Recent Blogs It May Not Be Pretty... Hello My weight has been a constant obsession and battle for years.  I've lost and regained more weight than I'd care to count - lowest weight 120lbs, heighest... ...Read More  Posted by: SmokyYork on 2008-09-22 22:11:32  | Rating:   | Views: 21 | Comments: 1 | Tags:  weight loss  obsession  binge  plan  ...made it through another day... It's been three days since I've binged. It feels good. But also the reason why I haven't is because I put myself on a diet of 1500 calories a day. Ugh. It's been hell and... ...Read More  Posted by: dYin4nEwLiFe on 2008-09-17 23:28:19  | Rating:   | Views: 25 | Comments: 0 | Tags:  ana  anorexia  mia  binge  eating  Ilicit pleasure So, I am just experiencing the illicit pleasure that comes from having something really, really bad for you. The trouble is, that I just cant enjoy things without guilt,... ...Read More  Posted by: JesusFran on 2008-09-16 12:18:34  | Rating:   | Views: 26 | Comments: 0 | Tags:  fat  binge  God  Prayer  my pretty mouth will frame the phrases that will d so today's been a..boring day. AGAIN! My mom took of to the church, because she plays on the..well, I don't know the english word, but in danish she's an organist. Does that... ...Read More  Posted by: thinone on 2008-09-09 18:33:03  | Rating:   | Views: 74 | Comments: 1 | Tags:  ana  pro ana  pro mia  binge  thinspo  nasty, nasty Well, I am a horrid person. All I do is eat. I am so fat and lazy. This week I think that I have had chocolate every day. And at least one bag of Chrisps. I cant seem to... ...Read More  Posted by: JesusFran on 2008-07-10 08:35:28  | Rating:   | Views: 48 | Comments: 0 | Tags:  fat  binge  chocolate  AAAAH I am stuck in a trap. I have had a really rubbish 2 weeks. I am binge eating and being really compulsive. Each time I keep trying to stop the cycle I fail- and now I am feeling... ...Read More  Posted by: JesusFran on 2008-07-02 08:14:57  | Rating:   | Views: 38 | Comments: 0 | Tags:  food  trap  binge  Yaweh is God I was feeling really cerfuffled this weekend, got myself so tired that I fainted in the garden and then got really ratty with Mike. I then proceeded to eat a whole tub of... ...Read More  Posted by: JesusFran on 2008-06-02 03:37:26  | Rating:   | Views: 57 | Comments: 1 | Tags:  YAWEH  BINGE  Feeling down It is really sunny here in Newcastle. I spent lunchtime in the park with Davina (a uni friend) which was the nicest way to spend an hour I think. So-I started well didn't... ...Read More  Posted by: JesusFran on 2008-05-08 12:01:33  | Rating:   | Views: 91 | Comments: 1 | Tags:  moody  marriage  binge  my greek goddess. EDITED. Yesterday, I started therapy, with a lady called Torba. It was quite a long session, and I seriously cannot believe how much I spoke. I'll edit soon. EDIT. I really... ...Read More  Posted by: poppyxstars on 2008-04-17 10:29:31  | Rating:   | Views: 173 | Comments: 0 | Tags:  therapy  counselling  help  alltags  blog  if you get in my way, i'm taking you with me. EDIT long time no blog.   i wish i could write about something fantastic that has happened but to be honest, i am so steaming mad that the veins have come up on the back of... ...Read More  Posted by: poppyxstars on 2008-04-12 11:52:06  | Rating:   | Views: 242 | Comments: 0 | Tags:  all tags  alltags  media  scrubs  food  the cat always hocks up a furball in MY room. EDIT. The past week has just been so low, i didn't even want to leave bed. I'm not eating anything properly, I'm barely even eating. I'm trying so hard to get a job but the... ...Read More  Posted by: poppyxstars on 2008-02-11 08:07:29  | Rating:   | Views: 181 | Comments: 0 | Tags:  binge  purge  anorexia  anorexic  bulimia  I cant handle myself either So, I am really trying to get this OCD under some kind of control. My husband had a complete melt down the other night. And it is all my fault. I never noticed how much... ...Read More  Posted by: Thin_Inside on 2008-02-06 11:24:45  | Rating:   | Views: 313 | Comments: 4 | Tags:  OCD  Depression  Anxiety  Eating Disorder  Ana  white rabbit x 4. plus lipobind. I don't know why, but I say that  four times, religously on the first day of a new month. No, it isn't time to doubt me yet. Well, my new stepper that I got, that... ...Read More  Posted by: poppyxstars on 2008-02-01 04:43:13  | Rating:   | Views: 1120 | Comments: 0 | Tags:  birthday  mother  cake