Fitting I suppose, as always, inebreated we expound.
Upon the single word that strikes terror into our heart, greater than any blade, word or barb-
Eternity.
Have you ever I wonder, sat and thought about that word? Really thought about it? Confounded in trying to understand its implications, its ramifications, its absolute reality?
No, I should think not.
I have.
In my youth, my teenage years, this is what vexed me-
the oceans of time, the meaning, the understanding, the true and utter realization of that word, so small whose implications are so vast-
Eternity.
A thought puzzle I dwelt upon, over many days, weeks, months, trying to understand it, trying to let slip the walls of time, to watch the dams of here and now break, and let burst the true meaning of the word-
Eternity.
Pure. Terror.
I, needed a focus, some reference point to understand this word, to truly make it a core of my being, to understand its meaning, its ramifcations, its final and complete meaning. And, as most of my ephiphanies, came about through,
a movie.
Late night, half asleep, some cop-drama, a blind psychic, hunted by a serial killer, the eyes of which were doorways by which this psychic could see his kills. Explaining to the detective in the movie, the psychic attempted to explain the full meaning of the word-
Eternity.
In this she did, in a simple parable, a simple tale, like so many a bible verse, or myth-
Imagine, she said, Imagine a giant, steel ball, the size of the earth. Now imagine, a tiny, little bird came down, and, for a single hour, every year, this small, tiny bird, chipped away at this steel ball. When there was nothing left, of this giant steel ball, that, would only be, the begining
of Eternity.
Terrifying.
Focusing on this, the sheer magintude, the totality of this - I thought, and thought, and thought, and thought, and thought, and let slip the walls of time, focusing on this,
the begining of Eternity.
Til one day, though I forget the first instance it truly was revealed to me- my memory likes to journey back to sitting on the subway, thinking away, trying to grasp an ocean of unending time-
I saw-
Eternity.
Terror.
Vast, ocean, limitless. Black,
Eternity.
That is what terrifies me.
Eternity.
Endless. Timeless. Blackness.
Death. Death is Eternity.
Even if it be true, whence a place called Heaven and Hell, they will still abide by that most immeasurable, and complete, Terrifying word-
Eternity.
Eternity. Â
Eternity.Â
Pure. Terror.
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