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my husband used to call me occasionally during the day to tell me he was going into a meeting
I always thought he was trying to let me know he was not going to be able to be reached
I figured he had meetings all day long
why call me about certain ones and not others?
it always struck me as odd and I chalked it up to him proably having an affair
even though I did not really believe it myself ????? 100%
it was always one of those items on the check list of
IS YOUR HUSBAND HAVING AN AFFAIR?
TAKE THIS TEST AND FIND OUT!
has he taken a sudden interest in his appearence
buying new clothes
become critical of you
lost weight
new underware
bought you presents for no reason
had more busineess meetings at night and out of town
acted frustrated
started fights
etc
well
I had really tried to put all that nonsense behind me
until these recent events
and today, he called to tell me where he was going to be
and a worker came here and I needed to get ahold of him
so I called back, not15 minutes after I talked to him and I can't get ahold of him,
he always checks his caller id
never has the phone out of his reach
he knows Ive been calling
and for some reason, is choosing not to call me back
its been 3 hours
the same exact thing happeded last Friday
he makes so many trips back and forth to his office over the weekends,
I used to think he was just trying to find excues to get out of the house to meet or call her
I guess, even though she works for him, I never thought they ever met at his office
way to risky
even for him
I havent stopped in his office more than 3 times since he hired her
years and years ago
so I guess you could say
he probaly feels pretty comfortable not worrying about me stopping
but
trying to put all my doubts aside
and trying to move forward
I realized I should really stop in there sometime
so I tried to go last Friday afternoon,
I called beforehand
I just did not want to walk in if he was having a meeting with her in her newly decorated office
but thats when I couldnt reach him for over 2 hours
but later
after work
I called again
he was waiting for a delievery for his gym in the basement
no one was at the office
so I told him I was in the neighborhood
wondered aloud if I should stop
he said sure come around to the back
he must have been a tad surprised
so I did
it was strange to walk around there
I had not seen the place in years
it looked so different
I was observing things as if I were a stranger casing the place
trying to act normal
knowing I was coming off like a detective
but trying not to
be casual, act cool
this is just your husbands office
you are his wife
you should not have stayed a stranger for so long aound there
ok, now we are sitting in your office
I feel like a stranger
where are the pictures of your wife
I see so many photos
lets move a few of those to the front shall we
how odd
the whole thing is so odd
when I reached her side of the building
I could feel my body growing tense
my heart beating faster
would I notice some sort of clue
to finally figure out this mystery
would knowing once and for all help matters or hurt?
I peeked in, but felt too uncmfortable to take a closer look
I just saw a dry erase board in a cubilce outside of her office, with all sorts of names of our friends and family written in blue ink, that she obviously has a business relationship with, another thing I never knew
I followed him to his workout facility, he obviously was in a hurry to get me out of there,
and looked in the fridge
I wasnt going to open it, but I did
I do not know what I was looking for
I was not thirsty at all
but
I saw a can of tab
an unusal beverage for my husband to have in his personal fridge
according to him
no other human being uses his gym but him
no one from his office is allowed down there
he has all sorts of clothes and shoes hanging there
just in case
just in case of what?
why does he have so many clothes there
in case he wants to work out and he does not have anything to change into?
as far as I know
he has never ever had a tab
I hated to ask him
but I had to
so...whos Tab is that?
Its mine...I like tab, I drink tab, its been there for three years!
I guess he doesnt like it that much if he has not touched it in 3 years?
OK
then why is there a wine cork in your gym bag
and massage oil?
but I did not ask him those questions
It took too much out of me to ask about the tab
keep the tab!
I never saw that oil before
are you rubbing yourself the wrong way,
or just me
the thing is
I sound like a snoop
wondering about the oil, the cork and the tab
but
I never snoop
sounds like I do
but there is nothing here at our house
he keeps everything there
its all at his office
and I never go there
Im afraid
Im really afraid to snoop
and Im afraid to find out the truth
but dying on the inside to know
im so glad no one knows me here
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Posted by bernadettesaint on 2007-11-19 15:26:46 | Rating: | Views: 75
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i hope you find the strength to work things out, you must protect yourself friend, if you need someone to talk to you can message me x love and hugs x
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Posted by missmarie
on 2007-11-19 16:54:28
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That is incredible writing. I can relate to your expression of your feelings. My heart goes out to you. You can message me, too.
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Posted by serenityseeker
on 2007-11-30 16:12:25
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