I mean, these were no ordinary pictures.  There were about 50 or so of her hair shinin in the sun, laying around in wild flowers in a field, up close kissing and bright blue skies.  Now, don't get me wrong... I'm not still in love with this guy.  I hardly even know him anymore.  

I think I cried because she reminds me of me a little.  She's fairly big-boned and somewhat busty and full and her hair is really really curly and awkward like a great mom would have.  Stephen is rail thin and absolutely gorgeously tall and mysterious.  I cried because it was so beautiful.. what they have.  And I guess I'm lamenting over not having it.

God........ I am so tired of lamenting.  Please, remove this thorn from my side.