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The Change
dear friend, i fear my back will never be the same. here i sit, hunched, there i stand, hunched. But its all relative to where ever it is im supposed to be. i thought i would slouch here at my desk and stare at this bright white screen for a bit before i closed my eyes. how i wish i could......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-07 00:33:43 | Rating:

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Frontiers
dear friend, Im setting out to the west on a caravan of the most interesting people i've yet to meet. there is the junkie, frankie, who beleives that all the world is spinning along violently like a skipping rechord player. Also Suzanna, whos own beauty left her when she realized......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-09 00:58:05 | Rating:

| Views: 79 | Comments: 1 | Tags: front ears

Thinking Aloud
dear friend, and the day stopped and all i was, was what i didnt want to be and i cried and cried but that doesnt matter what matters? i dunno not this not these words these words are the dillusional attepmt of a man whos given up but you know, fuck it do you say the......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-13 03:50:28 | Rating:

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New Nostalgia
dear friend, Ive had a renewal of freshness tonight. Thanks to the ever-idle world i live in, ive managed to search through some of the most obscure regions of cyber-space I feel like ive opened a new box of my mind, and ive got that "just out of the box" sort of smell about......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-14 02:11:24 | Rating:

| Views: 79 | Comments: 0 | Tags: warm fuzzy life

I meet my Abandoned FriendS! AGAIn!
dear friend, the puddle ive stepped in has proven to be oceanic always i step you know i love to step around but my feet never know where it is they lead my head so im doomed to follow the fate of my feet can you hear this?! or should it be, read this. why is it love and......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-16 04:06:23 | Rating:

| Views: 71 | Comments: 0 | Tags: this is no thing to mess with

Real Life
dear friend, i think ive about made the decision yeah, the one that ive been thinking about for ages it seems nothing will ever defunk this fuckin ride its not to give up but to begin anew school.....hah its drained my every ounce of soul maybe its just the moment im in so......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-18 01:59:19 | Rating:

| Views: 67 | Comments: 1 | Tags: hah

My Death
dear friend, im a looooser im a loooooser and im not what i appear to be yes, my friend, i wish i could just die but what the fuck was that!!!!! i might be going insane please dear god help me because i cant tell you from them and i dont know where i am ever......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-20 02:25:07 | Rating:

| Views: 81 | Comments: 0 | Tags: 6 feet under

Mars
Friend, Everything ive ever written, anything ive ever thought has just been.....changed wow isnt it amazing the couragiousness of the human spirit that last blog means nothing to me now amazing fucking amazing jesus i dont even have the right to say that name, jesus.......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-20 05:20:51 | Rating:

| Views: 79 | Comments: 0 | Tags: 06571

4am
Hello Friend, I guess ill start with a question or maybe its just a statement Isnt it strange how much can change over such a short period of time? Yeah i guess it is how is there a way to rate happiness and how can i increase it? someone needs to write a book about it i will......Read More

Posted on: 2008-04-22 04:00:00 | Rating:

| Views: 96 | Comments: 1 | Tags: sober

Poop
ive got the words locked away and ive forgotten the combination im trapped inside myself and mostly i fear what ive always known has not ever been here my hearts never been quite full that little pocket of funk just pokes away at me and my visions of myself......Read More