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| The Beginning pt.2 (Moving in together)
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When we moved into Marks appartment it was heaven. We shared my car because he sold his galant and i had just bought mine. I loved being able to go home to him and just watch a movie and relax, go to the gym, cook dinner together. It was amazing. I loved when we went to the gym out there he would lift downstairs and i would run, or whatever i did.We could go hang out with friends if we wanted to or go home and be alone. I loved my alone time with him. I loved waking up to himmaking me french toast or in the shower. I loved joining him and having our time before work. I was amazed by how great things were, how much things didn't change from us living apart and us living together.
I loved our drives to andfrom work everyday. I felt invincable with him, we WERE invincable. So i thought. VALENTINES DAY... we were extremely broke so we did nothing for eachother... but mike told me he got me a promise ring but they couldn't size it down right and he wanted me to get one that would look right. I thought about it and felt like he should have one too, we wanted to get married at some point. I was completely head over heels for him. With all of my heart, all of my being and all of my soul in love with him. Mike was my world. I still to this day feel like he is the only man that has or will ever truely have my whole heart. We had this stupid saying that was off a movie, turned joke, that I wold tell him i loved him forever, and he's say AND EVER! I ended up getting his ring before i got mine (i wear size 3 1/2 ring so it's hard to make) and i engraved the inside with "Forever and Ever" perfect ehh?
"We were invincable"... Then it happened...
One night his phone kept going off every two seconds.... it was honestly getting annoying... i asked him who he was talking to and he said gary (one of his good friends) so i let it go and kept watching our movie. Well on his phone the front says who the text was from when it rings... it wasn't gary... it said Jess. Well i asked him to say hi for me and so on... he said he did but still no txt from gary... all from jess. I knew who this girl was, his ex... the girl he lost his virginity to. i had met her on thanksgiving which was a bad way to meet her. She came to thanksgiving pretending like i didn't exsist and tried to be buddy buddy with the fmaily, his brother and his gf got mad and said that she had no right to be there and i should tell her to leave. I didn't of course but i was pissed. ..... sooo...
the next morning i woke up to mike in the shower and his phone next to me on the nightstand.... i took a quick look (which is something i would have never done because i trusted him). I about threw up when i read the txt. I goes like this...
From j: Baby i want to see you so bad come to the bar, what are you doing?
From m: i'm at the movies with brody (his friend) I'll see what i'm doing in about an hour i can probably go down there. (He was at home with me)
from j: I want you to kiss me and i want to hear your sexy voice
From m: i'll be there in about an hour....
thats all i read... i played it cool because the shower turned off, pretended i was asleep and waited for him to "wake me up" i took him to work and didn't speak a word to him the whole morning.
When he got to work i left without kissing him or saying anything.
He txt me and asked what was wrong, i asked why he was talking to jessica and completely flipped out. I was so beyond pissed off i could have killed him. he asked me to get him from work (i had already called in, we worked together) and i told him to walk home cause i didn't want to see him. My phone went off about 50 times in 20 min and i just couldn't stop crying. Eventually i went to go get him, we talked, he said sorry... but i never really trusted him again. That changed everything. I felt like he put me off for 3 years whats going to stop him from cheating on me? why would he have the intentio. He said it was simply a joke and never admitted to wanting to go see her. But.... i never took it as a joke, i still wanted to kill him.
Side note: i found out jessica worked withus to, it took all of me not tobeat the shit out of her cause she knew we were together.
None the less, we stayed together, i got my ring and he tried daily to make it up to me. I forgave him, but still didn't trust him. At this point we were getting ready to move our of the appartment. Things were about to change dramaticially.... |
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Posted by beczj on 2008-07-28 18:09:43 | Rating: | Views: 18
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I was in the mall shopping for a picture frame for a relatively close friend of mine. She had just come home from her honeymoon and we were getting together this coming weekend to catch up and look at her photos . As I was walking into the store I made eye contact with her husband, surprisingly he approached me and we began speaking to one another. Now, I had only met him about three or four times before because after they met she stopped seeing many of her friends as with most new relationships. It was a brief dating period for them, in fact, they were married within five months of meeting each other. He was very pleasant, in fact he was overly nice and was leading into conversations that were making me feel a little uneasy. He started asking personal questions about my relationships and made an inquiry about me going out with a newly married man and how he could really show me a good time. He asked for my cellphone number and would not stop until I gave in, "WHAT A FOOL I AM" Now I don't know what to do, I can't tell my her because it will end my friendship for sure and I can't possibly go to her home and pretend this didn't happen. I confided with another close friend of mine and she told me about this site http://urajerk.com/ At first I thought is was just another one of those sites that pop up here and there but I checked it out. I must say I like it and thats why I am spreading the word. I was able to send him a few cards with some personal anonymous messages, he will know they are from me, but no one else will. I love this site because I can at least tell him that he is a F#%//ng JERK. Has anyone else gone through this crap before? How can men be such assholes? I mean JERKS!!!
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Posted by linda_nyc
on 2008-07-29 06:27:22
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