Recent Blogs Great Balls of Fire Why? Cos it sounded good at the time... Writing for no apparent reason today.  It is Friday, which means I have two days off work.  I'm driving up north after... ...Read More  Posted by: foreva_and_a... on 2008-10-09 19:28:38  | Rating:   | Views: 4 | Comments: 0 | Tags:  bipolar  SHOPPING  Isolation The walls press in like weights The silence hangs like the dead sea I'm the one who lately hates The stillness that surrounds me Other bodies fill my home Noise and... ...Read More  Posted by: Tony51203 on 2008-10-06 19:04:29  | Rating:   | Views: 41 | Comments: 5 | Tags:  Isolation  Bipolar  loneliness  Good god how silly can I be Ok, so I know my moods are haywire and that change is afoot...so what do I do...I get rottenly drunk.  Idiot.  It didn't make things any better but thankfully it also... ...Read More  Posted by: foreva_and_a... on 2008-10-05 15:23:12  | Rating:   | Views: 13 | Comments: 1 | Tags:  bipolar  work  stress  Bad Life I have been letting people stress me out about all sorts of things.  When I get stressed out I start hearing voices in my head and I am so sick of it.  I have a... ...Read More  Posted by: Faith on 2008-10-02 12:00:10  | Rating:   | Views: 18 | Comments: 1 | Tags:  depression  bipolar  voices  mercury Explicit Content Mercury - one of the most volatile elements.  and a perfect description of how I feeling right now.  One minute I'm absolutely fine the next minute I am raging angry... ...Read More  Posted by: foreva_and_a... on 2008-10-01 03:41:09  | Rating:   | Views: 9 | Comments: 1 | Tags:  bipolar  ... I feel like someone has a crank handle and is winding me up tighter and tighter until eventually I'm going to snap. Today we have the 1st physical sign of what's to come -... ...Read More  Posted by: foreva_and_a... on 2008-09-30 15:24:59  | Rating:   | Views: 16 | Comments: 3 | Tags:  bipolar  moods  Ok, NOW I'm pissed off... Explicit Content I am expected to walk around the campus in the pissing rain putting up posters.  Well Mr Marketing Coordinator can GET XXXXX.  I've got enough to do without having to... ...Read More  Posted by: foreva_and_a... on 2008-09-29 15:19:44  | Rating:   | Views: 24 | Comments: 2 | Tags:  bipolar  anger  Post Weekend Babble It's Monday again.  Clocks went forward an hour for daylight savings.  So my bodyclock is all out of sync. But, I moved into my lil one bedroom place.  My... ...Read More  Posted by: foreva_and_a... on 2008-09-28 15:13:32  | Rating:   | Views: 11 | Comments: 1 | Tags:  bipolar  weekend  What a tangled web I've woven I saw the doc again last night. While I had to admit to my total outright failure in trying it without taking any lexapro I told him I've been fairly stable. My wife disagrees... ...Read More  Posted by: Tony51203 on 2008-09-26 19:41:53  | Rating:   | Views: 60 | Comments: 7 | Tags:  Bipolar  medications  lies by omission  thursday sept. 25th, 2008 Explicit Content THURSDAY : Well today was intresting. Went to school and laughed pretty much the whole time because of Kevin (He's my ex-bf whos an athestis im trying to... ...Read More  Posted by: unratedamber on 2008-09-25 19:13:38  | Rating:   | Views: 21 | Comments: 1 | Tags:  stupid  grandma  bipolar  jason is a dumbass  Today is crap Woke up late,got dressed, rushed out the door, got in the car, got half way to work and realised I had forgotten to take my meds. But it's ok cos I already feel funny, so... ...Read More  Posted by: foreva_and_a... on 2008-09-25 16:15:45  | Rating:   | Views: 10 | Comments: 1 | Tags:  bipolar  weird  Reality Bites. I'm an idiot.  I almost had myself convinced there was nothing wrong with me.  I KNOW there is, so I don't know why I even try to convince myself otherwise.  I am... ...Read More  Posted by: foreva_and_a... on 2008-09-24 16:58:49  | Rating:   | Views: 12 | Comments: 1 | Tags:  bipolar  idiot  Psychiatrists are stupid Explicit Content Just as I start thinking that maybe I finally have a doctor that is smarter than me and can actually tell when I'm not ok, he proves me wrong. I had a psych appointment... ...Read More  Posted by: foreva_and_a... on 2008-09-23 18:57:57  | Rating:   | Views: 26 | Comments: 2 | Tags:  bipolar  mood  work  New Explicit Content I got a new ipod.  It's blue.  And shiney.  Jst an 8GB nano, but that's all I need.  And the Gen 4 ones are REALLY cool!!! Marketing Manager is still a... ...Read More  Posted by: foreva_and_a... on 2008-09-21 23:48:31  | Rating:   | Views: 13 | Comments: 0 | Tags:  bipolar  work  ipod  The Insanity of Insanity Bipolar is not meant to be a death sentence.  There are times, though, when I wish it were.  Times like today when I long for nothing more than to stop taking the... ...Read More  Posted by: REMcCorry on 2008-09-21 17:59:29  | Rating:   | Views: 27 | Comments: 1 | Tags:  Bipolar  Uh Oh- I made a balls up Explicit Content Well, it's 8am on Monday morning and I have already been bolloxed for a mistake I made on Friday.  I sent the wrong advert proof through to the newspaper we had an advert... ...Read More  Posted by: foreva_and_a... on 2008-09-21 16:02:33  | Rating:   | Views: 14 | Comments: 1 | Tags:  bipolar  manic  work  thursday. Explicit Content THURSDAY : This morning chelsey crawled in b ed with me and brandi was yelling at nicole real loud and I told chels to look at the clock and she told me it was... ...Read More