Today I have the worst of it.  I absolutely want to scream for no reason.  I feel all this tension, anger, and frustration pent up inside me.  I'm pissy and I don't want to do anything.  I don't want to talk to anyone.  I don't want to have to smile, or make decisions, or be in public.  I did have a bible study tonight, but I think I will spare them and stay home.  Even though part of me really wants to go, I don't think it would be a good idea.  It would be the same if I were really sick and the way I feel right now, I think I'd rather be really sick.  Ugh. Make it go away.