so here i am floating my thoughts away for the world to view again.

i've gone back and forth so much about whether or not it was something a sane person would do. i feel so much more collected and focused when i can just sit and type away. i have always had trouble communicating in other ways. honestly i have trouble looking most people in the eye when i talk to them. it's not because i'm unsure of myself. i don't really know why to tell you the truth.i'm always the quiet one in the group. if you couldn't see me, you'd have never known i'd existed. most people think i'm weird. i probably am. i have a really faint idea of what people think of me to tell you the truth. i'm sure more than anything else i just confuse them. sometimes i like it that way and sometimes i don't. i like for people to think i have my head on straight and a clear perspective on what's going on around me. i can pretty easily find the suitable words for the occasion but i'm so often miles away. i daydream constantly. it's something i only recently came to terms with but i drift off into imaginary scenereos all the time. i take bits and pieces of my surroundings and imagine myself dealing with real life situations. often i'm confronting something that really bothers me. or swooning some girl i'd imagined a thousand dates with already. you would think being overwhelmed with creativity would be a good thing but it's not. maybe it's not even creativity, it's just a bunch of recycled junk floating around in my brain torturing and taunting me.

in any event, i'm going to attempt to capture some of my brain with text...or something.

feel free to add your two cents

i hope you enjoy.