another problem that I have not told the people here at thoughts is that I was bulimic for a year. I was 110 pounds but i thought that was fat! I ended up losing around 20 pounds. Now I can't gain... Read More
Posted by: Shannon587 on 2008-06-26 19:40:36
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long time no blog.   i wish i could write about something fantastic that has happened but to be honest, i am so steaming mad that the veins have come up on the back of my hand and i cannot... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2008-04-12 11:52:06
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Well, what can I say? I wish I could say that things have gotten better and i feel a lot more better about things, but no, that doesn't happen to me, does it. Aside from the fact that I've just... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2008-02-25 04:11:37
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EDIT. The past week has just been so low, i didn't even want to leave bed. I'm not eating anything properly, I'm barely even eating. I'm trying so hard to get a job but the only place that I... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2008-02-11 08:07:29
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I don't know why, but I say that  four times, religously on the first day of a new month. No, it isn't time to doubt me yet. Well, my new stepper that I got, that broke too! I mean what... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2008-02-01 04:43:13
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For all my skinny friends trapped in a not so skinny body!! I would like to think that I surround myself with semi-intelligent people (yes, my friends that is a compliment) but as I was... Read More
Posted by: blog_princess on 2008-01-25 13:29:54
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A question i've asked myself many times over the weekend. Last week I made an appointment at a cosmetic surgery for a consultation on a tummy tuck. Yes, as 'drastic' as it may sound, I do want to... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2008-01-14 06:44:24
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Well, I guess I start this out by saying hello. Today is like any other day I guess. Working, then getting ready to go home and sleep. Normally I work out at the gym after... Read More
Posted by: Thin_Inside on 2007-11-13 15:47:46
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So this morning was weird. I got up at 7am to get ready for work, I left at 8am with mum to go pick up the books and office phone and made my way to the bus stop. I noticed a car that Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-21 02:33:07
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Making a decision (most of time) is easy. well depending on what the options are it is. Yesterday I started of the day well, I had a banana and a coffee for breakfast, and kept refill Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-19 01:50:37
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I am seriously obsessed with black coffee recently. Everytime I have a cup, I feel motivated and not even hungry, is caffeine that sexy? I don't want to be hooked on it though. For in Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-17 00:49:33
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I count calories on absolutely everything. Even if I'm not going to eat it, doesn't matter, I still need to know. For example, all the Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-14 01:50:11
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Colin James Hay is amazing, isn't he? I really struggled with trying not to eat yesterday, I felt much more hungry than normal, I didn't have much coffee but I don't think thats it. All I... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-12 02:04:26
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I went to the flea market like I told you (yes, i know i went on sunday and today is thursday, but i had problems logging in!) I got a whole load of stuff, the thing about this market, is that a... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-11 01:24:18
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IS NEUROTIC. My mother, is a crazy person. We'll get back to this though. Yesterday, I finished work at 12:30pm, my lovely boss said I can work from ho Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-07 01:37:21
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Saturday morning, 9:06am to be exact. I'm at work, with a scummy coffee, not scRummy. Yesterday ended well, i think. I left work at 6pm, in a good mood, my boss an Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-06 02:19:05
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This morning, on the way to work, I catched my normal bus, and for once, it was empty, I was the only passenger on that bus until the last time (it's right by my work) and as stupid as it sounds,... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-05 02:20:10
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10:30am appointment at my orthos, I arrive early and wait patiently with my iPod. Then I get called in. What does she do? Decide to basically replace everything. She annoyed me so much, I missed... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-04 01:17:24
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im not liking this on bit but its time to tell sumone before i go under before i fall any lower i no by reading this u will think im not all there in the head but i need to get it out in the... Read More
Posted by: emmawithprombles on 2007-09-29 15:36:42
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ok, i have a problem. im 18 5'9 and weigh about 120. i have been making myself throw up for about a year now. my for 8 months just found out and told me that if i didnt stop he was... Read More
Posted by: lezbolinz on 2007-09-03 11:10:10
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