Y does the pain of love lost, linger inside us for eternity?

Y does the heartache stay with us our whole lives?

Y cant we forget and move on completely and without regrets and unanswered questions?

To me there are no answers to these questions,
no closure and no amount of happiness that erases these feelings of loss and sorrow...
For a brief moment... happiness shines through...
But… its only temporary!
soon the pain and uncertainties are back with all the other emotions that i cant seem to bottle...

I smile and then when I'm alone the waves of emotions just come flooding into every pore,
every vain, every thought and every decision I make...

AND THEN I REALISE THAT IM STILL ALONE AND THAT THE VOID HAS NOT YET BEEN FILLED
that the pain is still there and that its not lessened but aggravated...
that my feelings are confusing…
is a understatement,
they are crippling, chewing at my hart, engulfing the person i used to be!!

there is no treatment and there is no cure,
no antivirus...
its a death sentence that's been given...
by none other then myself...

LET GO AND LIVE,
WISE WORDS I CNT SEEM TO HEAR...