i feel realy stupid, i called him at work and i was screaming at him couse i am not happy,,,why should i care if he knows that im unhappy, well i guess i do,   he is at home  and my back is to him and im doing my thing, i feel soo dumb,,i need him, i dont need him,  i need him, shit  what the heck,,  my boys are watching a movie, the house feels peaceful, my soul is in such turmoil, i will fall on my knees and say thank you for all that i do have, i have no rite to complain,,,i have a home, food to eat, my momvan is paid for,,,,,yah,,   my boys are healthy, my kittycat is my purbucket, thats what i call her, she purs sooo loud when shes with me,,, well   brain overload,,, maybe a cold beer??peace