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I started a new job since the last ime we talked. I work at a place I never once even considered, throughout my life ,being at Mc Donalds. Sitting in the house day in and day out ,wasn't healthy or helpful for the mind. I needed to do something, anything, to have interaction with others, so when my son mentioned that they needed late night people, I bit. He and his brother have worked there for about 4 years now and have been very sucessful within the restaurant, so with thier advice ,that and the wage, didn't hurt either, with my decision to try and enter the job market after 6 years of being 'retired'. I was apprehensive about trying to work, I didn't want to let my kids down if I couldn't do the job and had to quit, although I believe that they would understand.
After being there for the past two weeks, I have had to fight the urge to call it quits, every morning when I wake up and for a number of hours afterwards, my shoulders just bang with pain! You have to understand that I already take morphine to control the everyday hurts, so when it hurts as it does, I realize just how much it must really be to feel like it does through that pain killer! And it is like that everyday, plus one day of my days off. Its as if I have 10 pound weights taped to the backs of my arms, and I'm not allowed to bend my arms up at the elbow. Do that for a couple of hours and then the understanding may be there. It really sucks! But, there are positives. One being the money, of course, and secondly the just getting out! I have also been going to the gym/pool every second day or so, riding the bike, some squats and leg work and then to the pool to soak and swim. I needed to do something physical to try and keep the spare tire from appearing around the waist, lol! I am also back coaching hockey again which has always been a passion of mine, it felt so.....right, when I was bouncing around talking to, or instructing the players, the excitement was alive in me again, look out! Things are definately feeling better lately, I've able to enjoy life again, I have been smiling, laughing and just plain old carrying on!! It's been way to long, way too long. I guess that the hurt and pain of my families breakup, has been blunted somewhat, maybe by time, maybe by acceptance, I'm not too sure. Only that I don't want or need to dwell on something over which I have no control. Its like that poem about letting the butterfly go and if it comes back to you then it was meant to be, and if doesn't then let it go. That's where I am at now in my life, in my state of well being, in my chi.I want to take all the positives out of my days and just have fun with it all! Now, finding someone to have all this fun with is another story. I would love to meet another lady somewhere in my future that likes me for who I am, and would like to join me on my journey, and enjoy our time together, however long or short it may be. It may happen, then again, I've resigned myself to the latter, that I will be by myself, missing that special someone. As my limbs slowly lose the ability to move, I look to each day as a blessing, I enjoy even the mundane, I just wish there was someone to enjoy it with, hmmm, back to this topic again, lol. Nope, not going there, lol!!!
So, now with work, travel, coaching,workin out, oh, and tanning, my days are starting ot fill up, now I feel useful again, even if its for a little while!
Well ,thats it I guess, not to much on my mind, not to much on my plate, just taking everyday as it comes. Take care, until next time
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Posted by boval4466 on 2007-11-08 03:49:18 | Rating: | Views: 168
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Interesting read - thank you hon
take care - hug
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Posted by kentlass
on 2007-11-08 05:31:10
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Great post! I'm so glad that you are making the most of each day.....and hey, there's nothing wrong with asking the Lord to provide that 'special' someone! When one is NOT looking, that's oftentimes, when the opportunity presents itself! Still praying for you and wishing you much happiness and all the best life has to offer!!! :)
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Posted by Alice
on 2007-11-08 14:18:14
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