you can see the water sometimes through the ice and snow,, it flows down down, but were does it go? it goes down the canyon, to another creek, it takes its time,,  there around the bend, do... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-01 13:10:00
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went to the store and got a lilac candle  and some chocolate,, two of my faves,,, gonna have a me day,,, have to do that for myself,, at least  once a week,, been kinda sick lately ... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-02 11:15:00
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on my day.... he had to get somthing out of the car some tax stuff, heck we owe the government,, go figure,,, well anyway, he saw that i am kinda sick, he actualy asked how i feel, well, just take... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-02 11:59:00
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he was my friend for 25 years,  i met him when i met ball and chain, well anyway , he never judged me,  never made a move on me, and there were time he could have,, that was pre children... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-02 12:00:00
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these things i saw on the side of the road, they looked like they would throw spears at you or something, come to find out the boogala  as i called it is a baby palm tree,  man how... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-02 20:20:00
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wheeww  wow what a ride to school this morning,, the lady that almost hit my Family, is realy lucky i didnt chase her down, and beat the liveing CRAPP out of her, i have three brothers,, i can... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-03 11:11:46
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yah my  neighbour is selling his   and part of me wants to buy it, i can ride up the canyon, used to ride when i was younger,,well on the back, i want to be in the drivers seat, i... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-03 12:17:59
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i cant sit down for too long, think about thimgs that have passed and yet to come, its like my whole life flashed infront of me, my adrenalen isa going out of control,,,,wanna weep, cant get to... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-03 12:28:06
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 it makes you think, i wont get too deep,,, i wont go places in my mind, even if they make sense, i push it away, no its gonna stay,, linger in the back, couse i cant have deep conversations... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-03 18:04:42
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BECOUSE IT HELPS ME GET IT OUT,, I DONT WRITE TO GET OTHER PEOPLES OPINIONS,, IF I NEED HELP WITH SOMTHING, I WILL ASK ONE OF MY FRIENDS  LIST FRIENDS... PEACE Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-04 10:57:51
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 SORRY IF MY OTHER BLOG SEEMED MEAN, I READ A BLOG AND IT AMUSES Some peopl i guess to pick a blog and make a comment,,, ,i try to encourage and realy mean it , not just to amuse myself,,,,i... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-04 11:06:16
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i have no rite  to write or read today,,,,its friday,,, i wish i didnt feel so much, why should i care how someone else gets their kicks,, im just manic today,,,, all over the place,,,,i dont... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-04 11:13:41
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she was a bus girl, young, and working her but off, i was nice like always and started talking to her, it drives my family nuts, well anyway,when she came by the table i noticed needle tracks on... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-04 11:42:00
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well that was a long long time ago, she no longer exist, well sometimes she pops up unexpectedly,  when he was mad at my mom, well that was everyday just about, he would grab me and either use... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-04 17:51:45
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well my mom and dad would fite, they werent happy in a cramped little house 4 little kids, my dad did not know how to be a dad, his dad was never around, he workeed his asss  of 18 hour... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-04 18:51:58
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wow was that a blast world cup stacking, speed stacking, it was fun to see everyone from school today, there were people from Germany,Texas, Virginia,,, just to name a few, these kids are soo... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-05 18:09:04
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somthing good can turn to crap, if you let it,,,i dont want to leave couse its turning sleezy, isnt there a place where that kind of stuff is exeptable   like that other site,,, i always... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-05 19:29:27
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 he is not done with me,, so the best must  be comeing you see, i am a work in progress going throught  this life, never realy finished yet,, still simmering on the stove,, getting... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-05 20:20:49
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i saw the sadest thing today, this dad was trying to comfort his daughter about  8 years old well anyway, she was sitting in her ants lap  upset about somthing, the dad was rite there... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-05 20:56:28
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i try not to go there, the thought of her missing him,wakeing from a nap and not finding him there, she has to rememberher  man is in a different place,they still share that intamate space.i... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-07 11:51:59
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messed that up i cant type today,, took a benadryl,,, boy im glad i only took one,,hehehe i guess im just a lite waite,,, oh well i will rerite thiat thing i just posted,,, sorry i should have read... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-07 11:56:55
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she was busy  doing her thing, when she looked down, and saw these old lady hands,,,are those hers? she looks away and wipes her eyes, maybe she just had something in them, she looks down... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-07 12:08:03
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I told him again ho easey it was for him to hurt my feelinhgs  he has that stupid irish temper, well he will say something when he is mad and then when he feels better,, well just... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-07 15:46:26
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thats why i do it, keep him far from my heart, and then he cant hurt it,,,, crap he does it too easy, he didnt understand that comment,,, boy for an engineer    he doesnt get stuff,... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-07 15:53:15
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i have seen it befor, after i get alittle on the deep side   he askes me how i know to say this stuff, what stuff that people have feelings, and when someone says somthing hateful, or his... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-07 15:59:59
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it always cheers me up to read poetry on thoughts, i can read these wonderful, heartfelf poems,, i mean i dont just read them, i Feel them, what a blessing this has been to me,,,thanks guys, keep... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-07 16:15:28
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about it i knew this would happen one day,,maybe i can realy be happy, with another man,,,, that would be a huge mistake,,, i think about him  i dont let my mind go there  only... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-07 21:38:22
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oh crap they wanna yank out my innards, the tonsils dont look so good,, dr. says gotta go,,,, what a drag,,,,dont have time realy, dont like hospitals,, why did God give me something  that can... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-07 21:50:21
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yah i like to be the first one up, before the boys,,, ot feels like i have one up on them, couse i get double dutied, like all at once they both need something and im manic mom on the floor, no... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-08 07:15:40
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is over phew,, i wouldnt have it any other way, those boys are my pride and joy, they tought me how to love, thought i knew everything,WRONG,,,i thought to be a parent we teach them, well they... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-08 10:56:30
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how cool when i think of you my friend, i always hear from you, i am so intuned to you my friend my heart has a permanent spot in it JUST FOR YOU!!!!! i think of you and your pain, and you show... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-08 11:07:35
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thought we lost this esay my boy needs for school this morning, well i was throwing paper all over screaming, looked like a old banchy woman having a ritual,, well anyway i found it and im sitting... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-09 11:11:02
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i was weird this morning,,got alittle upset, dont we all well anyway,had to go get some kitty litter,,and this man that works at wlgreens  hes the nicest person you know KIND, well he said... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-09 12:04:05
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not to look too close or he mite change his mind, he only smiled, i told him i did not deserve his kindness, he said  you do the best you can, and the Lord will do the rest,, well after i... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-09 12:08:10
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my boy play baseball,, he hits the ball a ton,,, makes me mashed potatoes, wow is it a blast,, if i had a choice  proffesional baseball, i mean box seats and everything,,, no no  i would... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-09 13:20:37
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when he smashes one out, he never brags or anything, its  so nice, some kids cry if they strike out,, no no,,if you arent haveing fun, no play,, my boy always says  good hit to the other... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-09 13:22:56
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i was realy mad at myself  for being a banchy mom, well anyway i heard this song  boy it brought me to my knees , gently to my knees, i understood to forgive myself, as Jesus does, and... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-10 11:23:00
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the Lord trusted me to be a mom,,boy THATS HUGE,, so  im gonna have fun  and also be the grown up,, my boys tell ME to turn down the MUSIC,,, gotta love it,,,,,,,,,brag on the boys,,,... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-10 11:28:12
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im so sad and blue, and its all becouse of you,, my sheets they feel like lead, and my pillows they feel like stoneits so hard to be alone, i live on a  lonesome avenue,lonesome avenue, oh im... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-10 13:17:07
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thats what i call this  site, its realy cool to have a support group,, heck, i need all the good vibes i can get, thankyou,,all very much for making me feel  well not SO nuts after all,... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-10 13:37:48
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it hangs there, where she put it, in the same place  she sees it  and thinks, where would i were it? to the grocery store,, or how a bout to the gas station,,, yah  it hangs there... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-10 15:00:50
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man thats what it feels like this unhappy marriage is takeing bits and pieces from me,, i have changed,, people are startingto notice i thought i could pretend everything was just fucken goody... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-11 11:54:41
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flying over the clouds   letting the wind carry me   save my strengh   for when i fly over the great oceans  where there is no wind beneith my wings,,, but just... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-11 12:03:11
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something is wrong at home,, all you all are sooo very kind to me   thats what i want at home,,, just kindness, not just always bitter about something,, dont drink,,, oh waite I WILL GO... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-11 12:17:50
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want to go rent that cute little cabin,,, crap shouldnt spen the money,, that would get himm,,,rite in the wllat, i know i dont sound like a nice person rite now,,  my insides get twisted just... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-11 14:42:33
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how can i miss people i have never met???? man am i going nuts or something? i think about people, things i no   some  good  some bad,, never judging, or they  me,, i never... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-11 18:19:23
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seeing the nothing for miles and miles, i miss it,  there IS somthing out there,, the massive cliffs  that tells a story if you realy look at it, the barbed wire for miles and miles, and... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-11 18:31:06
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i feel realy stupid, i called him at work and i was screaming at him couse i am not happy,,,why should i care if he knows that im unhappy, well i guess i do,   he is at home  and my... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-11 19:14:27
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we cant try to talk end up Screaming,,, we need to learn to communicate,, thats one big prob,,,cant fite in front of the boys, it will change who they are,,, so thats why i dont talk to him,,, and... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-12 09:39:31
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can any body see, when i was a child, i had a fleeting glimmps  out of the corner of my eye, i turned to look but it was gone, i cannot put my finger on it know, the child is growm, the dream... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-12 11:12:53
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thats all they realy want, to spend time with you,just sitting watching a dumb cartoon or somthing, just cuddling up on the couch giggling at something you are laughing sooo hard your stomache... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-12 11:25:22
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into the computer and hug someone today,, but i cant,, crap this is sooo hard, my friend is going through some real stuff and alls i can do is WRITE, want to take care of my friend  make a cup... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-12 12:13:23
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will feel good today,, its suppose to be a warm day,,better go out and play, its always cold, need some HEAT,,, laughing boys with bats and balls  and braces,, how sweet the sound,,that saved... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-13 12:07:58
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the beauty of the days gone buy,  the music that we used to play, so lift your glass and raise it high, to the beautyfrom the days gone buy, i shouted from the mountain topp,my memorry it does... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-13 14:39:28
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for giving a darn, thankyou for not being so self absorbed, the world is harsh sometimes when you realy feel,, ya  realy feel, but when you find angels on earth,,, there is hope,,, thank... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-13 20:24:25
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i was  areading my book last nite like always,, i could not get this person out of my head,,, thats never happened to me before, i read a whole page and didint get a word,, man cant get you... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-14 11:29:22
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that Willie Nelson song keeps going through my head,blue sky   nothing but blue sky  from now on,,, well anyway,, my boy practiced last nite, tonite is his gam,,, what JOY i get... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-14 11:42:46
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yah thats what im gonna do take the bull by the balls and live my life, like its supposed to be LIVED!!!!!peace Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-14 12:50:58
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time to put them away,, just got done vacumeing,,,crap, no wonder im hot,,wool socks,,its spring today,warm i have my fan on,,well get those SOCKS off im so used to being cold  i have all... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-14 13:41:20
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i got a nasty mail, someone was VERY pissed at me for making a comment,,, i always leave supportivecommentss,, i was a whipping boy,, once again, this person does not know me,,,  oh well you... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-15 10:43:04
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i was thinking last nite,hes not getting any   he hasnt  had a drink in 8 days,,,his job, hes the boss so he has alot on his plate, dont we all well anyway, he is dealing with... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-15 11:12:03
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i felt good  realy good,,,i want to continue to grow  as i am,,,,its like he trys to suck me down,,,, no no,,,its a pathetic way to be, but when hes an ASShole  he takes bits and... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-15 11:36:08
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write last nite,, but he was using the computer,,so i got out my diary,, i have alot of themm,, felt that pencil in my hands,, it felt good,,,couldnt rite anything downn,,,, my heart was... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-15 11:42:55
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everyone has problems,just remember to be on track, and dont just attack, couse words can couse scars after awhile, and you get callused,,,all from words,,, nono,, turn it around, well if you gotta... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-15 12:16:20
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outside the wind isa blowing,heck its gonna start snowen,its stormen inside too   oh heck were is my other shoe,,, what to do,, what to do,,,,gonna get some gas    oh what... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-15 12:29:15
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start spreading the news  im leaving today ,, man  a broadway play,,, i will see one one day,,that has been a dream of mine for a long time,, it mite seem silly to others but the history... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-16 12:10:34
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i was on the computer, my boy says to me,, mom i thought house work was your hobbie,,, well after i pulled myself off the floor, laughing  i told him no cleaning isnt moms hobbie  its a... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-16 12:23:12
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boy this mom thing is HUGE, i was trusted with these two souls,me  boy whod a thunk it,,, its the BEST thing ive done since i have been on this planet,,,to think the LORD trusted ME  to... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-16 13:02:20
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  dont know if i should leave any comments on peoples blogs,, a nice one will freak people out,,i guess, i never leave a bad comment,  gonna stay close to friends,,, when someone ask why... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-16 18:03:41
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it looks like God sprinkled  powderd sugar,, all over the place does it look pretty,,, i live in the foothills and theres a cool hogback  it looks like the back of a dinosour,,, its realy... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-17 10:51:50
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when people are doing good, happy possitve  things a going there way, good vibes are flyen it feels sooo nice,,peace i hope everyone has a great day,,, it snowed lastnite, its sooo pretty... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-17 11:23:05
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she knows the trail by heart,, her favorite walking stick is in her firm grip, walking looking smelling the familiar scents of the woods,sees a snake hole,  better walk around it you never no,... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-17 13:59:14
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the boys are at schhol whew, morning rush went well, found everything,,, its friday  ya   no alarm clock,,thats nice,,i always wake up before it goes of anyway,, i hope everyone is... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-18 10:46:11
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hurt yourself,,i dont know one thing about cutting,,,i wish i could help you,peace Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-18 11:07:47
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was doing my writeing  i look down the cat has a bird  its head off, just plopps it in front of me  well on my foot actualy, yikes,the cat seemed realy proud,, my son told me the cat... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-18 11:33:15
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the house yesterday, so not many chores today,,its lovely outside  want to go fishing,cant wait  till summer,,the talk i had with him kinda is working  he is starting to think before... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-18 12:20:46
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thats how i feel tonite, maybe its spring comeing or somthing, i took the computer from my boys i dont usualy use it at nite, thought it would help, i feel the same way i do when there is a thunder... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-18 22:09:09
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no alarm clock, thats nice, nothing exiting last nite stayed up and watched tv, washed my bedding, wow im an exiting gal, oh well i hope everyone out there is haveing a greay morning, or... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-19 09:27:02
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i made some banana nut waffles for everyone, come and join us,he got up and  yukkk,, maybe he will go to work, got a smoke? shit go look for one sometimes it seems like hes my kid,,, and he... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-19 11:12:55
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recieved some dow, ya moola  what to do with it,, think i will rent a cabin for a month  she has cheap rates, this time of year, no tourist, and i will have my own kitchen,the boys have... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-19 12:20:49
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ya called karen thats her name shes some cabins well anyway, shes gonna air mine out for me and do some dusting,, the boys and i a will go up later today, give me some time to get some stuff put... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-19 12:38:47
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thankyou,,,,,i  needed some huggs today, somtimes i feel twisted inside  and i just want to go and hide, and pop  i get a hugg the LORD always gives me what i need,,,,,, Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-19 12:51:24
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crap  i couldnt cash the check, its the small one well anywat i forgot  we both need to sighn  i just cashed a check for cash at the bank,,we have over draft, so its ok just... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-19 16:24:36
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i called my brother and told him the situation so he wont worry about me and the boys,if he calls the house,my brother wants to take my boys so i can be alone,  he means well  never been... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-19 21:14:43
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my boys heard my brother and myself talking  they want to go with uncle paul  no presure  i have decided to let him take my boys till tomorrow nite  so i can get them ready for... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-19 21:21:33
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us to come home,, i alresdy paid for a months rent,, he says he dosnt care,, i said get sobber,,,,rehab,   thats the only thing that will help him,,dont want my boys seeing him passed... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-19 21:50:40
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who own this cabin and a few others want me to come to supper,, i said politly i had a hedache  dont want to hurt their feelings, they are just trying to help, but im not one for haveing... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-19 21:55:15
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its realy cool never used one, get to go outside with computer  how cool is that,,the moon is full  but you can see the stars, have time to think, and drink,  better be careful ... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-19 22:25:07
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its  funny this couple came back from supper and they looked at me and probably thought oh traveling career girl  they just smiled and went to their cabin, it was funny, i do work just at... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-19 22:31:58
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i hope everyone is having a great morning,, woke  up kinda late, my brain is fried, from thinking sooo much,, glad brother took  the boys  i did need it  he is gonna bring the... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-20 11:56:51
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i have alot to think about,, see i kinda got used to kindness, which i dont get from ball and chain, i realized i need to be treated like i treat others, and he dont fit the bill, i deserve the... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-20 12:42:30
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words of encouragment, i no its not posted for me, but it feels like it is,, its so nice i just want to thank all my friends, yah my friends on thoughts for making me feel  well not so nuts,,... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-20 13:34:10
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yah thats what ill do  it helps me not go nuts,, typing on this thing, my fingers are in shape,,gonna keep to myself,,like always   dont get to close,,everything will be ok, been... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-20 15:10:07
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my brother is takeing my boys to lunch, i was gonna do somthing for them,guess im not doing very well, my brother knows me too well, hes gonna take the boys for pizza, he is  an angel on... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-20 15:15:36
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cant wait till nite, its not  so harsh, not exposed   like in the lite, no one can see the tears,if you are quiet no one will hear you,reality seems to go away for awhile for me in... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-20 15:48:36
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the people who own this place  well they need help, they asked me if i knew anyone that needs a job,,,heck i was thinking  ya i could work make MY OWN money,, i told them ya,i know... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-20 16:48:35
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on my face was much needed  wow what alittle sun will do,stopped my pitty party, writeing is cheaper than a therapist, thank goodness for wireless, it only takes 30 minuts to get to the school... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-20 21:21:43
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him i am not equiped, if i have to there is such a thing called court appointed rehab, sighn a piece of paper, have the white coats come get him, to rehab, man thats the only way it will happen and... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-20 22:48:28
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they are asleep, think i will go outside its realy nice, i can see the stars  out of the burbs for awhile its nice,,maybe later see whats on the tube,,,try and finish my book, set the alarm,... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-20 23:10:35
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well the boys got off to school without a hitch,  they understand the situation, mom and dad are just trying to work some things out, my oldest ask me if we are to get a divorce,,,  man... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-21 10:55:05
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come home crap he called me upset  i think he was crying, he misses the boys,,he is a good dad,  i kinda like the peace   it feels good to be kinda normal,and the place dosnt... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-21 11:22:54
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wow is that fun, its a great way to start the week,,the boys played realy well, i never  ask whats the score   i ask did you have fun? got a bunch of candy for the sibs,,  i... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-21 22:59:16
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ya i like it when my stuff gets done  and then i can sit a spell  the boys are asleep, been a long day  thei dad had to go out of town  good thing couse hes been buggen us to... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-21 23:24:36
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Sweet  they do a book  fair at the school its a fundraiser, wow its my favorite  picked up a book after the boys went to class, just in time i just finished this cool book the ... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-22 10:59:24
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i got a first edition nancy drew  how cool is that  didnt spend alot  thats half the fun,  i used to read all her books when i was a girl,, a girl with a lawywer dad,helping... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-22 11:30:19
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 asking how to kill yourself, so much hostility name calling, what happened i wonder some of the Words used  crap it feels like highschool all over again, i guess misery loves... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-22 13:17:24
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yah it almost snowed at my boys ball game lastnite, people were reaching fot their parkas  today we are thawing out, wouldny be so bad but when that wind starts a blowing all the snow off the... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-22 13:56:07
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i  was checking out the survey this person and suicide questions,, i read a few blogs and there it is again, i mostly stay in the friends zone, this person ask everyday how to kill themselves,... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-22 15:50:29
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both the boys are sporing new shoes, its cool  when we go places,heck there almost as tall as me, its like i have my two personal bodyguards  its so nice to have children,they are... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-22 18:37:26
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my moms sister checked herself into rehab  crap didnt even no she had a problem, mom was sad i could hear it in her voive, guess shes been drinking for awhile she 66 she walked into the... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-23 11:16:54
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my boy has a game,,think im gonna hang back tonite, with my other boy, the wind blows me away,,,the game is in Kansas tonite, well not realy  but its an hour drive each way, tired today... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-23 12:25:31
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and looks in her special drawer wondering if she still has it in there, that special smell she hopes its in there oh well, the fields of honeysuckle she can see very clearly  oh she must... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-23 19:52:15
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we stayed back tonite their dad took my boy to his game  my other boy and i are a hanging around,its nice he is doing his homework,  and then we are gonna have some D E A R time, that... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-23 20:12:23
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ya they have it every year  and every year HE SLEEPS through it, all the other fathers manage to get there for their CHILDREN, i told the boys i will be the dad and we ARE gonna have fun and... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-24 12:45:15
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so all that happened this morning, when i got back my friend mark called he and ball and chain were roomies along time ago, well anywaya friend of his is getting rid of a bunch of BOOKS  and... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-24 12:54:34
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keep the outside out for a few hours, the ringing  of the phone, no  she just wants to be alone  with her flying fingers and thoughts,ringing  there it is again  could it... Read More
Posted by: bjm1 on 2008-04-24 14:38:40
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