Well, I wrote the first post a few months ago when I was decided I was going to start a journal. You see how far I got with that. Hopefully I will be better at blogging. I am since shopping around... Read More
Posted by: CharmedinNC on 2008-05-13 10:39:44
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Finally An Answer Bipolar, The disease that jumps up and bites you in the ass. I will attempt to explain this Bi-Polar thing I have as best I can. I am new at it myself. But my hope is... Read More
Posted by: CharmedinNC on 2008-05-13 10:36:30
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The funny thing about me is this: Sometimes I know I need help, and there's no way I can do this on my own. Then there's times like now: When I actually feel really happy, really hopeful,... Read More
Posted by: Dianerrs on 2008-05-10 00:47:04
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        This blog is dedicated to my trying at this point in my life to survive the ins' and outs' of living in this increasingly insane world... Read More
Posted by: Delaney55 on 2008-05-10 00:08:04
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I woke up this morning and my pillow was wet with tears.  I had been crying in my sleep again and I don't know why. I drove to work in a daze, snapping at anyone that so much as said a... Read More
Posted by: foreva_and_a_day on 2008-05-07 19:40:47
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I wrote this poem when I was 14 or 15.  I didn't know that I was bipolar at that time but looking back and reading this, I think that even then it was fairly clear. Insomnia I... Read More
Posted by: cholwuttle on 2008-05-06 00:00:41
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I am Bipolar type 2.  I know that the people around sometimes have a hard time dealing with me.  I wish they could walk a day in my shoes.  No matter how hard it is for any one... Read More
Posted by: cholwuttle on 2008-05-04 20:45:59
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Well it's been 10 days now I've been taking risperdal for manic depression. At 1st I turned the corner so quickly I thought it couldn't be the drug. I don't eat anything that's good for me so... Read More
Posted by: Tony51203 on 2008-05-04 18:01:57
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This is continued from my blog below...continued from Sat. night to Sunday morning... I went home for the night and tried to go to sleep...I remember waking up around 2-3 a.m. and I picked... Read More
Posted by: Icareforyou on 2008-05-03 09:10:39
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We had to go see the neurosurgeon yesterday and my daughter is in so much pain as she can hardly sit or stand and the pain is going down the legs and getting really bad...now the ironic thing is it... Read More
Posted by: Icareforyou on 2008-05-03 06:42:24
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Sometimes I am doing okay. Other times I could be better. My lows are very bad, and I get worried about myself. Somehow they pass, and I breathe more easily. I try to distract myself with things I... Read More
Posted by: TimStones on 2008-04-29 08:19:44
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The despair in my mind is so strong it is a physical ache.  I cried myself to sleep last night.  I felt so alone, there was noone there, everyone was busy and all I wanted was to be near... Read More
Posted by: foreva_and_a_day on 2008-04-23 17:33:19
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I feel so despondant.  I went to my psychiatrist yesterday.  he increased my medication again and broke the new, once again, that there is the possiblity I will never find a medication... Read More
Posted by: foreva_and_a_day on 2008-04-22 17:02:08
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I feel like such an utter waste of space.  I'm second guessing myself on everything.  I keep forgetting what I am doing.  Everything seems to be moving in slow motion around me.... Read More
Posted by: foreva_and_a_day on 2008-04-20 17:55:04
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...since I wrote on my blog.  I guess I have been far too busy for it...and I was actually feeling pretty normal for a while there.  But things change. I'm slowly heading back down a... Read More
Posted by: foreva_and_a_day on 2008-04-17 21:12:13
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My mood lifted a bit today. I wouldn't exactly say I am happy, just serenely calm. It feels better than it's been the past few weeks, in any event. I have been keeping a timeline of my sleeping... Read More
Posted by: TimStones on 2008-04-08 10:39:04
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i feel awful depression/bipolar/ocd i am frustrated, not just i FEEL frustrated but i AM frustrated. it may as well be my name right now i might actually be mad i want to do what i... Read More
Posted by: badgoodgirl on 2008-04-08 00:10:03
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Morning!!! Only 12 working days left at this craphole of a job.  I start my new job up at the university on 31 March and I can't bloody wait!!! They have already said that they will let... Read More
Posted by: foreva_and_a_day on 2008-03-10 14:56:35
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Oops, I have been neglecting my blog a wee bit of late.  Simply haven't had the time to get on the computer and write anything.  Have been keeping myself very busy cos I have a major... Read More
Posted by: foreva_and_a_day on 2008-03-06 15:41:35
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When your employer is seriously considering (to the point of just wiating to make sure it is within company policy) putting you on paid special leave, you know you are not good... Read More
Posted by: foreva_and_a_day on 2008-02-20 21:32:36
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Do you ever feel like the thoughts and words stuck inside you are suffocating you?  Like if you don't get it out of you, you will explode at the wrong time in the wrong place?  Do you... Read More
Posted by: foreva_and_a_day on 2008-02-20 17:33:39
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XXXXX useless bastards.  what the XXXXX is the point in letting loose and trying to talk if when you finally start to feel comfortable with someone they ship you off somewhere else. Talk... Read More
Posted by: foreva_and_a_day on 2008-02-19 22:01:04
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I finished moving house last night.  So shattered today  though.  Have pulled muscles in places I didn't know I had muscles.  But, I'm in my new place and my room is all set up,... Read More
Posted by: foreva_and_a_day on 2008-02-19 14:28:46
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I had a car accident on my way into my pychiatrists office last wednesday.  My mom and my baby were in the car.& Read More
Posted by: cholwuttle on 2008-02-18 20:24:17
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It is just too hard.  I don't think I can cope with much more.  I'm right on the edge of something that I don't even want to contemplate. I find myself thinking that maybe if I do... Read More
Posted by: foreva_and_a_day on 2008-02-18 16:18:04
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