I wish you would just kill yourself and get it over with. You tried it once when you were younger, so you told me. I wish you would have succeeded back then, so I never would have met you. How... Read More
Posted by: befree4once on 2008-03-01 00:57:23
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Please God, take away all of these memories of him. I don't want them, I don't want them, I don't want them. Why did I have to meet him, why did I have to even talk to him. I never talk to people,... Read More
Posted by: befree4once on 2008-03-01 12:56:04
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I cried when I listened to this in the car last night. I know it's what you would have said to me if you could. If you could have just asked for help. If you could just have... Read More
Posted by: befree4once on 2008-03-02 18:54:35
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Getting pretty sick. nothing matters. no new job comng. i feel so bad. i dont want to play volleyball tonite. i cant even eat. nothing. NOTHING NOTHING NOHING NOTHING NOTHING NOTIHNIG. i hate him.... Read More
Posted by: befree4once on 2008-03-03 18:41:07
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Nuff said. Read More
Posted by: befree4once on 2008-03-04 16:48:19
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I don't understand my actions. Or lack thereof. I am not in love with my husband anymore. We've been together for almost 17 years (since we were 16)! Yet we have nothing in common but the past. We... Read More
Posted by: befree4once on 2008-03-05 13:18:36
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I signed off of IM today so I couldn't see you on. I couldn't stand the torture anymore. I don't get anything done at work because I am constantly fighting with myself on whether I should IM you... Read More
Posted by: befree4once on 2008-03-05 16:49:38
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Stay strong. You can do it. Do not let him take anything else from you. He has already taken so much and given so little. He is a weak soul who grasps desperately at people... Read More
Posted by: befree4once on 2008-03-10 18:17:27
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Hope you can't sleep because you figure out how shitty you treated me. I was only trying to love you. Thanks for being totally dishonest with me all the time and never showing that you care... Read More
Posted by: befree4once on 2008-03-11 00:40:41
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I was blessed this week in the midst of my overwhelming depression of late to have some positive things happen. Maybe this means that I'm not all bad in karma's eyes. I got a new job,... Read More
Posted by: befree4once on 2008-03-11 15:20:26
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This is so hopeless. When will this misery end. I can't stand it anymore. Just please go away. Die. Get incarcerated. Go missing where no one knows where you are. Please. I can't stand knowing you... Read More
Posted by: befree4once on 2008-03-11 18:12:27
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I'm just blogging to say that not much is happening the last few days. I'm pretty even keel for now. Not happy, not real sad. Don't know why I'm posting about this, but if anything, I can keep a... Read More
Posted by: befree4once on 2008-03-15 00:03:56
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I can't believe that I used to be in love with someone so uncaring about anyone but his own damn self. Sample of our on-line conversations: Me:  I was 20 ft away from Russell Crowe this... Read More
Posted by: befree4once on 2008-03-17 19:58:06
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Well I was doing OK this past week. I started my Zoloft, was on the 1/2 tablet for 7 days, now just went up to the full tablet. I don't have any side effects really, maybe some anxiousness and a... Read More
Posted by: befree4once on 2008-03-24 19:15:24
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Just 3 more frickin days and I'm out of this stupid piece of shit place -- 10 years and 9 months later!! I should have left 4 1/2 years ago when I had the proper motivation. That would have... Read More
Posted by: befree4once on 2008-03-25 20:29:15
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