My shaking, clammy hand around it.
A cold, shiny, brass doorknob.
I can't let go.
Yet know I must.
I hold that door closed with my hand.
But the door must stay shut
on it's own I understand.
Beyond the door you sit.
Smiling, laughing, behind blue eyes.
Thinking I will return on my knees,
As I have so many times before.
Oh no, not this time,
Clutching my broken, patched heart in my hand.
I slowly open my hand.
Through watery eyes I look.
That gift I gave to you,
Handed back to me in peices.
It can be repaired,
But never beautiful as before.
A chuckle escapes as I realize,
I am but damaged goods.
© Andi 2007