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Certainty

I am more and more certain that: 1. T is not the right one for me. In some ways, he is, he's playful, honest, brave, shy, etc. Interested in things that I am interested in. Our "perfect date" is the same, and he gets along with my parents - a

She II

Her feelings, she hides. Her dreams, she can't find. She's losing her mind. She's fallen behind. She can't find her place. She's losing her faith. She's fallen from grace. She's all over the place.

Reaching my goal somehow

My last post was about doing a 30 day challenge with my sister. Well that didnt go as plan lol I can never just go 30 days without getting lazy and quitting. I need something to keep me going. My goal is to lose about 20 po

people

im sick of this people thinking that u cant move on        

May 20th, 2015

It's wednesday and I'm here again. I don't know which is more accurate. Is he making me this sad or am I doing this to myself? Is it all in my head. What if none of this is even real I don't know what to do or what I'm doing I can't stop thinking and I

Strength & Weakness

She's the girl that believes that what comes around. The one that hopes for a better day. The one that won't give up on you. She's the girl that's unlike the rest. The one

Bike Build Part II

Not much progress but, it looks like it. The brakes are mounted, the seat is on. Soon I'll be able to ride it, the crank arrived, I have to order the crank ring I need. I'm waiting on a bottom bracket & pedals. Still

I feel lost inside myself

I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of yelling. I'm tired of being sad. I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of being angry. I'm tired of feeling crazy. I'm tired of feeling stuc

¡Hola! I am back!!

¡Hola! I have returned..Safe and sound... well at least of body anyhow... if you saw what I did while I was  out of the

what is normal?

This is what i've become. A walking contradiction. I'm surrounded by people and feel alone. I claim to crave a bit of normalcy. But now that I have some. It's like I don't know what to do with it. I don't know how to be a normal person anymore.

what is normal?

This is what i've become! A walking contradiction. I'm surrounded by people and feel alone. I claim to crave a bit of normalcy. But now that I have some. It's like I don't know what to do with it. I don't know how to be a normal person anymore.

From People of the Mist by Kathleen Gear

"... look as I might, I found people to be the same every place I went. Some might be a little meaner than others, some braver, others happier, but as a whole, people everywhere are people. We are indeed the children of

Urban repression....

  President Obama today made a commencement speech at the Coast Guard Academy that hinted at a possible direction a go

as I grow

As I grow I realize, life's not what I always thought it has been. It's not about being the best at everything, it's about striving to be YOUR best, having FUN, and making MEMEMORIES. Call me crazy but that's the truth. Being the best at things is truly

what should I do??

Ok so here is the deal. I have three kids. all by the same guy. we broke up a few years ago and it wasn't pretty. I have the kids cause he decided to chase tail than be a father. I'm with someone else. a good man. he has taken care of us for almost thre

Be still my heart

I saw your picture when I was browsing the website and my heart became uneasy. How come you still allow me to see you? I thought completely hid yourself from me? I'm scared that I may not be able to control myself and try to get in touch

mother vs wife

So just recently I had to deal with this issue between my mother and my wife. My mother is 100% old school raised. She still believes that in a marriage a woman should tend to her husband all day. And when she's not she's in the kitchen or cleaning the

it sets again...

Sometimes honesty isn't the best policy. Be truthful and in the end you're bound to get burnt. A hard pill to swallow, but it's the truth. Everyone lives in an illusion painted by fairy tale stories. All pretends, nothing real. I live in seclusion, afra