I am determined not to give up. Actually, I don't think I have the option of giving up. It just feels so much better to think that it's an issue of "resolve" rather than an issue of "relent".
Tonight I am going to sit down and actually write out a game plan. It will be similar to a war-strategy, or a complicated football maneuver. But whatever the case, it is the game plan for my spirituality, physicality, and utmost happiness in life. I have "resolved" that I'm just too scattered and lazy to leave it all up to my own whim. I need a plan, Stan.
On the forefront will be things like:
1. Knowledge-building and time spent reading and learning on the word of God.
2. Peace of mind set aside for time in prayer.
3. A rigorous strategy for acheiving my physical goals with exercise, healthy foods, and positive outlook.
4. A time-frame sequence for phasing out my nicotine addiction.
5. Hardcore rules and regulations restricting my time spent on the internet and watching movies.
6. A think-tank development for enriching my life with creative tasks and projects.
7. A goal-based scenopsis of the next 6 months.
8. A wish-list of charitable tasks to "pass on" the grace that has been given to me.
9. A reward system for marks achieved.
10. A system of preparation for becoming a better woman in my home, my friendships, my responsibilities, and appearance.
I'm ready, Lord. Let your love pour down.