i was listening to the wonderful music on the podcast site,  boy you guys have great taste in music, i can just click and see what you listen to, and I LIKE IT, havent heard a few of those... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-01 12:04:09
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it was nice to see the churchpacked with all of his loved ones  got to see alot of cousins i havent seen in years,  my ant looked pretty dam good for just loosing her husband of 45... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-01 18:48:34
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and all i could do was  well nothing, just listen to the heart peirceing crys  each one going rite to your heart, wipeing  eachothers tears  looking for tissues,handing them... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-01 19:08:49
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ok  he needs one its consumeing MY  day, he should beable to geterdone, first license  need to go to the post office to be a witness and vouch for him that HE IS who he says he is,... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-02 10:56:22
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ok on a better note,got that out of my systym, got the boys and me some cool goggles so we can PLAY in the pool tonite, its so fun we hang out under water and blow bubbles and stuff, that will be... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-02 10:59:50
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man a triple header, the weather was good,my sons team won the first two games, so they played a third, that was it  what a blast, the other parents are nice  i open up to a few of... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-05 09:51:16
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my brother was almost killed on saturday at work, the Lord didnt take him, and i am very glad he was aslleep for two days  he finaly woke up,,peace Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-05 12:07:47
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a tree branch fell on my brother stephens head it was about 75 pounds, no brain damage thank the Lord, he doesent remember what happened, thats good..20 stitches in his head, broken vertabrae in... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-05 12:18:54
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you all for all the nice comments about my bros accident, he is out of icu  and in his own room,  i want to say thankyou to everyone that send good vibes his and my way, thanks again,... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-06 12:00:09
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went to the market thismorning, it seemed like i was just going through the motions, if that makes sense? well anyway,i am so sad about my brother, cried yesterday, my eyeballs are swolen  oh... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-06 12:06:33
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as tite as you can today squeeze them and tell them how much you love the, be thankful and greatful  for what you have, dont sit around feeling sorry for yourself,  if you have your... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-06 12:30:17
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the school has it every year,since mothers day is sunday, all the moms with thier children,how wonderful, i lost the boys in the crowd, but they got to mingle with their friends and such, i drank... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-07 10:55:12
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trying to get back to normal, whatever that is , when you almost loose someone  wow  your priorities change, whats realy important??? either you get it or you dont, and boy i tell YOU i... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-07 11:24:04
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man my other brother is handling it in his own way, he was yelling at me on the phone couse i didnt have it rite or somthing some imformation from the doc or somthing, he ripped into me, i let... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-07 11:36:45
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gonna go get my mom something sweet for that spaecial day,  havent got a clue, dont go shopping much  other than for food or cloths, it mite be fun to shop just for mom  and... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-08 11:14:30
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looked in the mirror the other day, i looked worried freaked me out alittle, maybe too much on my mind, thinking of my bro  so sad  hes alive  i should be grateful,  i want to... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-08 11:21:58
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boy i have to shut up and listen, the children singing worship songs, how great, for once i didnt sing, and you didnt have to duckt tape my mouth shut, well anyway i Listened to the small voices... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-09 11:56:15
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was gonna go to Mardels, get the coolest card,  well shes gonna get the BEST card ever  i made her one yesterday, cut flowers out of magazines, alot of them, glued on construction paper,... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-09 12:01:21
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the yukky stuff,when i was young and wild, we think nothing will ever hurt us,,, we think we are made of steel or something  when we are young, boy  i  go from steel to mush  a... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-09 12:14:40
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want to get rid of this iccky feeling   its called unhappiness in a relationship, thought i could just go along, live as i have been liveing,, its affecting my behavier  ya i... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-09 12:43:36
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the house smells good, that saturday morning smell of vanila  syrup, and huggs  lots of them   its rainy outside gonna hang out with the boys, have some dear time, thats Drop... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-10 11:20:09
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i dont want to wine, i asked ball and chain to take me to hospital, to see my bro, was still shook up  needed a driver, some support, well guess what?  he just complained about how Far he... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-10 11:33:20
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ball and chain is gonna take me to hospital to see my brother,iam sooo exited he is doing better,that will be the best moms day for me, the boys gave me heart necklace, and homemade flowers they... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-11 10:52:14
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thats what the boys and i will do later, we made one and its realy lovely, it looks like stained glass,when the lite goes throught the tissue paper we layered, i hope it will work, it will be fun... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-11 11:21:06
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he is so helpless, in the bed, when you are used to a strong, fisty person,, and then there they are,soo helpless, we stayed for awhile,he got to see his nephews, he even smiled, gonna have to have... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-11 21:05:34
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ya thats rite, snow, dont think there is a baseball game tonite,  to wet well the boys and i will pop some corn and have a fire,  ya sounds nice, acouple of trees snapped some branches... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-13 10:41:20
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the boys and i like to listen to worship songs on theway to school, well anyway, we are going along as usual, and zipp there goes this other momvan  she wasa realy going,  well there was... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-13 11:01:45
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i read they chose two winners, thats soo nice, just wanted to say way to go guys for winning the contest,,,great writeing to you both,   have lots of fun,  peace Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-13 11:16:50
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yes in the morning thats the lovely sound of the transformer show if my boys are all ready for school they can watch it, you should see them get ready its sooo funny, but they do it, hay what ever... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-14 09:23:25
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laying there  he went to rehab yesterday, the move went well,he has to learn to do things, simple things,things i take for granted everyday, makes you appreciate what the heck you have, man am... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-14 10:44:58
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climbing up  falling down, seeing a pit   walk rite past it,head for the sun, head for the top you gotta keep climbing  man and never stop, dont get dragged down, by that silly... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-14 11:02:25
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around the bend, the mud is being stirred up, mucky muddy colored, millions of waves crash on the shores of this mass of water, no fishermen today  gotta find some place else to play,the... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-14 11:44:16
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what a blast my boy pitched last nite, he can sure throw some heat, im always afraid he will hit the  batter it only happened acouple of times, how scarey, how wonderful, wish you guys could... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-15 10:42:06
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sometimes i wish they wouldnt grow up,they are so innocent,trusting, and just realy cool, when they are little, you grow up and all those things i mentioned  well unfortunately leave you as... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-15 12:48:44
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wow i havent unpacked yet from my last basesball thingy, how fun  different goggles this time, it was so funny my youngest and myself werea trying to get these things on our faces, the ones... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-15 13:49:13
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i realy should go get a bunch of cheap sunglasses,issue them out to who ever has to see me in a suit, boy tried one on, ya thats all good its not a weight issue,boy i almost blinded myself, ... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-15 14:10:17
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 my boy went to his ball game tonite, he carpooled with a mate from his team, i would drive  but that would be like commiting suicide, see im blind at nite, no driveing aloud, crapp he... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-15 20:42:21
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yahoo boy what a week, my boy pitched again lastnite,throwen that heat again, boy hes scarey GOOD, his coach was kicked out of the game the umpire got tired of being yelled at, he was callen some... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-16 09:47:50
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hes singing in NewYork city boy what a pair of lungs josh man is he good looking Groden ya hes an angel,  i have fallowed his career since he started, goose bumps, Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-16 10:47:31
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i spelled it wrong in my last mumbo jumbo i wrote before,  he has grown up alot, ya   hes not a boy anymore!!!!!!peace  must be spring fever, but hay, he is handsome  did i... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-16 10:50:30
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paul called me  and told me about my other brother, they moved him to a realy nice rehab, its strict, hes gettingfysty  thats a very good sighn,,visitation is limited for now,thats ok... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-16 11:14:40
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wow already, it was fun last year, i fallowed the kids around with my camera, cheered  and tried to avoid being tied down by conversation from another mom,they are halfway listening to you... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-16 11:25:46
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can she let him in again to that special place that only the two go she lets her mind go places, then leaves realy fast  out of fear to let him get to close, hes been far away for a long... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-16 11:42:46
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moveing forward  never to be the same  always moveing on to the next passing of time never to be the same as before it seems like its the same, but is it realy, no it moves forward every... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-16 18:58:34
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thats never been an issue hes my best friend  the father of my boys  when we are together well he puts me first always treats me like im a princess he knows me sooo well and i he ... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-16 19:11:57
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hope everypne has a sweet day today,the sun will shine for all of us special ones, hehe  that means all of us,  ball and chain came home ,i didnt let him in, not ready yet, when i am i... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-17 08:44:16
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ya lakes of syrup sparkling on your plate, then on your fork, yum  just the rite amount of vanila ya ,house will smell nice, reminds me of Denmark, the smells  of downtown... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-17 10:45:02
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saturday nite, it was a warm day,very nice,lots of people out and about, getting flowers and soil for their little gardens,it was almost like we had summer for a day,put the boys in shorts, found... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-17 22:02:02
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breads we are bakeing today made some tortillas  this morning, sweet breads this afternoon, house smells out of this woeld, the neighbours wont stop banging on my door,haha  they always... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-18 16:22:41
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its quiet and nice at the moment, my youngest is napping, hes had this cough  last few days, it dosnt soumd very good, if you have never heard a child cough like it, it sound realy deep ... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-18 18:42:19
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i guess i should wear them WHEN IM TYPING   i am in denial i guess  dont want to waer them, if i want to read and write,  i have to waer these things on my face  they... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-18 18:46:06
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these people flip this house across the street from me, its been fixed up and sold so many times, its weird it realy stands out, but not in a good way, too manicured everything just perfect, no... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-18 19:04:17
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my way dont know what will happen tonite, i want to get rid of all the anger and i want to love again, i mean realy love,thats what my heart tells me to do, i have shed the anger resentment ... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-18 19:25:03
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some poetry and it only makes me think  i mean realy think, and i dont want to go places but these things i read force me to go there want to laugh and i want to cry, dont want to go... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-18 22:02:23
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happened in my house wow,i have my work cut out for me today,oh well i have a routine  dosnt take long just throw this there and throw that there,haha,dont do much house work on the... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-19 10:40:30
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we had a nice weekend, the boys dad is in the USA need a passport to cross that border,i wont get into that, but anyway ball and chain and myself got along learning to communicate again, no beefs,... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-19 11:01:06
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schools out forever, oh ya Alice Cooper boy that song is ageless, i was singing that song this morning on the way to their school, my boy asked me ma is that an Old song? i just laughed and said... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-19 11:18:07
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sit too long on machine today  clean the house then GO OUTSIDE, ya  it looks and feels like summer today supose to get to 80, that is nice, i like haveing four seasons,  but you are... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-19 11:40:01
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have to get rid of the old and see what up under all the leaves and such,always green popping out from under the muck, how lovely to help them along to get that sunshine to get thema going on their... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-19 19:15:38
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i hope you all are haveing a nice one, all the birds are going nuts, its nice,just hanging around the house with my youngest, other boy is with his dad at a practice,  made some... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-19 21:10:43
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i keep getting distracted  i go towards the area  something else beckens me, its like happened all day, maybe im not supposed to be out there or something,who knows oh there goes... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-19 21:20:07
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and there they are, it happens all the time, i think of someone and they call me,  or i am at the rite place at the rite time,  its scarey sometimes  but i recongnize  what it... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-19 21:45:54
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my oldest son gets to go out on the field at COORS FIELD  with major league ball players its cool its this thing they do every year, last year RANDY the unit JOHNSON  was out there with... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-20 10:57:36
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and my heart will swalow you up,please come to me in the dark,and whisper something teander in my ear,something my busy heart will only here,please come to me in the dark,no questions asked,just... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-20 11:12:10
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slow down, boy everyone is in a huge hurry, gotta be here  gotta be there, gotta get the kids to soccar, dance,lacross   rush rush  i dont want to live that way,man no wonder... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-20 13:05:52
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gonna go get the boys from school in awhile layed down forawhile wow crazy dreams wish i could tell you all were i go in muy dreams  or are they dreams?hehe Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-20 16:05:20
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my youngest is a little gardener how COOL he was weeding some crap out for me , he said mom this is fun i like this very much, went in to get the boy some ice tea, i come back outside, hes done a... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-20 20:07:32
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my youngest and myself did some work outside  he likes to get dirt under his nails, real hard work, my back will hurt tomorrow, but its worth it, couse we racked  went through the muck... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-20 23:09:47
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i want my boys to have a better one than i had,  and they sure do, i am truely blessed, never hit my boys, as a parent i have felt like snapping them in half sometimes,, we do timeouts, well i... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-20 23:20:23
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of school  its half a day pick them up at 11  how SWEEt  i woke up and got a hammer a smashed my alarm clock  did that feel nice, i always buy a cheap one, but it has TO... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-21 10:47:04
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here we go ,more police and ambulance siarans, you can hear them major intersections up the street alot of them then they stop, i can just about imagine where it is in the neighbourhood, the teens... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-21 11:28:09
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happens every year last day of school, we are happy  but its bitter sweet couse you are gonna miss the ones you have connected with,girls 8th graders huddled hugging and crying,holding on to... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-21 11:59:30
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got out realy fast picked up the boys, grabbed a pizza you take it home and bake it yourself, its yum well anyway didnt stop by the office or anything couse we always start to ball like little... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-21 14:16:35
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want to go outside and work on my area  my special place, it looks like its getting crappy out, oh well its still early,sit and write till it blows over, we can have a tornado one minute, the... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-21 14:25:33
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love that smell ball and chain came home from work, he got busy  the neighbours area ready to shoot us only ones thathavent cut the grass yett,dandolines sooo  tall , hes getten it... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-21 19:38:33
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ball and chain let my boy cut some of the grass out front  he was supervising, i said looks like you dont have to do anything around the house   well it could have got ugly, i forgot... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-21 20:12:11
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he  is jealous of my blogging everytime i sit down  well he needs something, i didnt think anything of it at first, well he couldnt find a clean shirt, and exploded at me  thats all... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-21 22:57:07
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what a blast, what fun even had a picnic lunch, the kids had sooo  much fun, tomorrow is the awards ceramoney  its a good time for all not a dry eye in the house,worship songs and... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-22 21:26:19
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i wrote this poem i was gonna give ball and chain its a love p[oem, well i didnt give it to him  too afraid,  well last nite after he was done getting his frustration out on me,  i... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-22 21:35:50
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i am looking for some great poetry, come on if you are there, if you happen to think of one, i need cheering up, and your poetry always makes me smile,  thanks if you are out there, ... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-22 21:44:02
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the boys are asleep, he left early,heard him getting ready for work, as i lay there listening  he makes coffee, the smell is driveing me nuts,  i wait i listen, the front door,  he... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-23 09:19:33
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yesterday  there was one 50  or so miles from my home, wowthis town Winsor  got hammered pretty good,  trees uprooted and such  semis were thrown,devistateing  good... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-23 09:25:38
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i have to take the boys so we can set some chocolate  and bread on their grandads   area  i dont want to say resting place couse  i dont feel he is there  just his... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-23 09:52:48
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well it went well my boys are the greatest,they got these awards for kindness and streanght, stuff like that, the stuff that realy matters, after we went to wolly worl  thats what we call... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-23 14:03:28
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ya thats what i am  its cool as heck,wait a minute as im sitting in my chair  i SMELL something, what and where is it comeing from? pheww  man smells like stinky socks  i mean... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-23 19:01:43
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i was wondering about you, i am glaD YOU are ok and you realy are at peace with your life, well im thrilled to the dickens, figured you were working on your LIFE, i am at a hotel and i am useing... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-24 18:52:10
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do you have someone in your life that makes you feel like you dont matter,,?i do and i realized it on this trip we are in Manitue springs  oldest son has a tournament basesball that is,,... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-25 16:10:24
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leave well maybe i will just walk out the door,leave the boys with him  let him see what i do  he would crack up in one day couldnt  find clean cloths to  wear  the boys... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-25 16:25:54
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if i have something clinicly wrong with me/ depression or something crap i hate feeling this way,maybe a doctor will answer some questions, see i am with the family on a tourament,thats not the... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-25 16:33:27
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hurt myself  i would rather kill him instead,no that wouldnt work either  boys my boys are my only real happieness, well and that my maker loves me, i just get to thinking out loud and... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-25 16:47:52
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yes  we get to go to Brekenridge!!!  i love it there its reminds me of Europe, Sweden, people actualy go out in the evenings in the villiage  mingle people watch i love to watch... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-26 17:08:30
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my kids windup when he pitches, wow amazeing, hes only 10 wish you could see it man, they used his arm on the Championanship game,i just stood there with my mouth open couldny belive it, hes scarey... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-26 18:37:25
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i wonder if there is a way to satisfy your soul,? who do i ask the question at hand?will i ever know?wanna go to the highest mountain top,and just plain shout,whats it all realy about?just gotta... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-27 13:59:10
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well i got to thinking,went to see a shrink this morning he squeezed me in early couse someone had canceled their appointment, never in my life have i ever talked to a total stranger about ME ... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-28 10:35:16
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 well after he stopped laughing,he asurred me i wasnt nuts in a bad way,  but my sense of humor must get me through my rollercoaster life, blood work will be done tomorrow morning mom... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-28 21:25:24
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i told dr. that i write on thoughts, he said never to stop writeing  make time for myself know that its summer and the boys demand sooo  much of my time and attention,  make time for... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-28 21:32:04
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after i get some medical crap done tomorrow, ima gonna take the boys shopping, get some munchies i need some flour and such for my bakeing well anyway they have a great toy selection old fashioned... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-28 22:51:23
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its done  they did some blood work on me this morning, mom watched the boys, checked thyroid  diebetic test and lets see what else, crap havent had a check up in 10 years, ouch  good... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-29 13:20:02
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that alot of things did kinda happen one after another, my uncle dies, my ant puts herself in rehab rageing alcohalic, my brother almost gets killed,  ok lets just put the brakes on a minute,... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-29 13:37:41
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its been a long week, im glad its friday  guess it dosnt matter what day it is since the boys are off school ya, gonna clean up the back deck later get the power nozel man this sucker will... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-30 09:55:14
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i can hear them laughing in the house  its alive with giggles my oldest son sounds like his grandma when she used to kinda giggle realy exited,  part of me is sad though i miss the old... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-30 10:26:17
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was a total surprise to me a knock on the door thought it was a sales person i opened it and there is my dad! he said he was in the neighbourhood, sorry for not calling first, heck i dont care... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-30 20:52:32
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well kitchen is cleaned up,its nice outside maybe summer will come on a weekend,how funny some more weeding to do today, go out to the thinking tree today and do some  crazey thinking,its all... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-31 13:28:38
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i wonder what people do for fun on saturday nites these days,cruise the malls  fastfood places  heck i went to the market just a bit ago, the young girls were shrutten there stuff, mann i... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-31 20:22:06
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whata couda shouda i wonder sometimes i guess you  live and learn,things are so important at the time so much drama,look back on a bunch of stuff in my past, wheww  made it through made... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-31 21:24:57
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i told them it was ok just dont BREAK anything of mine,, they havnt , so ball and chain isa getten drunk makeing supper porkchops, glad i get to use the puter see whats up and whos around if i want... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-05-31 22:13:03
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