it's hard not to think so anyway, when you take a quick listen to the radio or check out one of the so called "Music" television stations. i listened to the radio for about an hour yesterday as i was stuck in traffic, and in addition to about 20-30 minutes of commercials i hear approximately 10 tracks. of those, two of them were songs i love; Ice Cube - Today was a good day and Blackstreet/Dr. Dre - No diggity. even though i do love both of those tracks i've also heard both of them plenty of times as they are from many years ago. the other eight tracks i heard were pure garbage. at first it was laughable. i could listen to any given top single right now and crack up about how overproduced and trite it is. as i listened on though, the apparent humor had worn off and it was starting to really bother me.

every track was about sex. it makes me so sad the way that sex is objectified over and over in "music" now. i see a steady decline happening here. i see a VERY SHARP decline in the way women in our society veiw themselves. booty booty this and i wanna see you twirk that thang girl. we are beaten over the head so much with this non-sense that it starts to seep into reality. when did it become completely acceptable to objectify all women? why are the parents in this country not outraged at what their children are listening to? too afraid to fight the almighty "free speech"?  

i wanna know when this country completely gave up on legitamite platonic relationships.  i wanna know why "friends with bennefits" is acceptable. i want to kill the motherfucker that convinced my niece at 12 that she needed to have a figure. younger and younger it seems these children are as they are exposed to sex. and it's not just the exposure, but the message that worries me. have look at MTV right now. i bet you can't watch for 5 minutes without seeing some young girl, pretending to be less intelligent than she really is. showing as much skin as possible. doing whatever is "sexy" to impress some mindless guy. is it really just all about physical appeal, and feeling like you have the advantage with someone? do you really want someone who doesn't challenge you in any way? is that the preferred partner nowadays? because you can toss her to the side with little or no guilt? wonderful. just peachy. women are objects and guys are braindead.

i'm sorry, but i see an entire society intentionally dissacoiating itself with honor and values.  i see a country full of people who are completely looking past emotional involvement. are we afriad of each other or are we really so far gone that the only thing that matters is "getting some"? is this why the divorce rate is higher than it's ever been? because people choose to marry for children or money or lust...and not to be together. 

these are the reasons i have trouble meeting new people. because hell, in general, i don't even like most people to tell you the truth. noone thinks for themself anymore! but you know, a young good looking guy like myself would have no trouble picking someone up at a bar and having some meaningless sex. i could never do that, though. i can't have sex with someone who i have no connection to. if i'm ever even gonna get close to sex it'll be long after i'm very comfortable with a person. the reason why is because i can't make a physical connection without getting attatched emotionally. hell, it happens before ANYTHING physical even happens. 

i can't really think of a way to conclude this entry. i could definately babble on some more but i'm not quite sure that would be productive. and i need to get ready for work anyway.  but someone, anyone out there....tell me i'm not alone on this one. because it is extremely disheartening feeling like you're the only one who still believes what you do.