The Wrong Path I feel lost and I’ve wondered from my path again. I’ve lost my way and I am alone in this darken place unable to feel comfort from the... Read More
Posted by: lonelyscribe on 2008-04-05 17:30:07
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Is it possible to ever run dry of tears? If so then I should have cryed for the last time. Not one day goes by when I am not consumed within tears, my head heavy as are my eyes. In 6... Read More
Posted by: lonelyscribe on 2008-03-23 08:56:21
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I am a mess of eyeliner and contradictions who's thought's and mantras are interupted by prayers and wishes to be thin. I am the girl on the street who people pass with no inkling, no... Read More
Posted by: lonelyscribe on 2008-03-23 08:05:03
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Well, what can I say? I wish I could say that things have gotten better and i feel a lot more better about things, but no, that doesn't happen to me, does it. Aside from the fact that I've just... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2008-02-25 04:11:37
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As the days and weeks drift into each other I find myself sliping further into despair. After a week of total ailianation and over eating I sat today on a bench facing the mountains. The... Read More
Posted by: lonelyscribe on 2008-02-24 15:42:06
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EDIT. The past week has just been so low, i didn't even want to leave bed. I'm not eating anything properly, I'm barely even eating. I'm trying so hard to get a job but the only place that I... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2008-02-11 08:07:29
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I awoke this morning to sunshine filling my room it's such a beautiful day, but as It is not enough to cox me outside. I sit here now in my bedroom, curtains closed to block out the day. I'm... Read More
Posted by: lonelyscribe on 2008-02-10 08:41:38
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I don't know why, but I say that  four times, religously on the first day of a new month. No, it isn't time to doubt me yet. Well, my new stepper that I got, that broke too! I mean what... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2008-02-01 04:43:13
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"It was for freedom that Christ set us free; therefore keep standing firm and do not be subject again to the yoke of slavery"  Galatians 5:1 Christ set us free. Freedom. ... Read More
Posted by: rihanna216 on 2008-01-27 22:30:24
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Obesity. Many people in the United States are very obese now. The way we are helping them? Putting McDonalds on every corner. HAH! If you fed a third world country with McDonald’s, they... Read More
Posted by: reagan_leigh on 2008-01-25 16:54:47
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So, I tried really hard to be healthy again. I did. But I cant take it. I gained a whopping 15 pounds in the past 3 months. Went up a pants size. Well yesterday while I was at the store there... Read More
Posted by: Thin_Inside on 2008-01-15 14:02:27
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A question i've asked myself many times over the weekend. Last week I made an appointment at a cosmetic surgery for a consultation on a tummy tuck. Yes, as 'drastic' as it may sound, I do want to... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2008-01-14 06:44:24
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A lot of my saga is completely blocked from my memory although it is all documented, if ever I had the time and energy to read it. So far I never wanted to go back there. But one memory stands out... Read More
Posted by: bessy on 2007-12-26 17:52:54
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Alone.  I’m going to try to write a painful story from the beginning in the hopes of helping someone out there by my mistakes. This is about eating disorders, one thing I know for sure,... Read More
Posted by: bessy on 2007-12-10 22:06:42
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Second blog :) I am starting to get used to this idea...  Even though as yet I'm not getting many views it helps writing them because I get stuff off my chest that I'm sick of... Read More
Posted by: CelrisLeto on 2007-12-01 01:49:25
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....as a bona fide XXXXX! Earlier, I commented on a blog from someone whom I assume was a young girl and I was mean and I was cruel. Now, I'm ashamed of myself, because if anyone should know what... Read More
Posted by: smilinirisheyes on 2007-11-24 04:51:20
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So this morning was weird. I got up at 7am to get ready for work, I left at 8am with mum to go pick up the books and office phone and made my way to the bus stop. I noticed a car that Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-21 02:33:07
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Making a decision (most of time) is easy. well depending on what the options are it is. Yesterday I started of the day well, I had a banana and a coffee for breakfast, and kept refill Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-19 01:50:37
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I am seriously obsessed with black coffee recently. Everytime I have a cup, I feel motivated and not even hungry, is caffeine that sexy? I don't want to be hooked on it though. For in Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-17 00:49:33
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10/13/07 9:25 P.M. I read the last couple entries of my diary. I wanted a cigarette. I took one of grandma's. I didn't want to ruin two days of being clean. But I made an excuse,... Read More
Posted by: BriannaPerfection on 2007-10-15 00:47:43
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I count calories on absolutely everything. Even if I'm not going to eat it, doesn't matter, I still need to know. For example, all the Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-14 01:50:11
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Colin James Hay is amazing, isn't he? I really struggled with trying not to eat yesterday, I felt much more hungry than normal, I didn't have much coffee but I don't think thats it. All I... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-12 02:04:26
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I went to the flea market like I told you (yes, i know i went on sunday and today is thursday, but i had problems logging in!) I got a whole load of stuff, the thing about this market, is that a... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-11 01:24:18
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IS NEUROTIC. My mother, is a crazy person. We'll get back to this though. Yesterday, I finished work at 12:30pm, my lovely boss said I can work from ho Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-07 01:37:21
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Saturday morning, 9:06am to be exact. I'm at work, with a scummy coffee, not scRummy. Yesterday ended well, i think. I left work at 6pm, in a good mood, my boss an Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2007-10-06 02:19:05
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