So I've done it again. And it's going to continue. I know it and it knows me. It knows my limits, and how to protect me from overdoing it. I tell it everything and it listens. It says to me... Read More
Posted by: jasnicolelifestyle on 2008-07-15 04:27:29
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so today i ate a whole serving of cottage cheese and then some broccoli. then i added a large root beer from mcdonalds... it was my weakness for the day. however i am hoping i can balance the... Read More
Posted by: dodgegrrl_17 on 2008-07-14 21:21:27
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Which one is it? Have I failed or succeeded today? I don't even know myself, Ana's voice is strong and pleased, my rational voice is sad and in pain...........so what happened.............here is... Read More
Posted by: MayaMae on 2008-07-12 17:17:20
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Am I? I have struggled with my eating disorder for so very long now, it is hard to imagine life without Ana. Despite all my efforts, all my therapy sessions Ana still rules. She invades my... Read More
Posted by: MayaMae on 2008-07-10 13:05:56
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http://mamavision.com/2008/02/24/shelly-speaks/   this is the website as promised, it has lots of info about shelly's recovery and hows shes getting on.. xGx Read More
Posted by: AlphabetPonylvmka on 2008-06-21 08:39:53
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Disease. What comes to mind when this word comes up in a conversation? It is usually sad, horrible, not welcoming opinions. I'm welcoming a disease. I'm actually very happy about it.... Read More
Posted by: darthvader on 2008-06-20 23:46:24
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It's back again...oooh well I  have eaten 8 slices of bread in the last 3 days...and today I'm all bloated...this is a frustrating cycle and drives me mad... Also, if any of you... Read More
Posted by: AlphabetPonylvmka on 2008-06-20 09:38:05
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so yeah.... today we picked peas at the farm..... that is my fave to pick!! then me and 3 friends were talking about going to get pizza so we did we got the buffet at pizza hut and i ate a lot of... Read More
Posted by: miamia on 2008-06-19 13:43:35
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I had a good morning this morning. I had a meeting about my research, and also I had a really good psychologist appointment. I have been talking to sarah about how I have been in the last few... Read More
Posted by: JesusFran on 2008-06-19 08:17:21
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Lifes become worse so much worse and my reason for not writing on here for so long is because I have gotten to that point that not only have I pushed evryone away and cannot talk to a soul... Read More
Posted by: lonelyscribe on 2008-06-19 06:24:35
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im so angry!!! i cant stop thinking of food! music only helped for a little while! time is goin by so slow! and im trying to upload a picture but its not working!! its times like this... Read More
Posted by: disappearing on 2008-06-13 14:53:00
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I just really hate myself right now... I feel fat fat fat.. I just don't know what to do. My parents have tried to talk to me for sooo long, but nothing worked, so now they just gave up... Read More
Posted by: Bloemetje on 2008-05-21 11:44:49
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Heeeey, It's been a while.. but I'm doing great :D I lost 3 pounds since last time.. so now I'm 105 :) Not too bad ^^ Well I just wanted to show you my English site.. I've been working... Read More
Posted by: Bloemetje on 2008-05-09 11:04:03
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maybe i was born XXXXX up. something's got to be wrong with me. they said i used to be so great. i used to love my dad. i used to love my mom. i used to love everyone. even thou Read More
Posted by: pullthetrigger on 2008-04-13 15:21:33
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In Complete darkness, I live in the shadow of a life, I hide from the world, for fear of it's judgment and condemnation. My sadnness strikes a chord of grief within, I am trapped... Read More
Posted by: lonelyscribe on 2008-04-10 15:34:18
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The Wrong Path I feel lost and I’ve wondered from my path again. I’ve lost my way and I am alone in this darken place unable to feel comfort from the... Read More
Posted by: lonelyscribe on 2008-04-05 17:30:07
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Dear all.. I think this is a fantastic site you've got going on and couldn't wait to join. I had an account a while ago but it got old and I didn't bother with it, but this is my new start... Read More
Posted by: AlphabetPonylvmka on 2008-03-31 17:00:00
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Is it possible to ever run dry of tears? If so then I should have cryed for the last time. Not one day goes by when I am not consumed within tears, my head heavy as are my eyes. In 6... Read More
Posted by: lonelyscribe on 2008-03-23 08:56:21
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I am a mess of eyeliner and contradictions who's thought's and mantras are interupted by prayers and wishes to be thin. I am the girl on the street who people pass with no inkling, no... Read More
Posted by: lonelyscribe on 2008-03-23 08:05:03
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My hatred blooms like a pale rose, as I reap the sorrow life sows. If mirror reflections lie to me, what is it then that I can't see? I feel here presence, she's at my side, she... Read More
Posted by: lonelyscribe on 2008-03-22 18:59:48
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The guilt over asking Michael to prom and then staying with Stanley is killing me.  I have to say something to Stanley.  I don't know how to do it, but it has to be done.  First I... Read More
Posted by: meghansr2008 on 2008-02-27 22:06:57
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Well, what can I say? I wish I could say that things have gotten better and i feel a lot more better about things, but no, that doesn't happen to me, does it. Aside from the fact that I've just... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2008-02-25 04:11:37
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As the days and weeks drift into each other I find myself sliping further into despair. After a week of total ailianation and over eating I sat today on a bench facing the mountains. The... Read More
Posted by: lonelyscribe on 2008-02-24 15:42:06
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EDIT. The past week has just been so low, i didn't even want to leave bed. I'm not eating anything properly, I'm barely even eating. I'm trying so hard to get a job but the only place that I... Read More
Posted by: poppyxstars on 2008-02-11 08:07:29
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I've been sitting here for a while wondering if I really can put my feelings in to words, was it really that simple, and who would listen? For someone like myself that is always... Read More
Posted by: lonelyscribe on 2008-02-09 10:12:07
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