Hi, I'm brainstormer.
And, I have an addiction problem.
Don't we all here?
So, I am taking the time for ALL of us
to address our addictions.
This is to be a theraputic post space.
Let it all out.
Come forward and confess.
Do not be afraid.
We are all anonymous to some extent here anyway.
Right?
So, this is an Addiction Anonymous meeting.
An AA meeting. Get it?
Think of this like one of those Frosted Flakes commercials
with the faces hidden behind black shadows.
Or do you feel like you have an identity here already
that you might tarnish somehow?
That you might expose something?
Where is the line drawn?
How much do we share or not share?
Getting to the point,
as I said,
I want to take the time
to let us address our addictions.
Perhaps in this therapy group session
without faces showing
we may help relieve a bit of stress
or even break a bad habit?
Let's begin.
Hi, I am __,
and I have a/an __ addiction.
Hi, I am brainstormer,
and I have an internet addiction.
It's been a few hours since my last usage.
When I am unable to get online or use my computer at all,
I tend to be a bit of a wreck.
I am unable to focus on other more important matters
and it can even be difficult to breathe.
I don't even do much online like so many do.
But, still it feels like an addiction.
And, I can get hooked so easily.
I can meet someone by chance, fate or "whathaveyou"...
and, on a good day, become instantly hooked.
A good conversation can take you by
surprise sometimes.
And, I hate goodbyes.
I hate to see things end or die or not work at all.
I can be a bit of a diehard and a perfectionist.
I let things get attached to my heart.
And, when something goes awry,
I can easily get worked up
and throw everything away...
burn bridges...
tear the place apart.
I must sound like a mood-swinging crab or some kind of nut.
Phew.
Felt good to get that off my chest.
[Though, there is plenty more in "here".]
Now then,
your turn.
Introduce yourself however feels comfortable
and share a few words about your addiction/s.
I will only allow healthy sharing and responses here.
There will be no disrespecting or hateful words.
I, good or bad, will be the judge of this.
In some cases, words may be intervention.
That, in case, must be allowed.
It is part of the healing process.
Shall we begin?
What I am hearing: Breaking the Habit by Linkin Park
and Honesty by Billy Joel
Posted by brainstormer on 2008-03-23 23:44:45 | Rating: | Views: 234
Smoking, well Im sure we have all heard enough about that one:P I wont be the first to intervene or get all self-righteous. You know what you need to do and that it is unhealthy. It is up to you to decide when you can break it and substitute it with some other form of stress buster. There are a few here who need to break the same habit. I could start a SA group alone.
Flavor Ice? Really?:P Refreshing. I used to be crazy about those and anything colorful and fruity as a kid. I was jealous of kids who had Fun Fruits and Roll Ups. But, when I grew up and learned about Saccharin, I gave them up:P Really, they dont appeal to me anymore. The childhood fascination with transparent color treats is all but gone. I still like crystals and crystaline/glass art, though:P
Reality TV...I am afraid this will be one more bane that destroys society like smoking. Some day we may find few with functioning brains who are ashamed of the billions who fell under Reality TVs spell and melted their minds away. I dont know what to say more about this one either but may babble on and on:P I just pray entertainment or people's choices thereof will get better not worse.
Shopping, ahh...women's stereotypical vice. It is harmful because it still costs you. Yes, you are dodging the addiction of plastic...but wads? Doesn't that tell you how bad it is?:P Unless you are just that well off that you can be Donald Trump(who actually spends more than he has from what I saw in his TV mock-autobio). The only bit of wisdom I can dispense here is the ever wise words of eternal wisdom...live with less...and the most important control word in this existence--moderation. Oh, how many lives could be saved by that word alone. With great resources comes great responsibility. [I wrote a post about money and the economy which I didnt quite get to all the thoughts I get about such things.]
There really are no more TV shows I go nuts if I miss other than maybe LOST or Heroes(which drove me a bit nuts the first "season"). I used to tape everything I liked in hopes of saving it for later/collecting. Another addiction/habit I had/have to stop. Although, it has gotten easier with DVD and DVRs:P
Hi...im angelwings and im addicted to my boyfriend :) You might call me obssessed, but yeah I ask for his time and love, but thats ALL. Im not asking for materialistic things (I know you're not accusing me of that, but im just saying it incase it crosses your mind).
I'm verrrrry emotional, very sensitive, i get emotionally attatched to people very easily..i get hurt easily...
Like you brainstormer, i get worked up too if things dont go my way...
Im addicted to blogging ;P who here isnt?? Love getting comments, love reading posts..whenever I'm not online, I keep wondering if someone else has stopped by and written a comment for me :)
Umm...what else? If some or all of the above makes me sound horrible and awful, I'm not :) I'm a good friend, loyal..trustworthy...dependable. I like that about me :p
Ok I'll stop before I go into the reason s why I like me!
Hi,my name is Gwatlan and I'm addicted to a HOT HOT STUFF. I can't live without it. I have them in many different forms, the hotter the better. It is called hot chilli peppers.I grow them, the long skinny ones, the tiny fiery ones and the short fat ones. I love them fresh, dried, cooked into sauce or paste. I have it with almost everything I eat. Soup, salad, meat, fish, chicken, finger foods like springrolls, chicken nuggets, rissoles,sausage rolls etc... even in my pizza and sandwiches. I also use hot chilli sauce for dips. The older I am, it seems the hotter taste I prefer. So far my stomach still tolerates it.
I also addicted to fresh cherries. Glad that they are only available seasonal, other wise I will eat them every day in big quatity and I will have stomach ache after. Once I started to eat cherries, I can't stop until they are all gone. Last Christmas holiday my husband and I went to a cherry farm and we bought 2 kg (4.4 lb), I ate most of them in 2 days and my husband only ate about a hand full. He is not crazy of fruits.
My negative trait is that I want my husband to help to do things around the house, but I complain too much because the way he does it doesn't meet my standard: not good enough, too sloppy etc. I'm stil struggling to appreciate his help.....
HI, ANGELWINGS!:P(got to keep responding to each other with the AA meeting greeting voice)
Well, I am not sure your addictions--other than maybe the "blogging" are really a bad habit. Are they? You don't really express any negative sides. Perhaps to the BF, you might seem suffocating if he does not like such demands of time and attention? [I know I dont like being demanded of:P]
And, why did you think/assume I would ask about material things?? Hmm...
I'm not sure everyone here is addicted to the services here the same way, or to the same degree. Some seem rather casual about the whole thing. They write simply to pour it out...don't care what others say even though it is publicly displayed...and can come or go as they please like a passing breeze. Others make an effort with their posts and perhaps thrive--like Arty Ziff from the Simpsons living off the moisture in the family's attic boards--on response and interaction. How serious do you feel your addiction is? Would you go nuts if your computer didn't work for a while? How bad would it be in a week? A month? Six months? What if you had to shop for a new computer?
And, I can tell you are a bit self-conscious to say the least in that you worry if you sound horrible and start listing what you like about you:P Maybe that is something else to tackle as well? But, is that any sort of addiction? That is what this post was intended for. Potentially or Assuredly unhealthy addictions.
You too. Where is the negative potential? You are addicted to the hot stuff and cherries...hot spicy cherries too? You express no negative side exactly. You mention some degree of concern for your stomach. I have not studied your astrology to see if there should be any concern, but you could look into it. I personally do not care for hot stuff and worry it would have drastic affect on me. Just like anything else that dramatically affects the body, we may develop some degree of immunity or tolerance...like having to live in hot/cold weather where we live. But, is it healthy? Ask yourself and then decide if these addictions to everyday foods and things in nature are trouble or not. I like cherries, but I dont like pitts:P Or stains. Cherry juice stains are some of the worst.
This is turning into a therapy session:P You are addicted to complaining perhaps? I can nod to that then. It is a bit of a sagittarian trait perhaps. Idealism. Perfectionism. The old "if you want it done right, do it yourself" mentality. That is something that just has to be worked out between the two of you. How can it be a happy union after how many years? if these little things continue to be thorns in the side. You are not satisfied with his efforts but can be? Can you change to accept his level of effort? Or must you change the tasks each tackles? Or what else might happen here? I hate when I hear couples arguing over such things. I've heard more than enough in my lifetime:P I don't want to face any of that in the future.
Hi I am Bittersweet I have a food addiction. All throughout my life continue to move from one addiction to another but food has, for the most part of my life, been my addiction of choice.
I've struggled with an addiction to: smoking cigarettes, Internet, gamming, shopping, people that I've been in relationships with, meth, and food. – not all of these at the same time, mind you. I was just running down the things I’ve found myself caught within an addiction to throughout my life.
They do say that if you have an addictive personality you’ll always have this need, drive, to have something to cling to.
Now we are talking:) Addicted to food/eating. Well, you shouldn't feel TOO bad about this. You are a Taurus afterall, correct? Taurean people are often said to be some of the best cooks. They often have a knack for good taste. Buuut, in some cases, Tauruses are known for simply loving INDULGENCE. They like the finer things in life and having a good, rich life. While the other earth signs, Virgo and Capricorn, tend to stuff money and riches into a vault for a rainy day, Taurus tends to enjoy spending money as much as they do counting/making it.
Cigarettes and METH?!?! EEsh. But, you are not that old...how long could you have been into all these things?? ANd, how do you get over METH?!?! Somehow I suspect any drug addiction may in fact be what tied you to one of your relationships OR was a root cause of its failure if the other person was against it(like myself).
Internet gaming? OR both regular role play gaming and the internet in general? I know how that one goes. I too have been a bad video game addict. You can get so caught up in the journey sometimes that even quitting and walking away for a day seems impossible. You just want to live in that world til you find the utmost happiness if it exists. Legend of Zelda games(and Dragon Warrior/Dragon Quest) have been a great weakness to me. That is why I try to turn myself away from any games that I cannot share with another--like the old Atari days when all that mattered was who got the higher score against the other person at the time--and that require too much time investment:P But, I tell ya...it has been rough:P
Shopping, I could address a...minor addiction to that as well. Ebay has been a bit of a culprit in that. Again, we must learn to harness the wise words of "living with less" no matter how bad we think we need or want something. In the end, it will only be clutter or baggage in our lives. What we must garner and treasure are moments and each other.
I've never heard of this personality theory...scares me a bit;/
I wrote about an addiction/craving for tomato sauce already in another post. You could call that MY food addiction:P I'd be happy to share a meal sometime;) Just...no smoking or any of the other stuff:P
I'm curious as well about this relationship factor. I know there are such things as "stalkers" and the like...but how does it work with you? And, is there a pattern to be unearthed here? Are there more who have yet to express/explain this relationship addiction?
My name is Ellie and I am an addict. I am addicted to smoking, travel adventures, and shopping for French lingerie. I might be addicted to my kids, but I just think I love them to death!
I have compulsions, as well: I eat salty foods and immediately, must have something sweet, but must end with something salty. Even an olive works! I don't consider this an addiction because I diet when my clothes feel tight and fast weekly for detox purposes and healthy skin.
Hi. I saw that you visited my blog, so I thought I'd return the favor. Interesting that you wrote a post about addictions too. I believe you're acquainted with some of mine. I have another one, but I'm not quite ready to share that one yet.
I hadn't realized my post sounded like LP's song, but now that you mention it... It used to be one of my favorites. I listened to it as I was driving home today.
Anyway, sorry this comment isn't really relevant to your post.
Well, I was wondering when you would show up to confess about the smoking:P Had you on my list of people to show up:) I already discussed that one enough.
Travel adventures? This is supposed to be potentially unhealthy stuff, not stuff that's going to make the writer/host angry or jealous!:[:P
FFF--FFR--Frennnch linge---huminahuminahumina:P~~
Um...yea..not sure what to say about that one:)
Yea, that is just either great familial love or smothering...Id have to get their side of the story:P
That is an interesting compulsion story:P But, I would make myself sick following such a pattern. The salty is of course less healthy than the sweet--unless prone to sweets...so a margarita chick?:P Or what is the one where you take the shot, lick the wrist and bite the lime? When you mention the olive...I think alcohol...which could be another addiction:P Hmm?
You seem wise to your eating habits but I despise diets or fasting of any kind...and yet, I like the idea of detox. And, if it helps the skin, more power to ya;) Simply hot.
Now, I like movies as much as anyone...I have my select tastes though. So, I am not open to just any kind. And, movies have an effect on me. So, I cannot watch them endlessly without losing my mind. And, once more, I dont see the negative side in your addictions:P
I found it interesting that there were two bittersweets that I visited so close together:P And, I think there is yet another I have seen before. I wonder why there are so many:P
I will tolerate your non-uniform reply because anyone reading this can look at your post to see your addictions if they want. You have made it known here. That is what matters.
I'm glad you made the song connection. That is too cool when it comes on the radio while thinking about what you read earlier:P
Nice picture, by the way;) I like how the hair just cascades like a waterfall.
When you feel ready to address that other addiction, let me or this post know, okay?;)
Hi, I'm Keepdreaming, and I have an addiction to bubblebaths, with a huge bottle of water waiting in the freezer when I'm finished. It's true. It's a real addiction, I have to have one every single night!! My bath has to be steamy hot, bubbles have to be piled up so high they are floating everywhere, and my water bottle HAS to be partly frozen with little ice crystals in it. If I am on vacation, and can't have my bubble baths, with my half frozen bottled water, I literally have withdrawls. I become achy and tense, and crabby. But once I get in my Bubble bath, it's like someone gave me the best drug in the world. I'm in La-La land.
I used to be addicted to tylenol PM to help me sleep but my doctor made me stop taking it. So now I just stay up till I'm so tired I can't keep my eyes open...which is sometimes 1:30 am.
Those are my addictions!
(If you ladies keep this up I am going to have to make another addiction statement of my own:P hochimama:))
HI, KEEPDREAMING!:P
Well, what can I say about THAT!:) A lil warm in here:) Boy, I never thought about closets and bubblebaths so much til you came along:P Its been ages since I had a nice hot bath:( I can't really say that is a negative thing either...but it does seem to be a bit of a strict habit. How does ANYONE mix hot and cold??? I suppose you would eat ice cream in the bath as well??? That is so SICK!:O:P I...can't fathom. I would have the worst cramps and..well, take it from there:P Bleh!
No frozen water bottles with a hot bath.
Id help you break that habit real fast:P
OOh, Tylenol PM...now, that is scary:[
If doc had to make you stop...that's bad. Lucky he was there to let you know! Cripes you could have been jacked on Nyquil just as bad.
Not getting enough sleep is bad too. Bad for many things. I need to work on that one as well...but many nights it is hard to be satisfied with my day and just go to sleep. I have few if any stress/emotional releases:P So, it is very hard to just relax and sleep;/ Sure could use a hot tub:P
It works wonders BS. Remember Turn the water on hot, run it full blast pour in the bubbles...I like jasmine with lavender scent. Now I think you misunderstood something. I don't take the ice cold water bottle IN the tub with me. Its for AFTER my hot bath. I'm so relaxed after my bath, and I feel so comfy, I crave (the addiction) a icy (half frozen) bottle of water. It's sooooo refreshing. I feel so good inside and out. Now go try it. I won't tell anyone. It'll be our little secret. I'll watch form the closet. hee-hee ;)
oh yes...I'm addicted to bubble baths too!!! I take forever in there...its the best feeling ever...soothing like nothing else...well not NOTHING else...but soothing nevertheless...hehehe...
I'm going to get sooo lost in all those comments.. :D
Hi,
I'm rEpTiLe and the addictions go as follows:
* Dimmu Borgir - a black metal band; I can't spend one day without listening to them
* English.. sounds weird but I'm from a non-English speaking country and English is my hobby and I earn my daily bread teaching it
* British accent.. this one time, a naturally-born British came to my place of work, trying to find a job, and I spent like 2 hours talking with him and I was excited about it for like 2 weeks afterwards :D
* Guitar Hero (but it's a temporary thing). I hope..
* Earl Grey and walnut coffee
* I see the world in the darkest colours possible..
* I guess I actually like being mean..
* horror stories / movies
*movies in general
* the TV series: Friends, Yes, Prime Minister, The Office (both, the American and British versions), Mr Bean I watch them all the time. I know them by heart and yet every single day, whenever I use my PC, I have one of the TV series on. I don't even have to watch it, just listen to it and I'm good :D
* serial killers
* hoaxes and conspiracy theories
* DRUMS!
That's all 8)
I am not stupid, KD:P I knew what you meant. I still think it is sick. I once met someone who said they wanted to sit in a hot tub and eat ice cream. That just made me want to poop:P
But, why in the world after I heat myself up and get all cozy do I want to have anything cold? Nope, sorry. Not for me. I'll stick with the hot stuff;)
And, I am not taking a bath til I have a private hot tub:P
Glad we both know smoking is bad:P Settle that ASAP.
Nope, no longer a Flavor Ice fan.
Reality TV..blah..yada yada:P Perhaps you have a bad habit of being critical? That might be an addiction you want to break so you don't turn into a darker version of Simon Cowell.
Ok, thanks for explaining your shopping habits:P heh.
I didn' know yous was a sista, girrrlfriend:P I shou' have axed:)
But, the point of this was to come to terms with addictions...which are usually a bad thing?:P So. If you wish to be good friends with your demons, so be it. But, I wanted this to be a bit theraputic. Not indulgent;)
WHOA! Welcome to the darkside!;/ Red flags all over the map!
Never heard of that band...but Im not a big metal fan(loud, screechy music period unless it is Linkin Park:P). Is that a BAD habit? Are you doing yourself any harm?
Ok, English which you teach(and I guessed that you were an english teacher, I should mention to everyone:P me being psychic:D)--native language or no?--and a British accent. Um, how are those...ok, I suppose they could be ADDICTIVE in the sense of turn-ons...but bad habits or negatives? The English one is kind of lame:P That is like me being addicted to my line of work? Um, no:P
I admit I find some women with certain accents sexy...but I can't be specific because everyone's voice varies.
Guitar Hero ay? Do WII have a problem?:P You tell me. I havent had the pleasure of playing any of those yet nor do I desire to:P I liked the Dance Dance stuff better. Id rather learn a real guitar. But, I dont like games that require following patterns all that much. Remember that one for the early Playstation with the rapping dog? Yea...I hated that game:P
Earl Grey HOT!--says Capt. Picard:P
You have to specify if this is a terrible addiction or just something you crave like I crave pizza or spaghetti.
Seeing a dark world?? First...WHY? And, second...what am I supposed to say?:P RED FLAG
LIKE being mean...ok, that is a BAD thing. No good being an adult bully. Please fix that. RED FLAG
I detest anything horror or gorey. Period. RED FLAG.
Nothing wrong with being a movie buff. Support the theaters and respect them to keep costs down.
UGH! I have seen more than enough Friends....never heard of YES or PRIME MINISTER...The Office(american version I have seen only) is okay sometimes...Mr Bean? He got old for me like Benny Hill...those guys date themselves too fast. It loses its funny;/ I am the same way with Simpsons or Seinfeld. I watch them often...but even I dont know them by heart:P thank goodness.
Oh, my head hurts;/:P
Serial wha??!:O What does that mean??!! HUGE! RED FLAG:[
Why bother with hoaxes unless you just stumble on one? I do find some conspiracy theories interesting...but also stressful. I dont need anything getting me worked up.
Drums? IIII don't work...I just want to bang on the drums all day...IIII don't play...I just want to bang on the drums all day!
I want to apologize for my non-uniformed reply to the post. I am fairly new to this community and was unsure of how things worked.
I love to cook, so I guess that says it right there. Let me know, I’d share a home cooked meal with you, if you’d like. I don’t smoke anymore so that shouldn’t be an issue.
I had been using Meth for approximately 4 years and as for Cigarettes I had been smoking on and off since I was 14, just recently getting grips upon it.
Both Internet gamming and RPGs at one point in time in my life. I’d just put myself into the game and tray and avoid reality as that character. This also happen to me when I’d watch Anime.
As for the relationship thing, I don’t feel that I’m “stalker” material. However, when I do become involved with someone I want to be with them regularly or at least know that they are safe. I become close to that person in as many ways possible. I have been to the point of submission towards a person. I just like making the person that I am with happy. I’ve been called a hoverer.
Brainstormer, that is just toooooo much information! Gross...I would NEVER want ice cream in a hot bath or a hot tub, I agree that would be yucky...but Honey, I didn't actually need to know about your internal workings and how the hot water and cold ice cream would affect your bowels. Nice picture! Can you please remove that from my head now?? When you are outside on a hot summer day, and come in the house don't you ever crave a big icy cold bottle of water? Boy I do, and that is exactly how I feel when I get out of my hot bubble baths. Well enough of that.
Have a nice night, and keep that bathroom tissue close by. Oh...I just keep seeing that little brainstormer guy you have as your profile picture pooping in that pot now. You better fix this!!
Bittersweet2005...you worry SO much:P I fear for that "submission" factor. You seem like a delicate flower with an abundance of loving energy pouring out in the kitchen. I picture you like the mother who cries her eyes out when a kid skins his knee...and you immediately want to bake some cookies. If you are not careful--unless that is just how you work--you could burn yourself out or become someone's chew toy.
Don't WORRY about your uniformity:P But, thanks for the concern to fit in;)
Keepdreaming, I knew it was too much for you:P I was working some magic there;) I dont get the same feeling as a summer day from sitting in hot water. My brain does not cross-reference HEAT pounding down on me and potentially blinding me with HEAT coming up under and around me in liquid form. So, for me, a hot bath and a hot summer day are as different as chocolate pudding and a Hershey bar with almonds. Different phases/experiences of similar things.
second,
hi, i'm foxx_flie & i'm addicted to a lot of things. i'm addicted to sex with a man i call 'beast' in my posts...i'm addicted to flirting with any & every guy i find attractive. i'm addicted to pushing guys away when i feel a shift in what some would refer to as 'random play'. i'm addicted to falling in love. i'm addicted to procrastination. i'm addicted to learning, writing, observing & experimenting. i'm addicted to challenge...both challenges for myself & challenges i place against other people/ideas. i'm addicted to the gym. i'm addicted to the snooze button on my alarm clock. i'm addicted to this site.
oh man....KeepDreaming made me want to take a bath soooooooooo bad!!! i can't remember the last time i took one either. they are so therapeutic..... and the bottle of water with 'ice crystals' --> YUM!!! :o)
if it weren't 3:30am, i might just take myself up on that bubble bath idea.... hahaha
WELL! Aren't you the addict among addicts. Pardon me asking, but do you have a sign on your "door" that reads "OPEN ALL NIGHT"? Cuz' when you say you are addicted to learning, I am sure it is not learning your lesson(probably sensitivity training or a new position if you're lucky). Addicted to sex with one guy, flirting with many others, "random play"...I don't think you know the meaning of love. I think you are drunk with infatuation and lust. You are a highly dangerous enemy sub of the good women out there. You are an attack vessel bent on male destruction or abuse. You play with fire. Addicted to experimenting? That's for sure. The gym is probably just the place to smell pheromones.
I am feeling a bit sick to my stomach, so I will stop there. I think you need the ice cold water more than the hot bath. Before you turn up a train wreck and/or have wrecked many men's and subsequent women's lives, seek help. Or should I be asking if you charge by the hour or the night? Peace.
i am in no way what u described (i.e. prostitute!?!?!?) i am most certainly drunk with infatuation & lust...i will give u that. but definitely NOT on male destruction or abuse!! and i think it was unfair of you to indirectly say i am not a good woman.
i am truly honest & up front with any & every guy i get involved with - if he sticks around & gets his heart broken, that's not my fault. i just don't see a point in wasting time....is that so wrong? i am a bit inexperienced in the relationship department but that's what experiments are for, no?
but who knows....maybe ur right. maybe i was conditioned by some alien army to be a black widow type assasin on the male gender. lmao
either way, as far as the learning comment - i've learned more lessons in my relatively short life than most people i kno who are twice my age - 'don't assume - u just make an ass out of u & me.' u never stopped to question what circumstances may have shaped me into what i've become; and while i do not seek sympathy, i think i at least deserve a little understanding.
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