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He ignored me today.
I was sat with him at lunch and he just avoided me in every way possible. I hadnt even intentionally sat there, there were no other seats. he was being anti social with those bloody head phones rammed in his ears. I tried to grab his attention, make him smile, but he was having none of it. In the end I turnedd away and starting laughing and joking with some other friends of mine, all male I might add, throwing paper balls at each other.
He seems to be pushing me away, I overheard him talking to my best frind earlier and when I turned round they both went silent. I could be paranoid, or self-obsesseed, but why would he speak with her and not me??? Despite his constant denials I know something is wrong, whether at home or school I suppose I am vain to think it would concern me. But he's my friend, I dont want him to feel as though he cant talk to me. It frustates me, and I feel insecure with my place in our group of friends. His responses make me anxious and I hate the distance there is between us.
He might trying to help me get over him but its just making it harder, though despite these attempts I do care for him, and I cant grasp at the fact that he doesnt want me near him.
I hate being apart like this, not physically, but emotionally....well both I guess :)
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Posted by becontreebabe on 2007-11-08 09:26:32 | Rating: | Views: 47
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