i feel stupid, she is my ma after all but she half assed listened to me when i realy needed her, and i dont need my ma very often, only when someone dies or somthing, its natural to want your mom to comfort you, told her i would get back to her, i told her how she was  when i called and shes like oh honey you are imaging it, no i wasnt she was talking to my brother, her huband, and the computer guy, and me a fool crying on the other end... no pity party, concentrate on my family my boys and ball and chain.....