Well, I will start by introducing myself .. My name is Claudia, 17 years old and I live in the Netherlands. Since I was about 13 years old I became eating disordered. I had a period I... Read More
Posted by: Bloemetje on 2008-04-28 14:39:37
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food consumption for the past week: monday: apple tuesday: grilled (fat free) cheese and veggies wednesday: apple thursday: nothing tomorrow: ?? who knows cw: 95.5lbs gw:... Read More
Posted by: theimagined666 on 2008-02-28 10:42:40
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So, I am really trying to get this OCD under some kind of control. My husband had a complete melt down the other night. And it is all my fault. I never noticed how much stress my issues place... Read More
Posted by: Thin_Inside on 2008-02-06 11:24:45
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Navegando na internet e entre alguns sites vi que muitas igrejas estão declarando ano da colheita, como eu em toda minha vida de crente nunca ouvi essa coisa cabalistica... Read More
Posted by: ladobgospel on 2008-01-20 06:25:57
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Wow...first ever blog...this is odd.I find myself not knowing what to write. I have a lot of things that I want to say but can't think why anyone would be interested in reading them.... Read More
Posted by: CelrisLeto on 2007-11-27 16:26:10
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You know you love yourself more than anyone in the world. Face it, its all we think about. Ourselves. If you cant admit that its a shame, and you are fooling yourself. I wish I could lavish... Read More
Posted by: Thin_Inside on 2007-11-26 17:05:36
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So I just have to say I really hate Thanksgiving. The premise is good, giving thanks to god for what he has blessed us with through the year. But then what do we do? We over eat, stuff our... Read More
Posted by: Thin_Inside on 2007-11-25 19:56:39
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So, I guess I come off sounding like I havent seeked help for this stuff before. But truth is I have been to doctor after doctor for years. Same with phychologists. You can only do... Read More
Posted by: Thin_Inside on 2007-11-15 15:30:50
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So, I can see that people really hated my first blog. But its doesnt matter. Because its who I am and I cant change that. So fine. Right now I am so tired. More mental than... Read More
Posted by: Thin_Inside on 2007-11-15 11:42:14
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Well, I guess I start this out by saying hello. Today is like any other day I guess. Working, then getting ready to go home and sleep. Normally I work out at the gym after... Read More
Posted by: Thin_Inside on 2007-11-13 15:47:46
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Forever is a long time, a life time in fact.All those months, weeks, days, hours, so long, so drawn, and always the threat of more, never ending.  Somebody help me please, I don't want... Read More
Posted by: chica on 2007-10-18 18:04:16
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I don't want you, I don't like you, I don't need you because I am strong, and I will not be fat, but why is it that you are always there? On the plate in front of  me, outside the... Read More
Posted by: chica on 2007-10-11 16:34:36
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To stop that is. When you are jumping 4 feet into the air on a trampoline, or running a few KM on a treadmill, the question is how to stop, not when. How do I stop when it never feels like... Read More
Posted by: chica on 2007-10-07 13:54:59
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I read today a blog on Suicide. It prompted me to write here, as it explored both sides of the story fairly evenly. Some people think of suicide as being selfish and/or cowardly and/or pathetic.... Read More
Posted by: chica on 2007-10-05 12:05:08
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I am in so many ways a coward, I will do anything to avoid conflict and ocnfrontation, I detest it, and find it uncomfortable, emotional and unsettling, but what I hate most is the barrage of... Read More
Posted by: chica on 2007-10-03 07:37:46
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Fat. Fat is everywhere, and everything Fat is waiting around every corner to lure you down the alley way of temptation Fat is what you see when you walk down the street and past the... Read More
Posted by: chica on 2007-10-02 14:39:56
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100 bottles hanging on the wall Count to 100... 100% 100-the sum of the first 9 prime numbers 100 Club 100, a nice, easy round number, 100 a number that sticks with me. 100, a base... Read More
Posted by: chica on 2007-10-01 12:02:46
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so the last few days ive been abit of a rebel, i left the house with the gas turned on and nearly killed everyone in myhouse, thats how careless i am at the moment. my eating is still XXXXX and... Read More
Posted by: krystal_child on 2007-10-01 00:10:59
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"Nothing tastes as good as thin feels." It sucks but she's right. I look into my fridge and I see fresh ham, my Sicilian aunt's homemade pesto, and choclate brownie. Reaching into... Read More
Posted by: chica on 2007-09-30 19:13:49
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another day, mostly likely another pound gained, again i feel so sick atm, i feel like i need to wee but i cant, bleh. My boyfriend is messing me about, its not really his fault but it gets int... Read More
Posted by: krystal_child on 2007-09-07 14:47:59
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So im sitting in my room, wondering why on earth am i so fat?? i know i could be much much worse but i could also be much much better too. im about 144 lbs ish, and i would like to be 120, thats 24... Read More
Posted by: krystal_child on 2007-09-06 13:54:21
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