there is an episode of some crazy show on tv tonight

its thanksgiving

I'm too stuffed to move, so I'm watching it

I'm not quite sure because I've never seen this show before, but there is a married couple and a women who is trying to steel the married guy away from his wife. The married guy works for the family of the girl who is trying to take him away from his wife. The married women does not want to go to the place where they have all been invited because the women who is trying to take her husband away is going to be there too. 

The guy acts so innocent stuck in the middle but obviously likes the attention.

When he tells his wife to come with him, it reminded me so much of the Christmas party at my husbands office.  You know he really does not want his wife to go, and his wife does not want to go but the wife feels like she had better go, and when she does she finds out her husband was kissed by the other women so the wife gets very upset.

They fight, the wife leaves, and the wife calls him later and says she's sorry, but the whole situation is really getting to her...and the husband says he will quit, if it hurts her that much and she says, no, I don't want you to. 

this is the sticky part, my husband wont get rid of the women/in the tv show, at least the guy respects his wife enough that he says he will quit working for this girls family so it wont keep coming between them/in my situation, real life here, the women works for my husband so its a little different/but my husband says he can not get rid of the women that works for him who has made my life miserable for 8 to 10 years.  /the women that used to be my friend who now acts like she does not know me, see other posts/She makes him too much money he says, and she has kids/says, that she is trying to support her poor kids, /well, I say he has kids too, and our family is more important than money/and that she needs to get out of our life, or at least his life/and especially his office and I recently found out, she is not going anywhere and she just moved into a bigger, nicer office within his office. I have wanted my husband to get rid of this person that works for him since before he hired her. 

I don't know if he likes the attention he gets from her, if they had or are having an affair, or if he just enjoys making me jealous, whatever/I think he likes his friends to know he's so cool, he is the boss of a very good looking single divorcee/sort of a guy thing/regardless, this whole situation has made me nuts, way too nuts/and up until recently, the stress of it all took my appetite away/I have been pretty thin for 8 to 10 years/ I was usually too upset to eat,  now I can not stop/I  have to say this is a worse situation because now, I have lost all confidence, before I could walk around and wear my size 2's and 4's and manage to look nice occasionally and was able to adopt an attitude of, well, he might not like me, but others would die for someone as cool as me/just kidding, but now, its more like, I'm a big fat cow, who would want me, he probably can't wait to get away from me and be around her and that's why he is always thinking of reasons to go to his office all the time

I have never been able to figure this out, what went on, if anything, for how long and is it still continuing and how much does she know about me/i truly can not get this out of my head and move forward because there is always something that comes up like her name, oh that name, who knew it was so popular, and her pictures and more/.I saw that cork again today in his gym bag when I had to move it while cleaning the house for thanksgiving, but the massage oil was no longer in there...now someone tell me what that is about?

low self esteem is Not a real good way to attract a man/no self confidence here /and we all know men love self confidence, but at this moment I literally have nothing to wear because I have gained so much weight and all I want to do is dive in a gallon of ice cream to make my mind stop going to this bad place with so many imagined or not/ scenarios.
difficult soul would not be happy with me because she said she would never bring up this chicks name ever again and i cant help myself, it makes me so darn mad that I have spent so much time and energy on all of this and i have much better things to do, and I know it and I cant make myself stop and I also know I could end up driving him away if I dont get a handle on it but I feel like he might have made a fool of me and manipulated me and is setting me up or Im just nuts and am ruining my own life and I bet every single one of you out there will tell me, I am driving the car, I am making myself nuts and I need to stop/but how, someone please tell me how to stop eating, ice cream/ for me its getting to be like a martini to an alcoholic, Im intoxicating myself with mint choc chip.
when i do that at least i dont get panic attacks and when I go cold turkey, since its thanksgiving, we need to talk turkey tonight/ that is if I try to go without choc or junk food, i start feeling all stressed out like im having a heart attack