cop:P). And, I hate accounting:P Even if I am/was great at math.
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Table 52 on 2008-02-16 03:07:47 |
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Welcome to the fold:) And, nice to see you, cuz(cousin)(email me if you want an explanation:P). So, just as I was encouraged to report on movies I see, you have a knack for food? Good on ya:) But, be careful what you eat...moderation? Sounds like you are prone to gaining weight. You may love food, but it may not love you. If it allows you to inform the world and inspire positive change, more power to you. But, if you suffer in the process...well, I'd be a lil more careful. Perhaps I will get something out of your reviews too. I admit, you sparked my interest by not just supporting an expensive restaurant charging so much. I sure hope you don't go to restaurants that expensive...what is the point? Advice or not, I am not paying so much for food. Food is a necessity. And, sure, there are wizards out there who can really cook. Allow me to tip them or thank them for that. But, to charge me a standard cost so high for food? Just doesn't seem right. Or is it just self confidence?
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What? More sensless babble? on 2008-02-16 03:00:39 |
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Do you really want no one to respond to all this? It's not just babble. I am getting pictures in my head, so it can't be just babble. I am picturing theater people...people in spandex costumes on a dark stage...one who has a school bag with her as she juggles all the sides of life...why so much? Is it all necessary? Chasing a dream?
At least here you didn't obsess about the one person:P Now, there's a colorful drag posse:P heh. La Cage Falls or however you spell it. I first decided to look at your work when I saw the Barber of Seville...I love that old Bugs Bunny cartoon!:P jk
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what if... on 2008-02-16 02:54:13 |
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Well, boring or so unbefreakinlievably annoying to hear! >;( :P heh. If your life is so perfect...you find imperfection or unhappiness in it? What a concept...to strive for perfection...top of the mountain and then be dissatisfied with it. Interesting. But, seriously, if your life is that perfect...well, I'd be green:P
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Just sensless babble on 2008-02-16 02:51:39 |
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Ok, first of all...an actor???? Hmm.
Second, ENUF WITH THE GAY TALK!!! OK, WE GET IT! HE IS GAY! Let it freaken go! If you keep harping on the detail, how will you ever get past it? How can you expect to change him if you keep slapping the same sticker on him?:P I know, you are battling between realities. One side of you says "this is truth" and the other side tells you the opposite. Can't decide. I get it. But, let it go! Or move on! Stop poking the gay finger and stop calling your own work here babble. You have every right to express yourself...as ppl tell me, be more self-confident. At least give your words credit/title. No one wants to read babble, and are you really getting anything out of this if you have public viewing but no input? You're an actor, for crying out loud:P heh.
Oh, and a picture of flowers??? That's worse than real flowers!:P I HATE cell phones and especially texting! Just plain inhuman and retarded.
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The dreaded VDay on 2008-02-16 02:43:26 |
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I admit both sides. I am one of those who hangs his head low and feels weight on his back because I perpetually am alone. It just adds to the grief. But at the same time, I am a nut for all the decorative stuff and much of the gift giving. I am not a fresh flowers guy unless I grow/pick them myself. Buying a bunch of flowers just to have her go "Oh thank you! ", put them in a vase and watch them die...no thanks. I'll get some pretty fake ones that are of her favorite flower instead:P Or draw her picture with some. I don't follow the norm by any means. But, to take my mind off the woes of the day, I have been known to play cupid and pass out treats. Sometimes I have to have a charitable heart and give to those who don't "deserve" it...but that often hurts those who do and don't receive...but that is rumored to be cupid's game too. If you want to read a little about St. Valentine, I was going to suggest a post I saw...but it turned out to be more of a poem? Not what I thought it was. Guess its good ol research time:P
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Just a confession on 2008-02-16 02:37:05 |
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And, so began the series Will and Grace--heh:P Seriously. That's what you two are. And, don't say you have no chance if that's how strongly you feel. JW? Jennifer Walters? Hi, cuz:P jk
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The Truth Hurts--more than it should on 2008-02-16 02:18:23 |
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A storm is definitely brewing >;(
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Fetish fascination! on 2008-02-15 17:16:27 |
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I can't even read the whole thing. I got half way down almost and started shaking my head. I cannot believe such a relationship exists. Living with your parents...you not working...and having this sexual warfront. It is inconceivable. Not in MY world. It's the twilight zone here. Unbefreakinlievable.
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Definitely obsessed on 2008-02-15 17:11:30 |
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What an interesting relationship. Like eating candy and fetish candy daily. Sickenning sweet and causes nerves to fray. I don't know who is the lucky one.
I only comment because I am curious about this big belly comic book. Is that like the japanese comic featured in "Juno"? Abundant Amy I think it was called? I cant remember the title...so I am trying to figure out who to ask. LMK if you or your guy have a clue...since you seem "interested".
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Love at First Sight OR Blind Love on 2008-02-15 16:43:18 |
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No such thing as a day late for sharing love or a loving story:P Well, that's how I want to think it:P Mainly because even a day late at 2am, I made cookies and passed them around work. Made me feel better though being alone/solo.[And, of course, no one else makes the effort to make treats. But, I don't want that to get to me.]
Thanks for your support:)
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Save or $pend; It's All About The Money on 2008-02-15 16:39:16 |
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A nice idea, young one, but I am sure given the resources, you would feel just as happy to spend as they do. Money provides a certain amount of euphoria in this world as well as power. And, it seems so much less likely that someone who accrues such wealth would find the way to distribute what they "earned" to all the lesser people as well as themselves. It's just not realistic. No, it would take removing the power of money to change outlook. Maybe the failing US economy and things like that writers' strike might open people's eyes to change. Or maybe it will just make the ones who are "on top" snag up more for themselves and say "sorry" to those below or who are not as savy.
Thanks for the input, though:)
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The Image of Beauty on 2008-02-14 23:09:08 |
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I personally don't simply oust someone for weight, race, or whatever. I can fall for someone who is 145 lb as much as I fell for someone 101. BUT, I do have an artistic eye, and that is what determines what I like and dislike. I also have a gut instinct. And, yes, the eye of the beholder shtick applies.
If someone calls you ugly so feverishly, perhaps it is simply stupid. Perhaps it is annoying. Perhaps--despite the thick armor/shield you put up in denial of its impact--it gets to you. We are all human. Yada yada yada.
Yes, much of the world is driven by superficiality and materialism. You can thank the economy and media for that mess. All for the love of money. And, the gap between the profiteers and the squandering addict/paupers continues to grow.
In all importance of things, one person pointing and shouting may hurt, but it's just one angry person. Millions in the world yet to deal with. If it's not the only person saying it...yea, it could start to get under the skin a bit and maybe even cause a complex. Been there, had that.
Hope it helped to let it out. Pop that zit.
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help me on 2008-02-14 22:56:32 |
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Welcome to MY world:P The shy guy. I can't exactly put myself in your shoes. But, I've been there..sort of. And, I just happen to meet someone recently on here who has a similar friend situation. She too has a friend who has gotten involved with drugs, and it's ruining that friend's life and putting her responsibility(a child) in this person's hands. Not right in my opinion. No matter how super this young woman may be.
If your drug friend cannot handle you being concerned for her and asking her to stop, she is not a friend to hang onto. Sorry, but it's the hard truth. You can stick with her for the long haul and hope somewhere down the road she cracks her bad habit--without ruining your life in the process--and forgives you for putting up with her. Or, you can make your claim, set it straight and just let her know because the loss affects you both. You both stand to lose a valuable, priceless friend. But, that value can all be thrown away--and there are plenty of people out there in the world(granted, I have not had much luck--but my shyness/fears get in the way)--by people not being able to work together to conquer what is clearly an addiction problem that is not healthy by any means--not to mention costly.
If you can't even talk to someone about this guy you are connecting with...if your only outlet is this drug friend...what is that? What good is it? You are better of speaking here then maybe.
I've heard that light/special story before myself. It got stuck in my head and maybe is why people say I act like I am better than them. I might want to believe I am special--though I humbly often refuse the notion and just say I am different with different talents I don't even express or boast about--but such a thought has yet to win me any fail safe acclaim. In fact, once I started believing in my superiority, I was given a rude awakenning by the very competition I had told people I would face. Did I shoot myself in the foot? Maybe. Or maybe my "specialty" told me in advance what others could not predict. Who is to say?
Again, when I see someone who says people make friends with them--even if you choke--at least it may be something good? I suppose it depends on these wannabe friends though too. They might be worse off just trying to find someone to bring them up. You may find more than one of these drug friends wanting to be your friend but they slow you down in your journey just to take a hit. But, they are your friend right? Don't worry that they are risking your life by being with you when the drug lord comes to collect his dues. They will protect you, right?
I know what it is like to have a light inside and--despite church singing/teaching--hide it under a basket. Maybe for self-preservation. Maybe out of any number of fears. Like someone could violate or steal that light. It could happen.
My two cents...and then some. Best I can do for now. Sorry if i say anything upsetting.
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messed up kinda funny... on 2008-02-14 22:39:08 |
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One of my concerns exactly. And, I could have included some of this in my recent post. I came here to review movies. But, after exposing myself to a few posts, I find myself fitting in with the survivors of flight 815 instead of staying on the boat[LOST]. I have been slowly dipping my feet in the water. I also thought about running two set ups. But, I think few of us realize/utilize the setting feature for public/private posts? Then you could limit who shares your feelings versus who shares your body of work? Some of those journal entries you are not sure about sharing that often get a few glances but no comments could just be saved for "friends and family" til you feel you have something meaty enough for someone to comment on. Just a thought.
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Seeking Advice on 2008-02-14 00:17:09 |
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I should like to add that in the case of a guy who is very nervous about approaching women, he might use letters or--in this case--a list to convey his feelings. It would be harsh to just dismiss such a thing and further hurt their sensitive feelings...hence why they don't stop using the notes. But, if the list did turn out to be a list of demands with no room to budge, I say the ball would be in your court to counter the demands or dismiss them completely saying "sorry. can't do all that. find someone else."
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Creative ideas required... on 2008-02-14 00:08:10 |
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A mother in a family of 12? Cripes. That's a big family...grandkids spilling over the continental border into the ocean:P
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yes, but no on 2008-02-13 23:57:45 |
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I had a history teacher teach me the meaning of hard work. I worked my butt so hard--I was greatful for him teaching me to push myself, but I was a mental/physical wreck from working so hard just to get a good grade(and would not settle for less than an A). I had an English teacher once tell me everything I wrote had "no style" and thus I was in danger of being flunked. Granted, it was the only teacher experience like that, but it stuck with me...that it doesn't matter what you think. When those in charge of you/your work tell you "you stink", you either stink or you take yourself out the door ASAP finding another place to learn/work. I never had a gym teacher make me feel good about being the slowest kid in class next to two people who probably deserved to be. It was humiliating running like a smoker at 10 yrs. old. When you come out of grade school with lots of love and support and the belief that you are so smart and talented only to walk into the next phase of life and have that high step yanked out from under you, you might think again before risking another hard fall. For some, it changes life completely. Drastically. And, I have learned one thing about life in this world. If you have friends that stick with you, you are golden. If you have superficial friends who will turn on a dime to join a "cooler" group or change on you completely or want you only for what you can do for them or break things off with you suddenly without chance of reconciliation, you are walking up a steep hill with a boulder.
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obsessions of feb. on 2008-02-13 23:44:41 |
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HA!:P monthly obsessions? Is that like Oprah's favorite things?:P Like these will be different next month if you wear them always??
Ok, just my POV...Never heard of Ed Hardy. Nor Marc by Marc by Marc Jacobs....Marc.
Never was a Beatles fan--though I'll admit there have been a few well assembled songs. After a bad experience in HS, I became quite anti-Beatle and have yet to shed that twitch.
Tiffany's? As in jewelry? I refuse to brand jewelry or anything expensive/priceless. Don't expect any expensive jewelry from me:P Anything that draw's a thief's attention is basically not worth it to me. I HATE those "he went to Jarod?" and "A diamond is forever" commercials.
Nautical theme? I was never a Sailor Moon fan--spew sailor suits with big bows. But, maybe you can find an exception I will like?:P Peacoats maybe? Those I like on women.
Menswear on women CAN be hot. Pinstripe suits and ties especially.
Pair it with a men's hat like Diane Keaton? Could be appealing on the right person:) I think the big brim sun hats paired with ruffle cuff gloves and sundresses(like those black polka dot ones) are hotter on women(sort of the Jackie O look?).
Red nail polish. Does not go with everything and is a hot flair. So, on a day you want to be relaxed and/or cool, the red kills the whole thing. I can't stand women who wear red or black and especially if they put it on the toes with sandals? Bleh! But, with certain outfits/occasions, red could work on fingers.
Large rings and bangles--depends on style/taste.
Otherwise they can just be obnoxious if you sit down with someone or walk with someone and all you hear is "BANG! Jingle! CLINK!" Annoying.
Ipod, wouldn't know. But, considering what they cost and how often ppl have to replace them? [A $300 gizmo should not need to be replaced in only 3 yrs.] I think the Ipod is best used at home. If you go outdoors, get a cheapy MP3.
And, One Tree Hill. We discussed this one already:P I could have put all of this in an email, but I thought--heck:P
Just my POV. Peace.
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I need someone on 2008-02-13 00:10:27 |
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You, like me, try to take on too much. Oh how we want to be heroes. If only we had the strength. You ever watch hero movies/shows? What is it that gives them strength to do amazing feats? SUPPORT. If the city doesn't cheer Spider Man on, how does he feel good about what he does? Sure, when the odds are down, sometimes willpower kicks you up to par. But, eventually, if you don't feel supported, you falter. People need to know they have backers. Any leader, unless he is a violent, greedy dictator, needs his people's support to know he is a good leader. Many kings needed the people to sing of their praises...and when that wasn't happenning...bring on the jesters and minstrels:P
I need the same thing as you. SOMEONE. Someone I can count on who then can count on me. Cuz if I am not dependable or of value to them, I am baggage. And, that is one thing I dont want to be.
Maybe someday, even if I dont strap on some super suit and save the world from some disaster...in my own small way I will make a positive difference and leave a mark in history books.
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Who really cares? on 2008-02-13 00:03:12 |
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If you are what/how I think you are, its just natural to tune things out and seek a hole to hide in. Rabbits do it. Why cant we?:P Its called spiritual retreat. In some cases it allows us to regroup and heal ourselves. Ever play video games? Ever played Super Metroid for the SNES? Samus does a lil trick like that when energy is nearly used up if you know how to do it...anyway. It's self-defense and don't hate yourself for being introspective. But, DO work on moderation and try not to spend too much time alone in your head unless you have someone like me around to work it out:P Many less patient ppl will just bark at you and make you curl up more.
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don't bother reading this on 2008-02-12 23:57:24 |
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Oh crap, I read it anyway:P Ever notice how when you tell some ppl NOT to do something they do it anyway? Wont they ever learn?:P I mean, what do we teach kids anyway??
I will say one thing for this post...TALK is not always helpful. Writing all this out does not make me feel better. Silenced words do not convey the same energy. Why do you think monks chant and asian ppl do tai chi? Movement and sound. Soothes the soul. So, if you want to talk things out to feel better...TALK it out. Otherwise, seek other methods of energy stimulation/release. I for one feel I need a shoulder to cry on...someone to hug more than any talking or typing can do for me. Any sympathies offered here by strangers with or without pics of themselves just doesnt cut it for me. If I could hug you I would.
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please somebody listen on 2008-02-12 23:44:22 |
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Just a thought, but even though it is a reality...I still dont like discussing death's inevitability when someone is going through it with a family member. Unless she has a shoulder to cry on.
Count your blessing, Idoart, if you have friends. I cannot say even that much.
My dad has gone through a few scares himself and seems similar to your dad in silence and strength. However, as much as I defend him against the snaps of my mother, he continues to kiss her feet til death. I understand but do not agree with much of what he does. So, as much as it pains me, I do not feel the same way as someone who talks of their parents with love. Mine have somewhat spoiled trust and love from me.
Oh, and you GO, Tyra...FIERCE!:P..o, wait, yer not that Tyra:P
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The Paradox of Our Time on 2008-02-12 23:32:31 |
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The distraught one brings things down by name alone. I thought Idoart had written these things...and I was about to grab her, shake her and shout GENIUS!! I thought the inset was brilliant! Blew my mind. Instead it was a potentially pot smoking stand up comic? Is that some sort of hippy mind expansion trip? In any case...I cant say enough about how some of those things I wish I had expressed myself. Took the words out of my brain's ass. And, this is all coming from a young woman in dire straits...6 ft from the edge and she is thinking...it's hard to believe in such a situation she can come up with all this...which is the only thing that makes me a lil skeptical.
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lonely on 2008-02-12 23:23:44 |
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You should change the title of this post to something about modern society bringing you down...its not so much about being lonely as that. But, I think you have--as I have in a few of my posts--touched on some very potent points. And, each one that strikes a cord with me made me smile. Feel free to exchange thoughts on this sort of thing any time. Just try not to bring me further down:P I get depressed enough on my own from the issues. But, philosophy sharing for the betterment of mankind is good:)
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Depression on 2008-02-12 23:13:47 |
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Dear libra rabbit, if you are born mid october 87, you are spinning in a vortex of emotional matters...you are a natural talker/counselor unable to reach in all directions. I know how most of that feels. I have not been through what you are facing...but I can imagine. My head would be spinning and tears would be very hard to hold back.
The only advice I can offer is to buckle down. Tune out all issues that do not directly affect you/family--even if it seems selfish. No news. No newspapers. No gossip TV/entertainment shows. Just keep things as simple as possible to lessen the pressure. And, dont blame money. Yes, some have it while others need it. I wrote a lil post about the matter myself. But, we should be thinking more about just society helping each other in general. Putting a cost on everything just seems to add stress and divides the haves and havenots.
Not sure what else to say. But, chin up and don't forget to take a deep breath when it gets too tense. Walks help to.
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What's Hot--Hot Pics on 2008-02-11 21:44:23 |
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Added new catagory "Women loving pizza" and 4 misc./additional pics.
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A Great Head of Hair--women's haircuts on 2008-02-11 20:09:03 |
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Added 1 ponytail and 3 Misc Hair Pics today.
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Creative ideas required... on 2008-02-11 01:07:16 |
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Wouldn't using the floor make it just as bad or worse?:P Cuz then she would be RIGHT on the boards. I dunno. I think I would try to make noise like they do on TV to "compete with her"...but from the lower floor, that usually doesn't work:P ...and if someone is below you, now you are bothering them. Or, you could go up to their door and start pretending someone is making love to you against the door...just be obnoxious about it like Meg Ryan in When Harry Met Sally til they come to the door:P Then say "HI...sorry for being so NOISY...I come from the floor below you, dontchya know...it gets kinda noisy down there, ya know?...so..." and excuse yourself.
Best I can do for now.
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Seeking Advice on 2008-02-10 20:43:19 |
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And, my advice is the advice this last person got from you to give to you...or something like that:P Heh.
No, seriously...first of all I wonder what a non-spring chicken like yourself really is:P Second, I have been in a similar situation where I was the one being given a list of expectations only days into knowing the person--but this was an online thing and we never dated. Similarly, it proved to be too much too soon, and I--a sagittarius, mind you--backed off asking for space. Well, that didn't go well at all. However, despite all the bumps in the road, we come back together when we can to chat.
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Blog virgin on 2008-02-10 19:59:30 |
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Scarlet, I concur that my journals have mostly been a waste. I have nothing I feel of interest to write. So, I write fiction instead...but I don't apply it to me directly.
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Arrived At Last on 2008-02-10 19:51:30 |
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Heh. Maybe, but I would soon feel very disturbed/wrong like any "predator" feels here in the States. Ya know, there ARE laws about such things:P And, I happen to know an Iranian girl with a semi-tragic story that could be compared to what I have heard of Persepolis(which if I do not see in the theater, I will get the DVD). I wish it was easier for me to learn a language or for a universal translator gizmo.
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Auspicious Food for Chinese New Year 年菜 on 2008-02-10 19:41:21 |
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I gotta say, though, that is one unappetizing picture:P Rather gross looking.
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Auspicious Food for Chinese New Year 年菜 on 2008-02-10 19:39:28 |
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Buddhists dont eat animals? Not even fish?? But, aren't a large number of people in China buddhist? And, they are all vegan as well?? I cant believe that. Well, if the food does not matter. I suppose I could just as easily paint a picture or get places with all the different symbols and set them out that day while I gorge myself on pizza and not give a crap:P Heh.
Groans at the mention of "barnstormer"(its "brainstormer") before strapping on flight goggles and a big red scarf around his neck.
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Auspicious Food for Chinese New Year 年菜 on 2008-02-10 00:48:29 |
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..I think I will sit here for a while just listenning to that music:).....I could cry...drifting off in a dream to an ideal image of rice paper doors and bonzai trees...of women in colorful kimonos and samurai in sturdy shingled armor....and cherry blossom petals dancing through the air...water dripping from a bamboo fountain...pan flutes playing...drums beating....my heart...
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Auspicious Food for Chinese New Year 年菜 on 2008-02-10 00:43:50 |
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Ni Hao, Melody and Becky:) Scorpio water? rabbit and libra earth? dragon. Love that oriental music:) That picture of whatever that pasty white stuff is(are those pot stickers/dumplings?) and gold "teeth"...not very appetizing. I am always curious about authentic/traditional asian foods--especially for the new year...though just thinking about all those small and frantic to keep up traditions with such a desire for abundance, wealth and perfection seems life-draining to me. And, substituting fish pictures for actual fish doesn't make much sense to me. In any ancient magic/ritual, you could not substitute a special ingredient with a cave painting. But, it's your choice. Whatever makes you feel better and to upkeep the old ways. I wonder what has turned you vegan though you wish to fret over these old ways. I cannot decipher the squares the site puts in place of chinese characters:P But, I will look back here if you post recipes...or you can send them to me. Thanks--or Shei Shei--and Happy New Year. [Imagine firecrackers being set off:P]
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My personal conversation on 2008-02-09 03:40:50 |
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Simply scratches his head and shrugs. Did I SAY I was MARRIED?:P Well, that's about all I can say about that(forest gump).
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living in an Anonymous world.. on 2008-02-09 03:37:01 |
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Wait, no, Roperunner...yesss, that makes more phonic sense:P
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living in an Anonymous world.. on 2008-02-09 03:36:09 |
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String? That old gag?:P Well, is it DLS or Ribbonrunner?:P
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