From the moment u first held me in your arms to your bitter departure on the bus,
my hart was yours!!
Our lives entwined,
minds, body's and souls
you were my everything
id die for you!

You left a gapping void that never ends...
a pain that never subsides and a wound that will NEVER heal.
U make me doubt in internal love the moment you left without a word...
left me standing...
alone...
afraid and heartbroken.
The pain of a lover lost never heals and the pain of a lover who can not fight for your love is even more insufferable...

Out of the blue u call...
disrupting,
confusing and interrupting a hart and life that's trying to get over you.
The once comforting, but now hollow words: "I love you" eco through my thoughts as I lie in bed yearning for you...
my hart aces but my mind reasons away the pain...
R u willing...to sacrifice being whole once again... for a love that you doubt, you fear, you cry for?

I don't know my love... maybe...maybe I could once again forgive or maybe I should bear the grunt of loneliness and chance a new love... a better love... a deserving love! a love that is all seeing and all knowing... a love that is TRUE

(if such a thing exists)